I'm not sure how to change my persistent lack of initiative/ambition/motivation.

Things are rocky with my girl, I absolutely hate my job and the people I work with, I'm having a difficult time getting in the door to a new job, I don't feel like I'm making enough money, so what I qualify for is making less than I'm making now.

I almost feel cheated, cuz I went to school, worked hard, but there aren't the type of job I can get that pay what I'd like.

I feel like its a cycle of procrastination, because I didn't get the outcome I thoughts I'd get, which make me not care as much, then I care, but get down because when I try to change it isn't enough.

I needed to say it, not really looking for advice, but I don't feel comfortable enough to talk to family or my girl about this yet.

I fell like I've let myself down.

¿If a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?

I work as an assistant to a financial advisor. I do financial analysis, plus general client service and office management.

¿If a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?

"Get ready....for your blessing....."

¿If a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?

I know you said no advice....
so consider it just a nudge.

"Get ready....for your blessing....."

I'm not sure what it is that I'm passionate about though. No clue what I'd change to at this point that would leave me fulfilled.

¿If a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?

There might be other cures to procrastination/lack of motivation, but the only one that has ever worked for me is pressure.

In the early days of my career, the pressure was simply to survive.

Now that I've come a little ways, the pressure is the desire, to start a family, have an easier life, travel, etc.

Sounds like you're waking up to an inner desire, to be more. Don't shut out your dreams, and you'll get moving.

I got talked to by my girl and it was not pleasant. Crazy thing is I took it cuz I knew she was right.

¿If a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?

sometimes the opinion of someone else is just their opinion, doesn't need to be yours too (compromise can be good too though)

life isn't fair either, just you make the best of the cards your are dealt...

Does it equal self-worth to you? Or do you want it to be able to do things you like since your job is not fulfilling?

I can fully understand other things in your post, but this I am curious about...

I work in an industry where everyday check review people's retirement plans.

I'm not close to them. I haven't been able to start really contributing to my retirement.

¿If a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?

due to my realization of my lack of motivation.

I think.

¿If a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?