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15741, blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman Posted by the_best_part, Sat May-28-05 06:34 PM
that's what he said. 'i made you a woman, now you too big for your britches' and im wondering if his wife knows he is speaking to me this way, and really, does he really believe the shit he talks?
he made me alot of things, but he didnt make me a woman he made me afraid he made me ashamed he made me skinny he made me ugly he made me pregnant he made me sad he made me a coward he made me forget that i was a woman beautiful sexy brave a fighter what made me remember? the straw that broke the camel down? im not sure something about being baracaded in that house bars on the windows deadbolt locks on the doors no phone two babies something about him, comin and goin comin to bring groceries and take the money from underneath the mattress staying enough to fuss fuss about the clothes i was wearing or the milk gone bad or the way the baby was crying fussin made him angry angry enough to threaten me angry enough to grab my arms and bend them around behind my back angry enough to slam me up against a wall i mean dam.... how was my 130 lbs ever gonna be a match to his 6ft9 frame? so i guess it was that last time he pulled me by my hair and dragged me up that hall way or that last time he hit me so hard my lip split in two the last time he called me a bitch in front of my children the last time he came home from a smokin bringe making me all too familiar with what a crack head was about ashy lips, dull skin tone, hair fallin out and fucked up teeth smokin so much his voice was horse and he sounded like a bitch when he yelled at me that last time he took the tv and meat from the freezer when he left lockin that dead bolt and takin the key the last time i allowed myself to feel trapped that's what made me remember and grow a spine in the middle of the night take my babies and get the hell outa dodge he was sleepin so hard, after 3 or 4 days chasin crack he didnt even hear the floor boards creak or feel my hand slip inside his pocket for the key
so, when i spoke with him today....we had a little disagreement about my sons, our sons goin to spend the summer with him. so when he said to me, 'i made you a woman' i could only say, 'you made me alot of things, but i made me this woman here'
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15742, Punk nukkas Posted by Shakeet Lokh Em, Sat May-28-05 06:50 PM
This is one of those rare times that such a bad situation is turned into captivating, strong poetry. I heard saxophones playin in my head while I was reading this. To go with the mood. Tight as always. ~one~
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15743, Deadbeat daddies... Posted by Soulbrotha, Wed Jun-01-05 12:46 PM
nothing worse than a man who can't stand up and be a man for his own fam.
Many props to this piece. I loved it.
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15744, , Posted by the_best_part, Mon May-30-05 07:12 AM
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15745, RE: blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman Posted by knowledge3754, Mon May-30-05 08:37 AM
feelin it --------------------------------- home.comcast.net/~aryoung86 <---listen to my songs only a true geek can peep how much worth this is -mf doom
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15746, well done sis Posted by xandra360, Mon May-30-05 09:19 AM
I was right there with you from beginning to end
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15747, bumpin.. Posted by the_best_part, Tue May-31-05 04:35 PM
cause she might be thinkin bout leaving. or he might be thinkin bout changing.
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15748, this is a true personal blog entry? Posted by MiracleRic, Tue May-31-05 04:43 PM
just curious
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15749, RE: this is a true personal blog entry? Posted by the_best_part, Tue May-31-05 04:45 PM
yeah. straight from my blog.
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15750, damn Posted by MiracleRic, Tue May-31-05 04:47 PM
sometimes how harsh life's lessons are amaze me
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15751, RE: blog entry-he thinks he made me a woman Posted by the unknown, Tue May-31-05 10:40 PM
nice. you always paint a vivid picture
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15752, Strength Posted by southernboy_423, Wed Jun-01-05 03:11 AM
that shit is above and beyond
....and so it goes, im at it again. Fix ur fucking face, Im in the building!
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15753, Gyrlfriend!!!!! Posted by PhotoSynthesis, Wed Jun-01-05 09:03 AM
You unleashed some demons ^UP^ off in this pCe! -- :o
*Cleansing Flow~Stream*
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15754, excellent Posted by tonywashington, Wed Jun-01-05 10:37 AM
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15755, Wow. Posted by KnowOne, Wed Jun-01-05 10:45 AM
Why do bad things happen to the most beautiful of people.
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15756, you made pain Posted by blaksilence, Wed Jun-01-05 03:19 PM
beautiful, entertaining, thought provoking, etc.
that isn't an easy thing to do.
i've seen this situation in my family...to the point that we had to take bats (and etc's) to my aunt's house to handle the situation
and the genuine and general sentiment was 'fk this ngga'
but you chose to present something so harsh in a soft, not angry?, different and wise light.
that choice was genius.
quotes:
the whole thing.
i'm really a fan right about now.
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15757, this is the stuff that... Posted by paperdollpoet, Wed Jun-01-05 03:35 PM
great novels are based off of..
whatever he tried to make you into.. use it & make yourself a novelist.
it would be ugly & sad & beautiful & uplifting & possibly life changing for other women trapped in "women making" factories.
your blog is becoming a part of my daily routine.
--- www.sheflypaper.com
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