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the_best_part
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"blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman"


  

          

that's what he said. 'i made you a woman, now you too big for your britches'
and im wondering if his wife knows he is speaking to me this way, and really, does he really believe the shit he talks?

he made me alot of things, but he didnt make me a woman
he made me afraid
he made me ashamed
he made me skinny
he made me ugly
he made me pregnant
he made me sad
he made me a coward
he made me forget
that i was
a woman
beautiful
sexy
brave
a fighter
what made me remember?
the straw that broke the camel down?
im not sure
something about being baracaded in that house
bars on the windows
deadbolt locks on the doors
no phone
two babies
something about him, comin and goin
comin to bring groceries
and take the money from underneath the mattress
staying enough to fuss
fuss about the clothes i was wearing
or the milk gone bad
or the way the baby was crying
fussin made him angry
angry enough to threaten me
angry enough to grab my arms and bend them around behind my back
angry enough to slam me up against a wall
i mean dam....
how was my 130 lbs ever gonna be a match to his 6ft9 frame?
so i guess it was that last time he pulled me by my hair
and dragged me up that hall way
or that last time he hit me so hard
my lip split in two
the last time he called me a bitch in front of my children
the last time he came home from a smokin bringe
making me all too familiar with what a crack head was about
ashy lips, dull skin tone, hair fallin out and fucked up teeth
smokin so much his voice was horse and he sounded like a bitch when he yelled at me
that last time he took the tv and meat from the freezer when he left
lockin that dead bolt and takin the key
the last time i allowed myself to feel trapped
that's what made me remember
and grow a spine in the middle of the night
take my babies and get the hell outa dodge
he was sleepin so hard, after 3 or 4 days chasin crack
he didnt even hear the floor boards creak
or feel my hand slip inside his pocket for the key

so, when i spoke with him today....we had a little disagreement about my sons, our sons goin to spend the summer with him. so when he said to me, 'i made you a woman'
i could only say, 'you made me alot of things, but i made me this woman here'

@asiaradiant

  

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Punk nukkas
May 28th 2005
1
Deadbeat daddies...
Jun 01st 2005
14
,
May 30th 2005
2
RE: blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman
May 30th 2005
3
well done sis
May 30th 2005
4
bumpin..
May 31st 2005
5
this is a true personal blog entry?
May 31st 2005
6
RE: this is a true personal blog entry?
May 31st 2005
7
      damn
May 31st 2005
8
RE: blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman
May 31st 2005
9
Strength
Jun 01st 2005
10
Gyrlfriend!!!!!
Jun 01st 2005
11
excellent
Jun 01st 2005
12
Wow.
Jun 01st 2005
13
you made pain
Jun 01st 2005
15
this is the stuff that...
Jun 01st 2005
16

Shakeet Lokh Em
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1. "Punk nukkas"
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This is one of those rare times that such a bad situation is turned into captivating, strong poetry. I heard saxophones playin in my head while I was reading this. To go with the mood. Tight as always. ~one~

"I'm scientific, but my reflex gangsta"- Black Thought

  

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Soulbrotha
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14. "Deadbeat daddies..."
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nothing worse than a man who can't stand up and be a man for his own fam.

Many props to this piece. I loved it.

"Do to others what you would others have done unto you." - The Lord Jesus Christ

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the_best_part
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2. ","
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@asiaradiant

  

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knowledge3754
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3. "RE: blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman"
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feelin it
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only a true geek can peep how much worth this is
-mf doom

  

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xandra360
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4. "well done sis"
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I was right there with you from beginning to end

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the_best_part
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5. "bumpin.."
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cause she might be thinkin bout leaving. or he might be thinkin bout changing.

@asiaradiant

  

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MiracleRic
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6. "this is a true personal blog entry?"
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just curious

Let me sport my Air Hyperbole 2010s in peace. (c) ansomble

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the_best_part
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7. "RE: this is a true personal blog entry?"
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yeah. straight from my blog.

@asiaradiant

  

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MiracleRic
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sometimes how harsh life's lessons are amaze me

Let me sport my Air Hyperbole 2010s in peace. (c) ansomble

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the unknown
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9. "RE: blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman"
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nice. you always paint a vivid picture

when i spit i flood the block and walk on water like christ/ i'm a mix of jay-z and nas which makes me twice as nice
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the unknown

  

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southernboy_423
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that shit is above and beyond



....and so it goes, im at it again. Fix ur fucking face, Im in the building!

  

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PhotoSynthesis
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11. "Gyrlfriend!!!!!"
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You unleashed some demons ^UP^ off in this pCe! --



*Cleansing Flow~Stream*

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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-T
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"rick ross got old african woman swag" (c)nayaa

  

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Why do bad things happen to the most beautiful of people.

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blaksilence
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15. "you made pain"
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beautiful, entertaining, thought provoking, etc.

that isn't an easy thing to do.

i've seen this situation in my family...to the point that we had to take bats
(and etc's) to my aunt's house to handle the situation

and the genuine and general sentiment was 'fk this ngga'

but you chose to present something so harsh in a soft, not angry?, different and wise light.

that choice was genius.

quotes:

the whole thing.

i'm really a fan right about now.



_____________________________________

The cry I bring down from the hills
__________belongs to a girl still burning
__________inside my head. At daybreak

____________________she burns like a piece of paper. - YK

  

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paperdollpoet
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16. "this is the stuff that..."
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great novels are based off of..

whatever he tried to make you into..
use it & make yourself a novelist.

it would be ugly & sad & beautiful & uplifting & possibly life changing for other women trapped in "women making" factories.

your blog is becoming a part of my daily routine.

---
www.sheflypaper.com

  

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