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Said grandma is here to help. My parents stopped by Wednesday for the other kids birthday. Drop off gifts and sing happy birthday. I was TIRED. I've been running on fumes since the baby baby came, and to be fair it's only been one week. But it's been a hard week.
Just getting settled trying to get into a rhythm. But also I've been giving my daughter a LOT of attention. Trying to make sure she still feels loved and acknowledged and so far no regression.
The one thing though, grandma isn't helping. She's not making things worse, but she's not helping in a way that is impactful. She cooks meals, but for herself, which ends up using up pots and pans for us later because she doesn't clean up after herself immediately. She takes my daughter, but not consistently, just kind of on her own schedule. She's not really helping with the baby much or my wife. She's just here.
And I think my wife is starting to see it. So this morning I got up, made my kid breakfast, made my wife breakfast, sat with my kid, ate with her, played with her ... then took the baby off my wife's hands and we all played together. Grandma made breakfast for herself, and washed her own hair. I asked her if she can hang out with the toddler for a little bit because she wanted to leave her in bed with my wife ... but my wife isn't getting rest because she moves so much so she actually doesn't need to be in the bed, which is why the past few days I've been taking her out of the house but I'm going to run to take the baby to the hospital for a follow up today so I'm kind of slammed.
But back to that -Grandma can you take her for a bit I need to shower -I'm making chicken -Oh, can she just sit on the couch downstairs while you do that, I need to shower. -It'll be done in 40 minutes -Are you doing something with it that you need to sit over it for that time? -No, it's in the oven, but then I got a work call -Right now? -No it's at 3 -That's like 2 hours from now, and she'll be napping then, I just need you to take her so I can shower please
... like why are you even in my house right now? At the end of the day I'm not going to get this time back to hang out with my kids, not like this ... so I'm taking advantage of it. But help means helping ... and when I'm running on fumes to the point that my joints start to hurt from lack of sleep, and I ask for 30 minutes to shower and you can't even do that because ... why? ... then it's time for you to go.
And me aside, my daughter needs her grandmother. We've been without family for this entire pregnancy and quarantine. At some point she's going to go back home, and whether she moves down or not (she's trying to move down) ... she's not going to be coming over regularly until all of this is settled. She thinks she is. But it's not happening. She'll get treated the same way my parents do at the moment ... we can occasionally hang out, but it'll be outside and with masks and only rarely.
------ “There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus
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