40. "no. i was functioning well when it came to obligations" In response to In response to 20
But every day I took time to drink, and when I started it was hard to stop unless I ate or went to sleep. It became, let me do this this and this so I can drink in peace alone.
That's not healthy.
I would want to go to the gym, but would start drinking and be like, well I can't now. I'd want to write a song and say, let me sip something to help me be creative. Sometimes I'd drink at 11 at night and stop at 1 or two am because everyone is asleep then.
That's not healthy on a Tuesday.
Anything could happen at anytime and even tho my partner was there, he couldn't rely on me once I got into my zone.