On week three of my health change
Week 1 started solely with cutting carbs and calories. 1500 a day is my limit
Week 2 added weight lifting to my mornings using the 5 x 5 app
Week 3 I've added some core work to after the weight lifting
Next week I wanna add some back work
Then when the weather gets better I'll add some running and biking

All in all I'm feeling progressively better. I'm still probably 35 more pounds than my body wants, but the weight lifting has me not losing weight as quickly. But I'm looking so much better. And that look is changing how I feel about myself.

I'd forgotten how it was to be skinny or at least slim. The weight gain was so sudden (I got sick and the medicine they put me on caused me to gain about 60 lbs in two months) and I've never made real progress towards being skinny again. I did once get close, but it wasn't something I managed to sustain or had a real plan to.

But back to how I feel about myself. It's the little things. Part of the reason I wear glasses every day is because of how it makes my face look a little slimmer, I'm looking forward to wearing contacts on occasions. I don't think I've been swimming in at least five years because I haven't wanted to take my shirt off. And I know for certain it's affected my sex life, because when I don't feel great about me I don't want to take my clothes off.

So I'm looking forward to these changes. Feeling more me again. At least a me that I remember. It's been a LONG road to recovery, a LONG road to stability. And I'm proud of myself for putting in the work.

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus