I work in video, yet I difficulty finding kicking back and consuming video because I have difficulty relaxing.

My wife has sometimes commented on how we don't watch stuff together, especially adult stuff, since the kids are around so much.

Last night I was excited to get the kids to bed and watch Knives Out. As expected, neither of us had enough energy to finish the movie, so we pushed the second half to tonight.

She comes out from putting the older daughter to bed, and I go to start the movie, but then The Dog scratches the back door. The Dog is gonna scratch to get back in, so it's not worth starting the movie yet. I talk about a movie I'm excited to see soon.

Wife: "Did you hear about your best friend's cousin getting murdered?"

BITCH WTF

She didn't do it on purpose. She's just bringing up other stuff I'm interested in, i.e. my friend. However, my ability to finish this movie is fucking ruined.

As a matter of fact, the three events that had the worst impact on my drinking all had to do with similar circumstances. Come on, man.

Am I an asshole? Do I have control issues for being irritated at the timing?

also, man it's weird how out of sync you can be with your partner in terms of them bringing something up.

all the time, "so you decided to mention this, now, while I'm trying to chill for the first time in forever."



www.engadgethd.com - the other stuff i'm looking at

You and ETFP are on the same page.

Can’t it be enough that I’m always sensitive to her triggers but she isn’t sensitive to mine? Damn.

I'm only just now picking up on how much it messes me up, completely, to be stressed out? because I pretty much put together my life so I could have no stress and shit that I was supposed to worry about I just didn't?

but now she's like tripping all over the wires and setting off the explosives and the trap doors, it's wild.

www.engadgethd.com - the other stuff i'm looking at

couples shit once in a blue moon to look under the hood when shit gets intense

personal ongoing to keep your well being at optimal levels

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https://soundcloud.com/swageyph/yph-die-with-me

I be like “FOH”



"Get ready....for your blessing....."
"Bury me by my Grand-Grand and when you can come follow me"

For example, I'm a big believer in good sleep hygiene so I think of sleep not as a hard stop you take after being awake and doing stuff but a gradual removal of stimulation so the last 30 minutes or hour before sleep is low lights, low sounds and chill vibes.

I try not to even touch my phone when I'm in bed when the lights are off. My wife will spend hours on instagram not sleeping. The lights and sound affect me as well. We talked about it a few times but she didnt get it until I had to respond to some emergency emails and the light was fucking up her sleep.

Now we have an unspoken agreement that in the time before bed once the kids are asleep after house chores are done thats not a time to bring up heavy shit or open forbidden conversations

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https://soundcloud.com/swageyph/yph-die-with-me

Yeah, she wants to phone and TV all the way to bedtime every night.

Now I do it, too, and it's not good.