This is the current fuckery happening in my life.

(The words "ex" and "co-worker" applied loosely here bc we aren't official exes, moreso ex-"dating partners," and we're not the type of co-workers that have to see each other everyday; we're both contractors for the same company and work remotely.)

I ended it in march. It was amicable. We'd been going back and forth with some emotional drama afterwards and in the midst of it, the company I consult for hired him/his company. The emotional drama has mostly but not completely been resolved and my clients (who know we know each other) have started asking me to contact him for xyz.

So this man straight up hurt me and now I gotta deal with his ass professionally to do my damn job. I have to talk to him on the phone. I have to cc him on emails. I have to coordinate shit with him. I have to hear others talk about him and hope my face does not rearrange itself into something unprofessional. While at the same time, I've been missing him so bad and it actually feels good and right to talk to him again, especially about something we are both passionate about (health). I think it's kinda cool that we get to work together and experience each other in another way, but it is throwing me the fuck off.

Trying to stay positive about it but I can't believe this shit is happening to me!

Thanks, OKP! I needed to vent. You're always right here when I need you.

it'll feel better.

fuck you.

someone who does not care about you enough.

My pussy store is out of business as far as that man is concerned.

i don't know why you stopped banging him.

but i'm a size queen.

*shrugs*

fuck you.

but have fun!

i need a man's man, baby.

diamonds and furs.

and i'm not in the practice of throwing away good d--k. especially if it sits right in the same building for 8 hours every work day. i can look past my feelings to get the job done - and by job i mean banging. it's the best revenge.

fuck you.

and yeah it's great.

i'd get up on it.

but keep it to that SOLELY. bang out in the stairwell maybe like once. flash some skin in the breakroom on the low. just a tease.

note: i did this when my ex was hired and sat 2 cubicles in front of me. well, we took it back to my apartment at lunch this one time when we were supposed to be out on a site visit. we did the site visit but this was a lil detour. it only happened like twice. it was fine for what it was. that break-up sex. we had to get it out.

fuck you.

I forget where you are these days...Atlanta? LA still?

hows the book?

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https://soundcloud.com/swageyph/yph-die-with-me

The book is still going, slowly, and is becoming repurposed for another venture. I'll have more details soon.

Keep EVERYTHING short, concise and about work. Don't even small talk or lol with this dude. Eventually, he's going to say something, or he won't say anything at all.

having to see or talk to that bitter asshole everyday. i wouldn't be able to do it.

to yourselves

happiness is a mediocre standard for a middle class existence - S. Williams

I don't not like you because you have dumb ideas about the world, I don't like you because you have other people's dumb ideas about the world. - Rjcc

this is what OKP is for

2010 she destroyed my life (or I let my life be destroyed by her, tomato tomahto)

2013 I get an email from someone else saying we'll be working together at a conference. same field, very different roles, we never had to work together, she wasn't even in my field when we were together. I have a mini meltdown beforehand, then break the ice when I see her

her: I was worried about this
me: why?
her: you hated me for a long time
me: I dont hate you

that's the closest we came to closure

fast forward we live in the same place (my mistake for moving to everyone's dream land before she got here) and work in even closer capacity from time to time. she knows Im married because of another Chatty Patty and brought it up immediately at a function a year ago

we're cordial but we dont ever speak unless we cross paths publicly, maybe it's better that way

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*