>after listening to "clarity" by john mayer, this is what
>popped up in my head...

i downloaded that song to be able to reflect upon your train of thought, and that song was lovely! and then i dled many more of his songs, and im loving it all! so thanks for puttin me on some needed good ish!

>I've watched little gurl
>stay stuck in her shell,
>scared of leaving,

mos def. that fear is familiar to all.

and I've
>blown the dust from between
>my fingers; digging in dirt
>trying to retrieve my roots;

i love those two lines. i can relate to being in that circumstance, and i love how you chose to word it.

>I've tugged onto little gurl,
>afraid to let her go,
>because grown women don't
>need direction.
>Grown women can't fall
>into their fathers' laps and
>dream about days before
>divorces and second wives.
>And I find myself wanting
>to be a little gurl again,
>sucking in the airyness that was
>my life. Blending in
>with the shadiest of crowds...
>Pulling my past back
>into me...
>I am not a little gurl anymore
>
>
>or am I?
>
>©Tremaine L. Loadholt

reading that last part, i could sense my angst thats related to the fear i mentioned earlier. lol. and thats what its all about. being touched, and hopefully moved.
i felt the last line left me a little unsure, unfortunately. i didnt know where to go from there.
however, i enjoyed reading this piece, and thank you for the movement.

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"Life is 10 percent condition and 90 percent response -- that's something my father used to say -- it's not the situation, it's how you respond to it." - Mos Def