"Suicide Note: inspired by all the stupid shit women do to ourselves"
I thought I’d start a suicide note And address it to the person who inhabited the space in my head About 20 minutes prior to two seconds ago Because she’s the person I’ve run from And now must end End the existence of what I was And who I am I mean I used to be Not like the rays of yesterday’s sun Shine behind tonight’s moon
Is she me? Or is she just another she?
Cause immorality wasn’t my cue Just like that pale green never fit my hue Cause my jealousy is about as deep seeded As an 1000 year old oak tree Cause from time to time I want to ask about she But then I forget oh she is me And in doing so I chase you from her and me.
Can you follow?
Incoherent thoughts drive my mind Like a hippie’s VW Bug on petrol Stuck in mud Stuck in thoughts As I paint a picture and name it you 20 words into a suicide note and all I have written is you. Well you and she Cause she is the death of me And reincarnation of what we should be Maturity. But damn she keeps on sinning in my mind As her perverse actions drive me to wanting satisfaction In the clutch of a worn down Bible And the pages of a dog eared Qur’an
Shredding, shredding, shredding Her existence Like shedding skin Shedding self And setting set upon self Cause my suicide note is actually a readjustment of self reminder That its been 40 minutes so my mind needs to change And my emotions need to jump To the next extreme
"Caution we got a jumper!"
Striding the lengths of suspended thought High in the air Balance beam in my mind As I dive and die Well not die But laugh Laugh Laugh And wake up the next morning Cursing at she for waking me And creating a rift between we.
But I didn’t actually jump But remembered that I could fly to another place Another thought Another mood And become who I really want to be Which is about as clear to me now As the water in the Ganges So float down stream with me And close your eyes and see that in fact Everything is clear When you write a suicide note in crayon To negate the innocent thought Of reincarnation Reading into things too deeply? Cause this note Is a note That reminds you That she is me Me is she Her is the word that forms in me And opens my eyes to the prospect of a perfect we And in we I mean the whole you and me thing Or maybe just contentment with me thing Cause she wrote me songs that made me sing Whereas you only wrote songs that made me Cry.
Good-bye cruel world As I stand on my suspended thought Let it slip away And finally I fly.
This was pretty ill, people prob slept on it cause of its length but I really liked it, you captured the state of mind of your topic and translated her thoughts effectively. Nice work
--- "Every Golden Age is as much an act of disregard as it is of felicity."
not to be crass or for that egotistical but somehow this piece reminded me of my own work... you cascaded down the page with brilliance and pure emotion that just commands attention now that i said that i only can hope that while suicide is the note rebirth is the peace i really need to see more of your work pleez do drop sum mo...
"keep pennin till the earth birth's your rightful seed then nurture it wit more ink..." ASIEM "Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran (Be and it is) " A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder
Nice work. You know a friend of me once told me about envy is that we never know what a person paid for to have their gift. If we did, we wouldn't want it.
Thanks for sharing this. I think we all can relate.
http://worthwatering.blogspot.com Can it be I stayed away too long?/ Did I leave your mind when I was gone?/ It's not my thing trying to get back/ But this time let me tell you where I'm at-- Jackson Five
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