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revalation
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Mon Sep-18-06 11:05 PM

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""Alive and Well" My need to vent.."


  

          


I’d hate to think there is something wrong with me…
that I have something ill to do with my current life situation…
like anyone cares..
or if they do care
it is some pitiful plea
to help me
that is making it hard
to live up to my own mistakes…
like I didn’t fuck up.
Like I’m the one sitting bitch
so others can get the best seat in the house.
Moneism and fornication living
has got me in a bunch…
all twisted without a hunch
of what is really going on in the spiritual world.
I am faint.
I am like the light at the end of the tunnel that is slowly fading away
letting all of the darkness creep in closer
leaving a pin hole of light
coming through to give me hope….
and it is all my fault…
I’m the one tempted into the bed
with men who are cute and funny…
handsome and witty..
wow…
they could never do me wrong…
cus they are fine and nice and sweet.
They hold my hand and caress the small of my back in public places
while everyone is watching,
wondering
who is that guy she’s with
and
how did she land a spot with him
and so forth.
They don’t know that I am smothered by their presence.
Tormented by their company.
Held back by their softness and sweet looks.
Spiritually I am dying
cus spiritually
I am allowing for vampire-ick love to come inside me..
plant the seeds of mistrust and the milkiness of dispare
cus at the end of the night..
when the man has come quickly and burst outa there…
I am the one sitting duck
alone
I am the one thinking why the fuck
did I take in another bone
that was sucked on by my mouth
and rubbed on by my palm and yet…
when the time comes for companionship
I am the one feeling left and alone…
fuck it I am tired of this shit
tired of the shit
tired of the shit
I am
I am tired of this shit
that they be givin me
like they know
that I am
seeking love in the wrong places
and instead of taking the time to spend
to putting my hopes at end
before they dig into me..
they lead me like
I am sheep to the shepherd that has lost its way…
baa…
blah..blah…
I am the victim of my own mistakes…
my own choices
my own today destiny
and tomorrow is bound to come again
and tomorrow will bring me round again
to face the same path again
and I will face it head on
and I will reconfirm that I am
tired of the shit…
so I can turn my eyes
in the direction of the pin hole with light shining bright
and I can flip my eraser to the long side
and I can start erasing past choices
and make blank pages
for future and present life innovations
so I can renew my mind
and instead of making pussy and dick foreplay
I can delve into the softness of my thoughts
and create the type of world I need to live in,
in order to feel alive and well.
In order to be in love and well
In order to be in Love and well...

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RE: "Alive and Well" My need to vent..
Sep 19th 2006
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RE: "Alive and Well" My need to vent..
Sep 22nd 2006
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robynwildchild
Member since May 06th 2003
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Tue Sep-19-06 01:54 AM

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1. "RE: "Alive and Well" My need to vent.."
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we're all sad pathetic souls looking for absolution..
i feel yu.

~~~~~~~~ luv R.
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revalation
Member since Nov 03rd 2005
291 posts
Fri Sep-22-06 10:43 PM

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thanks sis....

sad..pathetic...can be changed to glad and asthetic...

Peace.....
<<<<<<<<<I take a thought and expand upon it.
I turn it around and upside down to get another perspective>>>>>>>>>>>>

www.myspace.com/hearheartbeat

  

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