4. "RE: Awesome!!! What you doing to make that happen?" In response to Reply # 3
Bout to file me a chapter. And been in the studio. Bout to do some acting soon too.
> >********** >"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then >they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson > >"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"
9. "Honestly you're better off with a laptop and a decent mic" In response to Reply # 7
Its been a min since I've seen anyone record with a Tascam recorder?
Get yourself a decent soundcard and use your computer, Guitar Center or someone like that should be able to help you out. You should be good spending maybe $2-300 if you can allow yourself to afford that
It was a combo of things. Family and friends just stayed on me. Let me know the path I was on was gonna lead to destruction. My kids motivated me too. Next goal is to stop smoking black and milds. ... "A Beautiful Struggle" https://m.facebook.com/jamelabullock Www.reverbnation.com/jamela
22. "so someone came into my store to see me today and said" In response to Reply # 0
Your mama said you were getting fat but you aren’t. Just your face a little bit. Now I’m trying to not take this shit the wrong way. I realize men usually say the wrong things and shit but damn.
I think I should say something to her so I don’t do some passive aggressive shit like I am prone to do. But yeah that shit hurt.
23. "day 51. Is it bad that I really don’t think it’s been that hard to ..." In response to Reply # 0
I think I’m minimizing my accomplishment but I’m not sure why. I guess when people say “you can do this” or “stay strong” my first reaction is to say yeah it’s not that hard. I just tend to get fixated on things in my life and for a long time it was alcohol. Well for about 16 years. Lol. But still I learned so much over time that when I decided that I needed to take a break I just did it. Cold turkey. Because I wanted to not drink. Even tho I wanted to drink.
Yeah it’s weird. I’ve picked up other habits like shopping and eating sweets which shows me that the fixation bug is still there. That’s what I need to overcome in order for me to feel successful. Fixation on things that make me feel good. But that makes me start thinking about a lot of other things like are we supposed to be happy/spoiled/fulfilled or are we supposed to live a life of sacrifice. I’m sure no one here can answer that for me. I have to figure it out on my own. But yeah I want to win. Until I start winning I’m not going to drink. To me drinking now represents celebration of accomplishments. Big accomplishments not just basic ones. I know a lot of very successful people that drink. But they don’t drink every day and they know how to moderate. I know I’m not there yet. And I want to be winning in life. I want to truly feel like I deserve to celebrate.
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