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>Did you talk to God?
Yes, quite often, actually. To be clear, I went of my own accord. This wasn't something that was forced upon me. I initially went with this woman my friend knew, because she took a bunch of kids to church, and then out to eat, and then to a movie or other outing, every Sunday.
I was 12, and at the time me and my siblings went to escape our roach-infested apartment for a few hours, get a decent meal, and get to see and do some things we were otherwise not privy to. The worse things got, the more I started leaning into that relationship and that church, because it gave me things I sorely lacked. And I eventually began to buy in.
There was a time when I would pray as I drove, as I took a shower, as I walked up the street.
I spoke to god in prayer, not asking for things (I did that as well, but you get my meaning), but often on an intercessory basis, for quite some time. I'd silently pray for random people.
I learned that my name, Jason, means "to cure", or "to heal". My mom didn't want to know my gender before birth, but somehow thought I'd be a girl, so my intended name was Jennifer. I was born male, and my grandmother supposedly named me Jason, on the spot.
Knowing that history, in light of my faith and the discovery of the meaning of my name, coupled with the incredibly screwed up childhood I had, lead me to believe all of this was divinely intended.
Thus, I just knew intercessory prayer was my calling. I laid hands on people. I had moments and circumstances where I felt that I had confirmation of this.
>Did you hear from God?
I believed I did, and quite a bit. Once, I thought I heard god, as close to audibly as possible without actually being audible, if that makes sense. And he simply said, "pray". Which, for me, was another sign in the direction of intercessory prayer.
>Did you ever feel the presence of God?
Yes, I believed I did, on countless occasions.
>Did you ever experience revelation concerning God?
I need more clarification of your meaning to answer this.
If you mean clarification from god regarding a matter, then yes, there were times I believed this.
If you mean clarification from god concerning himself, I supposed this on many occasions throughout my life.
For all the passive aggressive posturing of Captain Christian up above, I was "born again", and had a relationship with god. I was in position to minister and I ministered. I was a foster child, and wound up working for a foster family agency that was ran by Christians for several years. Again, I believed this to be divinely inspired positioning. I lead bible studies for a couple of years for the girls in the group homes there. I preached the gospel.
I taught not just from a bible, but in conjunction with a Strong's concordance so that I could remain consistent with the Bible as it was written.
I sought evidence for my beliefs, digging into creation science and apologetics.
And on and on and on.
To keep it one hundred, I think questions like this are intended, perhaps not maliciously, to undermine the experience of former believers as somehow less than authentic, as though anyone who no longer believes was never genuine.
I was by no means a perfect Christian. I was very, very flawed, but I was resilient. I don't know many Christians who, as a 16 year old runaway from foster care, walked (roughly) 3 miles to and from church every Sunday morning. That did not come from my parents or some authority figure.
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