After I quit practicing law, I took a few months to chill before looking for a job. I started my job hunt on September 10, 2001. Yes. The day before the entire fucking economy shut down.

But you know what? It wasn't even that bad. I believed I could get a job and I wanted a job, and I found one, initially through temping.

Now, 15+ years later, I'm looking for a job and I don't have the intestinal fortitude to even fucking smile. How am I going to interview when I hate everyone and I think this country is basically dead?

The only fucking reason I'm even trying to find a new job is so I can feed my cats.


~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

my boss thinks that I'll want to go to his home and work in his home office a couple of hours a week.

I'd rather starve.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

It sucks.

There's always doc review. Until the machines take over.

The economy was shedding a quarter of a million jobs a month.

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus

"The only fucking reason I'm even trying to find a new job is so I can feed my cats."

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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

Almost nobody at the graduation ceremony had a job that they were about to start.

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I'm still not over that time in my life.

Chase bank straight robbed me. WAMU took cuts out of my unemployment.
Contract work took years off my healthcare
My retirement money is a joke.

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus

and I'm paranoid about it too. I refuse to let it go down again.

>Contract work took years off my healthcare

I don't even want to talk about (lack of) healthcare. Overworking due to underemployment
and lack of access to healthcare has wreaked havoc on my body that I've still yet to really start healing.


>My retirement money is a joke.

I'm dreading the realities of this. Got another year of trying to get right and
help my folks get right, then this is all my money will really be about.


But hey, as a first generation Millennial, at least I know that this is all because I just can't cut it in the real world.

I'd gotten fired (THAT was some BS in and of itself)in 2009 and it took me 13 months to find a new job.

I ended up accepting a position making significantly less than I was previously making and it has fucked me up significantly since then - I'm STILL paying for it by not making what I should be making at this point in my career.

--
the untold want by life and land ne'er granted
now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find

lemme know if you'd like me to potentially look out for you

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https://soundcloud.com/swageyph/yph-die-with-me

I'm sticking to legal or securities industry work. Aren't you a creative type?

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

its creative but in a law firm

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https://soundcloud.com/swageyph/yph-die-with-me

Largest, I know. Oldest? Hmmmm.

Can you inbox me?

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

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https://soundcloud.com/swageyph/yph-die-with-me

can i put up a resume and restrict who can see it...if i don't know who is gonna be looking at it?

if it's a random person searching my name, i don't want to be found.

but if it's a recruiter or hiring manager with an opportunity, i'd want them to see it.

are there different types of profiles that distinguish people so that i could grant access to just those profiles?



sounds kinda dumb after i typed it out but i'll post it anyway...

a job, but I don't think you can limit in general who can see your profile.

Is it that you don't want your job to see you or some random folks in particular?


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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

because of what i do, there are tens of thousands of people who receive emails and snail mail with my name on it. i don't want people being able to Google me and come up with the LinkedIn profile.

i don't care if anybody in my company sees it



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I ain't lyin. This shit i'm making up is true...

With a print journalism degree, no money and no connects.




*cue laughter to cover the tears*

I guess this is mostly a personal thing for me, where I've never been so totally enervated, physically and emotionally, and yet now I need to be fucking chirpy.


~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

You are too brilliant and capable not to. It's just a crappy process. But you've got this.

I'm just so strung out. I should have quit a year ago, and I've spent this entire year watching my boss regress further and further into childhood and me having to step in as mommy, even while I'm being treated like dogshit by the firm and the big client.

I've started yelling at my boss, which doesn't bother him, because he is a BABY and thinks that MOMMY is probably right, but fuck him. In the last three weeks, I've been told 15 different things about whether I can bill overtime, all by him. I finally put my foot down on Friday and said, "Fine, done, I will not do any overtime in the few weeks left in this job. No problem." What happened? Boss called me that night FOR NO REASON but just to "check in" an hour after my departure time. I picked up and said, "what's the problem" because fuck him unless it's an emergency, it can wait. Then yesterday he asked me if I could work overtime and I said NO. No, I am not able to work any more overtime.

He asked me whether that was because I had plans or whether someone at the firm had said anything to me about overtime.

I said, yes, someone at the firm has talked to me about it. YOU have. I have heard too many differing takes on whether or not overtime is okay and I have no energy to even think about it, so I'm taking the problem off the table and doing no more overtime.

He was sad.

I'm like what. ever.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

What's happened to him?

I can say from experience, leaving a toxic place of work, the stress
falls off in waves of relief once your life settles down again.
It's amazing how much a bad work situation can affect your life.

I'm glad you're getting out of there, even though it means going through
the stress of finding a new job. At least that stress is worth it.

I don't actually know whether I'm about to be fired, I have only his word on it. He also says shit like "you'll get 2 weeks notice" and I'm all "where are you getting this, we've been here 3 years and at least 5 paralegals have been let go with ZERO notice".

There's a perfectly good chance that they'll want to keep me, but I'm not getting a lot of signals that's the case.

Today, he wanted to know my opinion of whether he handled the client properly and I said, He's an asshole and, like a child, he needs boundaries. You were too lenient and gave him way too long a leash and he lost respect for you. If you had at the beginning stopped him when he started treating you like dirt, he would either have started acting right or he would have quit you and you wouldn't be in this position now.


~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

for a good 3.5 years......

No empathy for white misery (c) BDot

"root for everybody black haters say that's crazy, wow..."

And the rage of being offered unpaid internships I'd have to travel for,
meanwhile I'm living off what I can scrounge up from couch cushions.

But I'm not bitter...



...Yes I am.

Everyone that graduated without a CS, Engineering, Math, or law degree from 2007 to 2014 wants a redo on their college education in regards to career choice.

No empathy for white misery (c) BDot

"root for everybody black haters say that's crazy, wow..."

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www.albumism.com

Checkin' Our Style, Return To Zero:

https://www.mixcloud.com/returntozero/

It's basically a joke now, anyway.

But all the writing I do is for free and soely for the purposes of helping my sanity. I do enjoy it.

I've got a Master's in it too, so it was really hard to give it up. But if nothing else, it looks good on my resume.

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www.albumism.com

Checkin' Our Style, Return To Zero:

https://www.mixcloud.com/returntozero/

But I don't think I'll ever be a paid journalist again. And I'm okay with that (now).

i had been out of the country for a year fucking around on a career break.

mind you, after being stateside for a couple months, i had to move from LA back to SF and go back to my *old company* as a consultant, when nothing else had materialized. lifelines are real, y'all.

I wish I had one, lol. Lawd I wish I had one.

we'd be sitting in budget meetings talking about "nothing gets built. no one gets hired. no one gets raises. maybe everyone takes a pay reduction. maybe we chop some positions."

it SEEMS like i'll be able to find something pretty quickly, knock on wood.

ntl, good luck

in a region over-saturated with "entrepreneur" 20-somethings.

I'm not looking to go in house at a startup.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

at least that's been my experience.

happy hour at royal exchange... like the WASPyest sausage fest i've ever seen, outside of lower manhattan.

They shut down the block on the whitest holiday of all time, St. Patrick's Day, and I can hear the revelry from inside my office. Not my crowd.


~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

>They shut down the block on the whitest holiday of all time,
>St. Patrick's Day, and I can hear the revelry from inside my
>office. Not my crowd.
>
>
>~ ~ ~
>All meetings end in separation
>All acquisition ends in dispersion
>All life ends in death
>- The Buddha
>
>|\_/|
>='_'=
>
>Every hundred years, all new people

patents are a hot commodity

______________________________________

Navem nu, cuando sol
Tutu nu, vondo nos nu
Vita em, no continous non
Nos nu ekta nos sepe ta, amen

When the sun shades the ship
We sweat and life is not safe
To swim or to touch not
When we unite we hedge amen

lol
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"You can win with certainty with the spirit of "one cut". "Musashi Miyamoto

i love my job. i put in hours and hours. i would assume most people affected by my work think i'm going a good job. i certainly think it's necessary work.

but it's not sustainable with this pay rate and benefits. almost everyone else is leaning on other sources of income, especially a primary earner in the household.

i'm talking myself into another year, but if anyone in my family needed my support, or i had an unforeseen expense...i wouldn't have many options.

I could've written this verbatim. And I'm in the beginnings of a new career, technically.

But for all that I went through with the training, and as much as I love it, I know I can't stay.
With the recent buyout and corporate policy changes, I'm not making nearly enough money to stay above water for long.

I'd like to stay a full year to solidify my credentials so I can still
do it on the side to make extra money, but we'll see how that works out.

The stakes are getting higher now with two parents in the throes of inadequate retirement.
Not to mention tons of medical bills starting to roll in after my accident and surgery.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

>

janey has been really down after this election and I'm asking if her industry is really in the shitter or if it's more than that.

chill

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

but yeah, that takes a huge amount of motivation from me.

Like, let's see, how to find a job in an economy run by a jackass when there's a fair likelihood that whatever I fall into will in some way support his policies. Yeah no, I'd rather poke my eyes out and eat them.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

Though she works as a lawyer, she says there's always options and opportunities out there for paralegals.

If you're referring to the current corporate climate, I get it. But there are places out there that aren't too morally obnoxious. Wife works in insurance defense, which she sees as often helping out small businesses and regular individuals. She briefly worked for an firm that worked with some pretty shady clients (mortgage stuff), but she was so disgusted that was out of there in a month and was able to find a better job on short notice.

All I'm saying is that in the Bay Area there's bound to be non-repugnant establishments.

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Checkin' Our Style, Return To Zero:

https://www.mixcloud.com/returntozero/

send her my best, by the way

I think it won't be hard to find a job. I just had a long interview with a placement firm and they have a wide array of possibilities.

Still, I just want to huddle in my bed and cry.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

.

I buy them dry food that's $35 a bag (lasts 2 weeks) and wet food that's $2 a tin (1 tin per day). Then there's litter, for which I pay around $25 per month. I could live on $150 for food per month.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

how many cats?

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

I fed a cat Fancy Feast as a treat after his cat friend died and he was anxious and alone for the first time in his life, and he acted like he fucking LOVED Fancy Feast, and he was losing weight and vomiting all the time and then I realized it was the fucking food, so I switched to a better food and the vomiting stopped.

Three cats -- two tuxies and a tabby. They are all really interactive and affectionate, and they deserve the best goddammit

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

I fed it the good shit and my wife was like nah... that's our cats food get her some cheap shit.

I put a bowl down and that fool smelled it and bounced.

I ain't want her raggedy ass family in my yard so it was a win win.

That cat was mean as shit too. Hissing at me in MY yard in one of MY potting plants.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

Trap
Neuter
Return

Tbh, my first three cats were strays that took up residence in our back yard (back in the olden days when I lived in a house with a yard). The first was a lost kitty who was spayed, the other two were honest to god strays who needed to be altered. So anyway, I didn't do the TNR thing, I just adopted the hell out of those cats.




~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people