sometimes it moves slow
sometimes quick
it's all relative tho...

I told a man I wasnt interested after a few weeks of ignoring his communication. He called me on it. I wasn't sure how to tell him.

my bff from high school is coming down tonight. I posted about her last year. She was in a coma..her baby daddy slammed her on the head. She made it through. She's my live friend so the weekend should be fun.

What else?

>I told a man I wasnt interested

...because this should have been enough, lol:

>after a few weeks of ignoring
>his communication.

Was he hurt?

>He called me on it. I wasn't sure how to
>tell him.

I don't know to put it but, I can be aggressive at times and he didn't challenge that.

We often ask why days went by much slower when we were kids and it's because we hadn't experienced many days at that point.
The older we get the shorter a day appears because you've experienced so many.

Which makes me fear for old age. Does it just zoom past?

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus

lately, I've been thinking about ma and pa...
like, every time we talk one of them gotta have surgery. They up their all alone.

and then there's my road rage...
after I've sped pass some old folks
I remember how they probably trying to conserve time.


I bought a few mugs that says on them,"you only live once". I'm giving them as gifts

>sometimes it moves slow
>sometimes quick

it's always the same

>it's all relative tho...

how we perceive time is relative. time itself just ... is.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

to tell him?

I kind of did tho but he wouldn't let up.
I don't like hurting people feelings

Do you know what it's like to understand, yet still not wanting to hurt someone's feelings? Is a heavy burden..

If you believed he was going to take it well and not cause you any grief about it, you'd have told him much earlier.

if I sever ties I wouldn't have to deal with his anger or are you asking if that why it took me so long?

I.e., that phone call or text convo or however you would go about doing it. You want to avoid having to go through that.

the hurt feelings
the pain of being rejected
the buised ego...

When the blow is delivered relatively early on and cleanly, it's done and over with, and he'll move on pretty quickly. Like getting guillotined after a show trial rather than starved to death in solitary confinement. You have him wasting away in the hole right now, when you could have just chopped his head off after the first two weeks, or whatever. He could grow new head.

what was happening during the time we weren't communicating?

to go on. All he had to go on were the best/worst possibilities of what his brain imagined happened. Spoiler: his brain resorted to the worst possible thoughts. Probably worse than the plain old truth, which was that you weren't interested in him.

I changed anger to pain, because you don't deserve his anger over simple rejection. But his pain is real, and you say you care about that.

God gonna be like "nigga, I put 20 guys in your path and you weren't interested"

what more do you want?

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

so says my co-worker.

"haven't you noticed she keeps coming over there?! No, you haven't! Cuz you're never at your desk!! You need to sit your ass DOWN!"

The manager has a new toy.

I'm woody.

He's Buzz Lightyear.

whatever.

I'll be glad when this day is over.

IG: amadu_me

"...Whateva, man..." (c) Redman

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

he's like me:

intelligent
handsome
charismatic
well-dressed


but I don't have my degree. There's a 'degree'd' clique and then 'regular nxggas'

I've been replaced by a nxgga with a degree so she feels like she's dealing with an 'equal'

finite vs infinite games.

I can't believe I'm SALTY about this shit. It's killin me. LOL

IG: amadu_me

"...Whateva, man..." (c) Redman

It's a function of getting older.

IG: amadu_me

"...Whateva, man..." (c) Redman

speaking of coworkers...

I had been noticing this woman because her countenance always appeared sad. she just told me she has cancer. There's never been any interaction between us and I'm not sure why today it happened but i asked if I could hug her and I lost it...

This may be weird but I've never met...touched anyone with cancer. I need to figure out how I can help her.

-been tryna cop a couple pair of kicks.

-pick up some things for the kids.

-gotta lotta records to go thru, maybe I'll make some music.

-roll up sumn and putz around in the yard; no one likes yard-work, it's a good way to not be bothered if you don't wanna be bothered.


I don't wanna be bothered. LOL

IG: amadu_me

"...Whateva, man..." (c) Redman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBMbK54AWHU

you might like this article: http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2016/12/19/the-secret-life-of-time



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All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

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Every hundred years, all new people

From Samuel Johnson's Lives of the Poets series, published in 3 volumes between 1779 and 1781, on Alexander Pope:

…the distance is commonly very great between actual performances and speculative possibility. It is natural to suppose, that as much as has been done to-day may be done to-morrow; but on the morrow some difficulty emerges or some external impediment obstructs. Indolence, interruption, business, and pleasure; all take their turns of retardation; and every long work is lengthened by a thousand causes that can, and ten thousand that cannot, be recounted. Perhaps no extensive and multifarious performance was ever effected within the term originally fixed in the undertaker's mind. He that runs against Time, has an antagonist not subject to casualties.


~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

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='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

in Jess Walter's great novel "The Zero". Hilarious. Like, it's worth memorizing and I regret not having done so.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

|\_/|
='_'=

Every hundred years, all new people

.. was just feeling you out 🙂

What do you and ole gal have planned?

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