I understand how personal matters can impact performance... I hope things get better for you and yours soon.
Also...
Know that your presence as both peer and moderator is and was nothing short of inspirational. You were fair-minded, even-keeled, and never showed a shred of ego in your moderating duties. I always felt encouraged by you, and looked to your handling of conflict as setting the standard for mods.
Your successor will have big shoes to fill.
"To be a poet is a condition, not a profession." - Robert Frost