it’s me i’ve been lying in your bed for 364 days now in your white room palefaced looking through dark days.. dazed eyes wishing i could look into yours which you hide so well…. swell’d with tears so i haven’t cried again.. yet i need to see you right now.. in visitations tell you too many times …how i love you
we’re twins somehow separated by two years 12 hours 12 minutes 12 seconds.. 12 spaces on a dial and i never knew i’d have to count anti-clockwise just to find you i ‘m good at reading my calendar backwards now.. wish I could go there.. that day make sure you understand …how i love you
i feel pain at the centre of our being you slash with my fingertips pangs, stabs and gashes sharp talons tear viciously into me what will ease this agony.. i can’t detach.. me.. you.. i can’t recall everything at all i remember each momentary you these oftentimes i cry …how i love you
you tricked me until i learnt better lights on and doors shut or open and then off either way you made me sleep in the dark and i know it was you who drew on the wall but i don’t care anymore supposed to bring sweets a week in hospital 15 and an ingrown toenail you shared yours i thought you loved me.. I need you to know.. now ..how i love you
you taught me so much.. actions spoke proud of strength and purest virtue daily facing adversity.. you never fell a rose blossomed in the crack between once too many stepped on sidewalks in the forever fabric of life yours torn now.. irreparable as I.. patiently..painstakingly cross-stitch time and memory embroidering tenderly ..how I love you
I remember you and your best friend when you were 5 her bone disease stopped movement I feel like that When I think of you everything snaps.. and i remember how you coped with pain, hurt never said never were so easily excited wore red when I got blue pink when I got green sudden smiles, laughing eyes my favourite doll, yours your love, unconditional …how i love you
I recall endless summer days it seems buzz-buzz smiles lisped from your lips.. we ran and danced across white sands rowed blow-up boats on make-shift rivers me the motor kicking water christened two children in church love baptized.. not in photographs shared rooms where only you were stung by mosquitoes in summer you slept on the end of my bed sometimes.. we shared night and day love and heartbreak joy and pain the blood running through our veins still seems more thick than water …how i love you
you left me you loved and loved and loved and then you let go.. let me go..somewhere.. where i blinded numb anaesthetized counted down from one hundred stopped at 97.. white light..stars couldn’t see.. till i mourned you.. with every moment of my being.. bound in your joy.. your agony, your life bound forever still the day i died you were born or every day’s the same i think of you constantly …how i love you
some people long.. happy lives others moonbeams.. bursting stars morning flowers, dewshine flicker ephemeral…volatile evanescently fleet.. flaring blindingly across minds’ skies love-lighting us light still shines here love remains your sons… your name each day i remember i rejoice you pray you won’t forget ..how i love you
love, fly by and bless me again, i miss you more than ever, my little sister eyes cry wishing for you to come back and dry them with your song, your smile..
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