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@geahuwine

shit makes us homesick reminiscing on our childhood. Sometimes it seems unreal. We really had a sandlot style childhood.

wake up, ride bikes all day.. find a basketball, football or baseball game in the neighborhood and then hit up the pool. None of us could remember how we learned to swim but it all happened at out community swimming pool.

so every juneteenth when I go back now I flirt with the idea of moving home so my kids can have that experience. Iont even watch my kids closely when they go home because there are so many people that are family or “like family” watching out for them.

wife is like “where the kids?”

me: “over there somewhere.. lol”

but we also agreed we could only move back if more of us moved back…lol.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

Sounds weird but we didn't think of it as a plantation, it was where the local community pool was. It was the country so the bike ride was like 3-4 miles.

Hang out there all day. Hope there was a little girl in a bathing suit you can rub on, and ride back before it got dark. That was it on the days we weren't playing ball all day.

Good times.


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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

either riding bikes to the burbs or projects or playing some kinda ball for 65 straight games lol.

the rec center had a pool. I couldn't swim but I was in there standing up in the 3ft lol

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

they always say the same thing.

“How the hell do all of you know each other?”

its normal for us but for other people its hard to digest how hundreds of people all have 3 generations of folks who all know each other.

I guess its the Steel Mills, church functions and such but looking back it was definitely some Black Wonder Years type shit.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

Sounds like y'all had some good childhoods.

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@fakewilliamkatt

"You probably wouldn't worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do!" - Olin Miller

a few years back we went home for the 4th of July. We had a cook out.

My wife was trying to be the safety mom telling us to back up from the fireworks and shit then finally she gave up like “yall turned into 12 year old kids… throwing firecrackers at each other”

it really was Black Wonder Years

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

The weight of capitalism feels like it's crushing the life out of me.

That sounds dramatic, I admit. It's also the truth.

Zoom out from the macro issues causing you stress and zoom in on the little things that bring you joy.


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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

Because that shit will seep into your pores and suffocate you if you let it

I use the word “let” loosely, to be clear
It’s not necessarily a choice

I hope you’re finding ways to push back against that feeling though

-Sig-

“Why didn’t you do this in your own god damn country?"

-All Stah's view on undocumented immigrants wanting to be treated like human beings.

Take care of yourself. I hope you feel better soon.

“So back we go to these questions — friendship, character… ethics.”

I feel like I'm finna fumble the ball at the goal line. I gotta get it together.

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@fakewilliamkatt

"You probably wouldn't worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do!" - Olin Miller

You’ll be straight.

Try to flip that mental switch that says, “I’m going to push through the goal line”.

It can be tough though, boxing with your own brain.

-Sig-

“Why didn’t you do this in your own god damn country?"

-All Stah's view on undocumented immigrants wanting to be treated like human beings.

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http://getouttheroom.podomatic.com
@fakewilliamkatt

"You probably wouldn't worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do!" - Olin Miller

and I seen a message dated March 18th from my young cousin who was just murdered last week.

I reached out that same night on the 18th to tell him to chill about putting his beef with family members online for all to see

The message he left kinda confirms what I feared. Doubt it was suicide but its like he wanted to die in these streets. He had an extremely toxic view of the world. Just angry at life.

Gotta prepare myself for this emotional rollercoaster. Shit feels like a bad movie where there will be a wild cocktail mix of emotions that bubbles over.

and in some ways I think their might be some people who love him who are also … relieved (this might not be the best word)

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

Peace to you and yours

-Sig-

“Why didn’t you do this in your own god damn country?"

-All Stah's view on undocumented immigrants wanting to be treated like human beings.

story is totally different than I feared. Still makes me mad as shit

His boy beat the shit out of a hood dude a night earlier. My cousin wasnt even there, he was working.

Next night they all go to an after hour spot.. in the same hood where the dude is from. Why? I do not know..

soon as they left the club dudes opened up on them.

smh.. his dad was like “why did MY kid have to die and not the one who best dude up?”

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

I got bored tonight & decided to log into this place for old time's sake.

That's all.


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I don't owe yo ass no explanation
for how I choose to live my life.

LIterally. We were born in the same hospital, a day apart, and our moms were in the same room became close friends. The one birthday party i remember having was with her, I believe for my 7th.

After that we saw each other only a few times for a few years, though we were in contact for a while as teenagers. At 17 she stopped talking to me because she had a jealous boyfriend.

It sucked, but whatever.

So we recently got in touch, and in her mind, we're total besties.

a bit much to me, but whatever.

We have very little in common apart from childhood trauma due to terrible parents. She talks like she's 20 years older than we are (early forties) and that's a turn off.

Anyhow, at one point she got pissy because it took me a day to respond to a message.

I pumped the breaks on that quick. I don't do relationships like that. At all. If I have to manage your every text within X amount of time or it results in hurt feelings, if I have to managed every perceived slight because I wasn't present enough, often enough, etc....

I'm good. Hard pass. We're not compatible.

So she apologized, acknowledged she comes on strong, etc.

But then it became this weird ass situation, where she apologized constantly, about everything, because she just doesn't want to bother me, etc.

It was annoying so I kept my distance and started chatting again around our birthday last month.

Now I'm getting memes all day about things best friends do, the things best friends share with each other, etc.

Today she sent some pics of her kids- apologizing again- but said she wanted to make our friendship stronger. She asked if I can start sending pics.

I was like... I don't take pics like that, so I can't make promises, but I'll try.

She says she never asked for a promise, and won't ask again. It takes so little to set off that "rejection" trigger. Frankly, it seems like basic boundaries trigger that shit.

I just think she thinks we're still 4 and are each the only friend the other has ever known in life, or wants us to be. She comes on incredibly strong and it's a bit much. I'm inching closer to just telling her, I think we see our relationship in completely different ways. I don't want to since the last discussion about this resulted in a lot of sulking and the aforementioned constant apologies.

But I think we're getting close to that point where I just have to let her know... we're not total besties forever and ever.

We barely know each other, we have next to nothing in common, it's time you start viewing me as something other than your bestie for life.

-Sig-

“Why didn’t you do this in your own god damn country?"

-All Stah's view on undocumented immigrants wanting to be treated like human beings.