I see our initial >time as much less romantic. How meaningful is our first kiss >if she slept with some guy afterwards? I hate that I feel that >way, but can't stop it.
If that moment between you and her was special, let it remain so. Don't revise history now that you have a 'new truth'; it doesn't make y'alls first kiss any less 'true', you feel me?
I don't know whose idea this was, but it was very bad. If y'all are together and you make each other happy, let it be so.
how women work and how time works doesn't really line up with the expectations we put on romanticism/relationships.
remove the asterisk, and move on. There's plenty of shit out there to kill your relationship...this aint the hill to die on.