my family is so messed up. and im a product of it or maybe im the creator of it? i overanalyze but im like yo, im not calling nobody. & like a granted wish...nobody called me. mad texts. hella fb xmas wishes. & that was like all i wanted to put out there too. so i get it. but it was...theres an episode of twilight zone where the protagonist is in a hallucination that hes the only man in the world. and i wont say i felt like that but maybe like .005% of that.
then out the blue a relative called. someone ive seen maybe...4-10 times in life? and was just like merry xmas, hug the kids, when we gonna get together wamp wamp small talk basically just to say hey. & i felt some kinda way...like...aww. im human after all. so while im really enjoying this time...im ready for it to be over. lol.