i was 16 and it was 2 car loads of us riding around looking for something to get into. my guy says he knows a girl that's home alone and she got friends in the neighborhood so that's where we go.once we get there i realize i kinda know the girl cuz i know the girl next door who is one of her friends.

we sit in the parking lot of a town-home community waiting while he goes up to the door to talk to her. the neighborhood had a courtyard layout to it so you parked and walked down a long sidewalk that had townhouses along side it.

he comes back to the car and gives us some lame explanation why he couldnt convince the girl to let us hang out. so we said he was scared and then i said i would go talk to her.

i'm standing there at the door talking to her and everything's going fine when all of a sudden i here a BOOM!!!! followed by laughter. i figured it was my guys clowning, doin dumb shit. the boom was loud as hell. so loud that the girl says that we gonna get her in trouble cuz one of her neighbors gonna tell her mother. it's dark and late at night so she says goodnight.

i'm walking down the sidewalk to my car pissed cuz these clowns messed up a good thing.

all of a sudden this big white dude jumped outta nowhere and said HEY!!! he scared the shit outta me.

for reasons i can't recall right now, i had this miniature louisville slugger baseball bat on me. i'm not sure if i got it from an amusement park or a baseball game or what. but that, along with a bb gun that looked like a glock were my weapons of choice. damn, that sounds even more stupid as i type it.

anyway, it's dark and i'm standing there scared as hell cuz a big white dude just jumped out on me. so i pull out the bat with one hand and it's over my head ready to be swung.

that's when he pulled out the gun.

and pointed it right at my head.

so i go NAH...NAH....DON'T DO IT...

cuz i think i'm dead. this white man that i'd never seen before was about to kill me and i wasn't ready to die.

i was too scared to move.

that's when he said POLICE...and he said some other stuff but i didn't hear a word of it. all i heard was POLICE...

and i was relieved cuz i wasn't gonna die.

in my head, a random white guy woulda killed me. but a cop might not. so i got a good chance of living.

turns out that while i was up at the girl's door talking, one of my clown ass friends decided to go up to a random door and kick it.

it was the cop's door.

so he came outside in jeans and a t-shirt with his gun to find out what was going on.

he didn't shoot me. called for backup and he cuffed me and my friends and we got roughed up as they questioned us...

but we didn't get locked up that night.

as we're in the car driving away, they wanna joke me tawmbout how my voice sounded when i said NAH...NAH....DON'T DO IT...

i was like fuck you, you let a big white man jump outta nowhere and point a gun at your face and see how you react...



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