I got a lot to say in a couple of months.

cause i was texting on my phone

this be making me think about if kids can get concussions from shit like that
falling off beds and couches
i wonder how many 70s and 80s babies got concussions from falling off couches

Until you read the whole post.

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to straddle the edge like that
we be on the couch and i hold her legs and let her dangle like she is superman
her momma said dont do that because she will think she can do it on her own but im hardheaded

now she jumps off the couch headfirst like she is superman

that dont hurt cause it is only 18 inches to the floor and i usually have a pillow or blanket there to lessen the blow

but our bed is like one of them granma beds where you have to step up into it so it might be a 3 feet fall to the ground

she's been eyeing this leap for weeks now
never jumped
but yesterday
she grabbed a play block from the middle of the bed
turned to sit on her bottom them just sliiiiiiiiiid right off the edge of the bed

nah.
i blame the foam mattress not giving enough support on the edges and the silky material of the duvet cover

im innocent
im innocent (c) snoop

The baby loves to crawl to the edge of the couch or the bed.

I let her fall gently.

I'm starting to think that she thinks it's a game now.

It'd be nice if she learned a little about consequences.

It's not that difficult for her to learn in other circumstances.

For now, she likes to tempt fate.

I hold her leg w/ one hand and nudge her w/ the other to see if she feels any sense of danger.

*phew* finally. she does.

Still, it gives her mom a damb heart-attack to watch it.

and I'm "MEH" than a muthafucka

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like... i might've killed her in that dream if I'd let it go on.

She did me the foulest. It's been months and I still think about it/her every day.

I did and it's been awesome. I lucid dream every night and it's been great at showing me common themes. I dream about my dead ex a lot. May he R.I.P.


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Let that shit go, better to rehash it over and over here if needed rather then hold it in and fuck around, snap and kill the bitch

...my aunt who usually orchestrates all holiday activities had triple bypass surgery last friday. the celebration is still on for today
(we and a lot of haitians celebrate xmas on xmas eve) but this has been a huge wake up call for me and all the 'kids' from my generation to step it up
and make more of an effort to come together the way we grew up coming together under our parents. gotta keep the fam tight.

...it's ill to see a lot of people who maybe as little as a few months ago would have called me paranoid or crazy for holding certain views actually see shit the way i do. recent events are just proving what times we are truly living in and people are waking up. the only thing is i fear things will have to get way worse than it is now before it ever gets better.

...still seeking management. making it my 2015 resolution. i never make new years resolutions, ever. but this is a concrete goal that i MUST accomplish or else everything i worked for in 2014 is for naught.

I popped back in just to confess that I'm excited about Christmas morning because I can't wait to see my lil girl's face when she comes down the stairs Christmas morning. I've alredy put together her grand piano (sharper image.com) and her Loving Family dollhouse with her AA family (Amazon). Everything else is wrapped up.

I already have my Christmas gift from my hubby. 4 pandora charms: a D, a B, an interlocking hearts charm and the everlasting love charm with real diamonds in the flowers 😍.

And my Christmas gift to my hubby is a clean house and I'm almost done! Have a merry Christmas everyone!

What's the allure?

not for me, but on women.

*shrug*

I had no idea what it was about, and didn't feel like being nosy and asking. Are they giving shit away?


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Every one of my charms has meaning. And that's what I love. The thought behind them. For instance, my dad bought me a Detroit Lions helmet charm because of my undying love for the Lions. My hubby's charms are all centered around our love. 😊

It's the thought. And it's the gift that keeps on giving.

In case she got me something, then I've also got something to give.
I'm trying to keep things kinda casual, were undefined. But she likely got me something. And if not, her birthday is in two weeks.

I just realized (I'm late) I got him a phone in august for his birthday for 600. I'm financing it but it is still costing me 600 dollars. He has never spent even half of that on a gift for me. But he bought the watch accessory for himself for 150 using my discount. The way I look at it, if he can't save money up to buy a nice gift for me, then that phone should be his birthday, christmas, and next birthday gift.

Lol
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"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts..." -The Bard

I know I'm wrong, but I can't control my face. 8o/
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two major items on my long-term list and all the items off my daily list.
And afterwards, I still felt like crap. Fatigued, anxious, restless.
That is what depression is.


I can't wait for the holidays to be over. The ensuing quietness will be like good medicine for me.

>And afterwards, I still felt like crap. Fatigued, anxious,
>restless.
>That is what depression is.

>I can't wait for the holidays to be over. The ensuing
>quietness will be like good medicine for me.

and good things soon come!

KC is a great kid, but he's 18, at the age where he thinks the world owes him everything and his wisdom is superior to everyone that doesn't align with this teenage mind. Thus, the boy level of arrogance had increased over the past 2 months and the edge of the cliff is closer than he thinks.

So, I have pull back on the level of support and provision, so that he can be humbled.

Auuugggggh. This Fatherhood parenting of a teen is a killer.





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"America, stop turning our Court Houses of Justice into Dens for Justified Murderers."

i wouldnt want to make it a habit, this is my first chill ass christmas alone.

i mean, im going a dinner tmw but I have literally done nothing but lay in bed all day watching movies. just now im getting up to go eat something.

I usually got home to Chicago, but I'm not doing shit. Ain't buy nobody nothing.
I'm going to a pot luck with friends tonight, but that's about it. I've slept so much in 3 days.

I miss it.

Baking cookies and sending them off, decorating and sending cards,
then chilling at home watching Christmas movies.

just a bit of action. give the man some. give the man some nookie.

i feel guilty that im enjoying myself tho, its like my loved ones are elsewhereim literally doing nothing. i mean im eating, working out, watching tv, surfing the net, listening to music & smoking weed...pretty much none stop since tuesday. this shit is shangri-la EXCEPT...the people who matter most arent here w/ me...but if they WERE...i wouldnt be doing this shit

so im sliiiiigghtly torn

but over all...i havent had this much do whatever the hell i wanna do time since before my 1st child was born, and thats ridiculous. i need to do this more often


does it really matter?

for all my fans who keep my name in their mouth: http://i.imgur.com/v2xNOpS.jpg

spaced
like
a
muthafucka

his company is doing some renovation work for us
and of course the day he comes to pick up a check and we meet i looked horrible. it was rainy and it was a day i was on a construction site :(

but he came by on monday for another check and i was ready. lol.

i even had a little dream that he asked me out. *sigh*

She's an even bigger pervert then I am

I am so done working under people who i am more qualified than..

Who have less education and less life experience than me...

I was a Watch Supervisor in the navy for Christ's sake...

for a Navy Combat information Center!!!!!

and I work for some joker who's last job was at the apple store help desk...

2015 is Do or Die time... Im all in now...

about a certain situation. also pleased that i kept my reservations to myself and just waited to see how it played out.

Tara's set was amazing but afterwards I was over it.

It didn't help that he said hi to me, awkward as ever and less interesting.

No one really showed but tis cool, I persevered.

It's like Ihsan said on FB, I just wish I could converse with someone that excites me on all levels but whatever...

happy christmas.

I'm getting trashed.


"i wanna hug all u idiotic bastards & then set you all on fire" -Bin

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it really brings out the worst in people

i didn't start my shopping until monday and i mostly shopped for myself, lol. i finished today. the hub and i are exchanging after xmas so we can catch the sales.

nm

I saw a quote yesterday "Living life on my own terms in a world full of
terms." That's exactly how I feel. Things aren't perfect, but very happy
and designed by me.

Still considering living in NY for the summer. Would be fun.

Getting a new laptop this week. Game changer.

Having a cold during xmas is the worst thing ever. At least I had the opportunity to chill with cool people.

my family is so messed up. and im a product of it or maybe im the creator of it? i overanalyze but im like yo, im not calling nobody. & like a granted wish...nobody called me. mad texts. hella fb xmas wishes. & that was like all i wanted to put out there too. so i get it. but it was...theres an episode of twilight zone where the protagonist is in a hallucination that hes the only man in the world. and i wont say i felt like that but maybe like .005% of that.

then out the blue a relative called. someone ive seen maybe...4-10 times in life? and was just like merry xmas, hug the kids, when we gonna get together wamp wamp small talk basically just to say hey. & i felt some kinda way...like...aww. im human after all. so while im really enjoying this time...im ready for it to be over. lol.


does it really matter?

for all my fans who keep my name in their mouth: http://i.imgur.com/v2xNOpS.jpg