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im a jerk sometimes. i know it. sorry friends. anyways.. i was compelled to write this and it sort of rhymed itself.. shrug.. im an idiot.
I know that I am a man, but my heart is full, red, and tenacious... Only to you, I offer its most fruitful art.. true and beautifully gracious... When you are near, my worry dissipates and my anxiety becomes a mystery... You hold and touch me sweetly, you kiss me... you gently kiss me... I do not share my lips with strangers nor do I share them easily... Only to those true do I pledge my sweet nectar laden divinity... Yet, to you, it is nothing more than just an option.. I feel boxed in a coffin.. I feel like I'm rotting...
You push me away, avoid me, and keep me at bay... My skin turns gray, my mind parts midway and I go astray... In this stormy weather I walk on water and sing my woes... While lightning strikes me down, while sharks bite at my toes... I endure with patience and plea with the grand divine... "Oh why... why does she tremble in my pure blue sky?!" "Does she not feel my warmth and caring touch?!" "Does she think I will betray her!???" "Does she think this is too much??!"
I am clad with armor, a warrior of the world... and yet... Nothing stings as much as your cold shoulder or the lack of your hello's... I have endured pain that can inspire Shakespeare to write ten thousand tragedies.. Still, nothing tugs at my heart more than your anti-love, anti-bartek remedy... I am Romeo without my Juliet... and what is worse is that I already found her.. But she died before I had a chance to love her.. I hate the men that have hurt you... I hate them so deeply that it hurts me.. If I could turn back time I would save your love before you met me... So that you could have a chance at purity... so that you could feel like a lady... "Be still my beating heart!!!!!!!!!" I scream to the f*cking heavens!!! But I am too far gone now.. I am now a darkened tattered Raven... let's play ping pong ■
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