If you feel envy, who is it that you envy? What is it that you want, kiddo?
If you never feel it, you don't have to reply here. I'm just interested in miserable folks such as myself.
A Facebook "friend" just go a promotion in a field that I long ago decided I wasn't cut out for. And when I saw this in my feed, I promptly unfollowed, because, as it turns out, I still have emotions about that fork in the road I took all those years ago.
-- the untold want by life and land ne'er granted now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find
4. "i'm sorry you want through that time unsupported" In response to Reply # 3
it is a really confusing time to navigate alone. you're definitely not by yourself in those feelings.
>And people who had even just one person supporting them >through that time in their life. > >I envy people who weren't the first in their family to >graduate college, who had even the slightest idea of what they >were doing. > >I'm a decade removed from that time now, but I guess I'm still >not over it.
-- the untold want by life and land ne'er granted now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find
I just hate that I'm struggling to let it go after all this time. Granted, it affected the direction my life took in a major way. But it's easy to say "If only this, then things would be better now" when really, that's not how it works.
>it is a really confusing time to navigate alone. you're >definitely not by yourself in those feelings. >
As much as I love my kids, I think I envy motherfuckers that are married and don't have kids. Motherfuckers be travelling and shit. Niggas be kicking it hard with the fellas on the weekend, and the women be having spa days and shit. Meanwhile, my weekends are consumed with gymnastics and soccer and dance and shit.
10. "I am primarily motivated by envy, spite and insecurity. " In response to Reply # 0
When I see my peer group doing hot shit, a part of me of is like "damn these niggas ain't better than me" and I get motivated to do things. I once read the quote “Every time a friend succeeds I die a little” and I don't know if I am quite there, buty I understand the sentiment. Envy.
I want to pull off this one project I am working on to spite creative partners I use to work with to show them that I can do it without them. Spite.
My insecurity drives me because a part of me will never be satisfied just being regular. Insecurity.
Having said all that I am not particularly miserable. But I am never quite that Happy for any given period of time.
********** "Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson
11. "My special quote is" In response to Reply # 10
"It is not enough to succeed. Others must fail." Gore Vidal.
Similarly to you, I don't know if I identify with this sentiment 100%, but I get it. The first time I heard it, I laughed so sincerely I surprised myself.
-- the untold want by life and land ne'er granted now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find
legsdiamond Member since May 05th 2011 79545 posts
Wed Sep-21-16 02:19 PM
14. "i feel you... my boy stuck with music and is caked up" In response to Reply # 0
but the journey was long, the struggle was real...
and sometimes when i talk to him he reminds me that he is working 16 hour days in hopes of finding a hit.
then the tax man comes
then the depression..
then i realize it was his journey and not mine for a reason.
its all about finding your purpose.
**************** TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*
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