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Ah, I see.
*shrugs*
I don’t think dating is some complex, matrix type shit but I can see how someone would get that vibe based on what I shared.
My dating/relationship experience is definitely a peculiar thing to describe.
My teen years were weird and that has had a trickle-down impact on me, even in adulthood. I was super precocious and mature in some areas and SUPER “late” in others.
The typical start-dating-in-high-school, lose virginity in high school or college, have first relationship before 21, etc. timeline def does not apply to me
My first and only situationship was awful because dude, a childhood classmate, was physically and emotionally abusive. It started off good but I later realized dude was a serial liar and severely mentally ill. Like, he spazzed out on me, speaking gibberish and shit. I was in a bad place when I randomly reconnected with him so I was also dealing with someone I normally wouldn’t have entertained.
A went out on a couple dates in college and nothing bad happened; I just wasn’t attracted to the dudes that asked me out. It was like, ‘He seems nice and he’s decent looking. He’s not basic and he has dope interest in music and literature. I’ve never been on a date before...let me see what this dinner and movies thing is all about.”
Having chemistry with people is hard, even in my platonic, same-sex relationships it’s been hard. I’m an extreme introvert, too. -- "Music is not to be possessed; it's to be shared.” - James Mtume
"Just stay loose, keep it raw, and bang ya drums out sometimes." - Madlib
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