Nada yet..

@geahuwine

My job is really stressful, and so far I have got into it with almost everyone here. Most of it is because they talk to each other like shit but as a grown ass woman, I can't see myself letting other grown ass people talk to me any kind of way. So I'm simply keeping my ducks in a row.

Though... I'm not so sure I want to leave. I don't love what I do but it's in the same industry as what I want to do. My interview on Friday is with a DJ company... But I'd be making more money... We'll see I'm just going to go.


Anway, I can't wait for this 3-day weekend!! Though I have no plans what so ever. I'm tired of not having plans or a steady social life.

I miss Harlem.

And I have a round 4 Skype interview to film a tv show this fall on Friday. I hope it goes well. I feel like I need a game changer in my life. Some excitement and fire under my ass.

Somebody's lying...

@Atruelady Twitter/ @Sweetesttaboos Instagram

There are some things going on I just need to find some energy and my hair looks cray cray lol, but we'll see...

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"people... please refrain from gnr'ing me. im an avid lol'er and am completely fine wit the service."

"I�m just a dreamer,
turned true to life leaner...
Born to do good so others can be believers"

Should I come Friday night or Saturday morning?? I'm excited for my first little Philly trip chile.

Somebody's lying...

@Atruelady Twitter/ @Sweetesttaboos Instagram

i need to really incorporate this mantra into my life way more

that said, this trip is terrifying me. lol.

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n/m

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i havent spoken spanish in over a decade. i wasn't that good to begin with
cramming duolingo lessons like a madwoman lol

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"if the children are not initiated into the village they will burn it down just to feel its warmth." - african proverb

dont fall for the my brother works at the romeo y julieta factory so buy these cigars cheap from me okie doke

and dont feel like a sucker for drinking mojitos they're legit

holler at that one famous ice cream spot mmm

oh man have so much fun tho, safe travels happy for/jealous of you

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... no reason I should be still spinning my wheels at life shit



MKE ~~> ATL

diagnostic on my car.

sh*t is leaking coolant. I hope it is not the head gasket...but regardless this aint about that. Im just confessing that when the cat is away, the mouse will play.

I got my laptop for any "fires" that may need fanning and I got this here Ipad Mini for my pure entertainment. I could get used to this.

And i'm watching the TODAY show

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Coolin...

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less educated folks from Alabama. People in Utah who live in cities with a population of 14,000. this makes me blessed to have had my good health and life experiences

I knew before but I didnt really know, when my wife watches Girlfriends reruns Jill Marie Jones is now up there with the all time baddest black women to me

working two jobs takes a toll on me but I cant complain about keeping my bills paid

i can be there for a friend easily, but i dont have easy answers to solving my own problems at all

had a performance evaluation last year...when I met with my supervisor to discuss it, there were some things I didn't agree with that were on it, we talked she corrected gave me a printed copy. I signed and went on with life.

I had an interview with another agency last week, same job--more money, less work...they asked for your most recent performance eval to expedite the hiring process...I requested one from my supervisor--days go by, no response so I request a copy from HR they email it to me in 5 minutes, upon review it's the uncorrected copy (read: negative) now during the move from cubicle to cubicle, I misplaced my copy and now I have no proof to show that this is not what I signed off on...I just want to get out of here, but I can't I'm stuck

"Holier than thou never sits well with me."(c)janey

"OKP spends way too much time looking for ways to be offended." ~legsdiamond


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may have a negative answer. Anything more than "are they eligible for re hire?" is pretty much shaky ground.

I wouldnt give the eval to a future employer. Anything they want to know about me negatively, theyre gonna have to find it on their own

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from HR and they didn't have the one we previously discussed and I signed off on. I'd let them know I'd greatly appreciate if that updated version can be placed with HR. End of story.

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and well then...she's up shit's creek.

unless it was within the same company

I'd put that fools contact info on there with explicit instructions on what to say and kept it moving, how would the new job know?

So three years in and what a ride. I can clearly (to a degree) remember the lead up to December 2011. The San Antonio to Houston Sunday night drive, cheap hotel week, Thursday night packing, Friday afternoon return home. That was shit and when I was let go from that job it was almost a relief not to continue that grind. I can recall the promises and disappointments of applying for jobs in early 2012 and then actually accepting a DC job over NC (options!!). There were many abstract hopes and dreams that packed up in that tiny blue Scion with me, right next to the record crates that got warped in a May sun, pillows from childhood, clothes that today no longer fit (thank goodness), and a stack of burned CDs which probably all contained one or two songs from The Dream.

That was May 2012 and the goals became more solid while the faces and places changed. Nothing is what I imagined it would be, not a single thing, and for that I'm grateful. My life is simply better for not continuing on that linearity. And as I continue on the path that I'm building and assessing while traversing, I can't help but look back and think "damn, I couldn't have dreamed this up," and that's not even the typical hyperbolic me statement. If you had told me then, that this life would/could be this great, that the people that matter now would exist, that those who did wouldn't, that I'd see the things I've seen, go the places I've been, achieve the things that I had worked for; I would've smiled at you whimsically and retreated into my head cynically.

So here's to my semi annual public display of emotion, here's to you that's reading this, and here's to the yesterdays, the todays, the Oxford commas, and the tomorrows.

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus

and while in public, it's probably a good idea for me to wear a shirt that just says 'im sorry'.

>and while in public, it's probably a good idea for me to wear
>a shirt that just says 'im sorry'.


I'm for all of this.

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus

maybe that's why i don't really fuck with any of it outside of a little twitter here and there. shit seems old as fock to me.

twitter is awesome tho. loads of good info on there, kinda like how okp used to be.

I realized yesterday, in Nayaa's poll post, that I have no friends.
It's my fault, partially for lack of trying. And I have no clue what to do about it.
I'm open to meeting people, but I haven't hit it off with anyone so far.
Some people say that I need to move to a new city to meet people more on my wave length,
but I dunno if that's really it.


If that IS it though... that leads me to something I've been trying not to think about for years.
I have no clue where to settle down! About a year from now, I'll be
able to move anywhere and still have a job (I'll be working from home).
Here's the thing -- I've never been out of the South, and I've barely explored the region.
I haven't even been to Louisiana! My family never could afford to travel.
Now that I'm on my way to being ABLE... I need to figure out how to see the world
(while still working) because I don't know where I belong. But I feel like it's not here.


I'm sleep deprived lie crazy. I could hardly drive home last night, I was so bleary eyed.
Why is it so hard to just be nice to myself and take care of myself?

Participating in AmeriCorps a couple years ago helped connect me to a lot of new people in my age range, it relocated me and it took me across the country. But life was still difficult. I met a lot of good and understanding people, but nothing stuck or got too close. A lot of that has to with me being a major introvert who has really rusty social skills, but even as addled as I am, I'm a lot better than I used to be.

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the untold want by life and land ne'er granted
now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find

My phone and home computer
Both broke within the same week
I don't want to spend the money
On either of the two
I will be heartbroken if the pics of the kids are gone
But I'm at the I don't give a fuck point
I just can't mentally wrap my head around it

He makes me so mad!
But also makes me smile the entire time
He wants to purchase my sculpture
!!!!
Which now is stressing me a bit since it's not completed
And I want it to be perfect for him

I know that this is different
And I know he does things for me
That he does for no one else
I just need to sit in this
And be comfortable and content
Realize that it will never look as comfy and inviting
To others
But that's why it's mine and perfect for me

I really need a second source of income
I am trying to take the easy way out
And just get a retail job
But no one is hiring me
Once they see my resume
I should be using my real skills
And start a separate side business
But I hate dealing w ppl and their money
Ppl feel so entitled to shit they can't afford
And make horrible choices on a whim
I rather fold some jeans and call it a day lol

Those of you who are into it TAKE HEED.
Those of you who are not...good for you.


As you know, we interviewed a number of candidates for the (Name of Job) position, and we have decided to offer the position to another candidate.

The interview committee was impressed with your credentials and experience. We’re offering you the opportunity to interview for a second job opening as a (Job Title) in our company. Enclosed is a position description for your review.

Thank you so much for taking the time to come to (Company Name) to meet our interview team. We enjoyed meeting you and our discussions.

This some bullshit. I am not sure how to respond right now


DISTEW MUCH

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. . . If I have something to say when there is a reason involved, I am perfectly willing to talk. Katherine Hepburn

I already have communication issues and it's been impacted these last few days...I know I need to take a step back and chill. I keep finding myself offending ppl when it's not my intent.

Also, the other position...do you think it's something you'd like to do? if so, then say thank you, i'd love the opportunity. If not, say no thank you, you appreciate the offer but it's not quite what you are looking for now. Either way be appreciative that way in the future, if it comes back up they will remember you.

here for dis.

I'm blaming an epic cuss out on the mercury retrograde. LOL

but i'm not
lol
i'd rather be in the studio

*sigh* no motivation these days

here for dis.

now go runtelldat, ho.

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"You probably wouldn't worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do!" - Olin Miller

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god blessin all the trap niggas.

Sometimes I feel bitter and wanna be vengeful, but my natural tendencies to take the high road keep me from feeling that for too long.

Thinking about the positive opportunity costs of a negative event, I realized a lot of awesome small things (and potentially one big thing) have already come of it. Setbacks should only be temporary. But there's still reason to smile. Speaking of which... {redacted}

That said, being more broke than I prefer to be is cramping my style majorly. But I win with a lil help from my friends. Tide is turning. I can feel it.

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Just tryna do the best that I can with what it is I have...

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

because we're robbing peter to pay paul and shit will get a bit thin in the next few months.

however prior to the meeting, she came to my office and was like - i'm going to make a comment in the meeting - but you're safe, it has nothing to do with you.

she then called me after the meeting and was like, you know what i was talking about before the meeting, like the reiterate to me that it's not about me.

i think i'm gonna need some extra money for dealing with all this, lol.

she didn't mention anything to my co-worker whom is like a friend to me though. i can't have her ass leave cause that would just be a whole HEAP of extra work that I'd have to do. i tried to reassure her that she's fine... *boinkers*

now go runtelldat, ho.

to the point where i'm afraid one day it will all burst out

if i told you the tales of that year you would think it was an hbo mini series...

i passed out last week... scared the shit outta me...
went to the doc got back on my meds and checking my blood sugar daily...

i've lost about 10 lbs

sometimes joy starts off as a painful journey... so i will believe that's what this is.

I got a good life man

...resentment building again. i always get the short end of the stick and im tired of it.

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For Real (Official Video):
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and my credit score fell about 30 points. i need those 30 points too.
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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

get on that though.

now go runtelldat, ho.

even Macho Man had Ms. Elizabeth.
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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

i know that it can get out of hand, but yeah...stay on the path.

especially since i read that you're looking for houses.

i keep all my bill passwords/logins etc at my desk at work - cause work is basically my bill paying station.

esp since a lot of companies be on that if you don't make the payment before such and such a time on that day it's due, it's considered late.

i ain't got time for late fees etc.

you're a virgo, you got this! lol

now go runtelldat, ho.

and its a card i don't even use, so i didn't have it on me when they asked for the card number for verification. a month and a half later....30 points.

i feel like such a dumbass, cause i'm better than this. but you're right. i gotta do better.
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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

but yeah, keep yourself a notepad at your desk
with all your log-ins/passwords etc so it's handy.

now go runtelldat, ho.

I only keep ONE card on me...the rest are stashed because I do like 90% of my shopping online.... outside of groceries and an occasional Home Depot run...

"Seasons may come and your luck just may run out, and all that you'll have is some memories..."

i gotta write all these things down, cause i'm killing myself.

and...i used to be able to remember all of them. now....pssssssh. i fuckin suck.
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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

30 mins early
hey look
they're $10 on wednesdays
any later appointment
we're interfering with baseball.
sue meh.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

Me and my guy broke up a couple weeks ago. He called me "unambitious." I called it quits. I've been sad. Hurting over everything. Been avoiding side pieces. Haven't wanted to be touched. Got out of all freak and/or swing groups. Been avoiding pr0n. Not even watching romantic scenes on TV.

The Boy is back in town. We're gonna hang tomorrow morning.

Freckles starts summer school June 1. Financial aid is covering tuition, books and transportation. I'm thankful. She still thinks she's going to school in New York in the fall. *sigh*

I'm still only working part time. And to block my under-employment claim they gave me an extra day of work. That extra day of work doesn't even equal half of what my under-employment check would have been. Ugh. Nobody is responding to my job applications. I feel blacklisted. I seriously need full time work. Have had several people say they could hook me up, but nothing ever pans out. I'm so far behind in my bills it's embarrassing. Anyways, it could be worse. It has been worse. /vent


We all we got, right? #wezfamily

you wanted to be AI but you wouldn't practice. sure, an aversion to practice worked out for iverson but that was after he was already iverson. his physical gifts & prior work got him to that point.

you wanted to be a rapper but i gave you a small stack of black & white composition notebooks and challenged you to fill up a book at a time with rhymes to hone your craft...but you never used even the first half of the first book.

you didn't want to wear a shirt & tie like me but you wanted work where you were active and did things with your hands and made good money. so i got you into a trade program that you barely finished. and afterward, you pursued none of the job placement offers they sent your way and when I ran into a guy willing to let you apprentice with him and teach you the trade, you scoffed at working for free (even though you had no financial responsibility & paid zero bills).

you said you hated riding the bus...which is where i sent you once i decided that being your personal uber wasn't fitting into my schedule or my sensibilities. so i printed out the driver's ed book for you to study for your learner's permit. even gave you the money for it. you never took the test.

i've shown you hundreds of jobs that were better than your current one that you could compete for. most you never even applied to. i referred you to places that would help you apply and give you leads on other jobs. you ain't even go see the people.

i put you on to so many job training programs in all kinds of fields. some paid you a little, and others wanted you to learn for free and then get job placement afterwards. all those seats are filled with other young brothers trying to improve themselves.

i want it more for you than you want it for yourself. somewhere along the lines somebody told you it was supposed to be easy. that all you had to do was wish it into existence and POOF...you'd have it made. they lied to you...and now, you're old enough to know better so at this point, you're lying to yourself.

i haven't given up on you but i have adjusted my expectations to directly align with your effort levels.

or at least i'm trying to. i still can't fight the urge to text you a screen shot of a come up i saw that i know you probably won't pursue...






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I'm tryna be better off, not better than...

this isn't love

but fuck is it strong....

plus I'm greedy ugh....

I'm meeting more new, vaguely fascinating people but I miss my core group

Hitting the right buttons but just worried about where I'll end up now

I'm a swiftly tilting planet


"i wanna hug all u idiotic bastards & then set you all on fire" -Bin

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Managing expectations is always the hardest part especially new artists. They think they know what they are doing and know how shit is down so their expectations are always wacky. Its definitely been the most challenging part but i'm learning how to deal with them and keep them busy on certain things. Making them sweat the important stuff and stop worrying about the shit that doesnt matter at the moment is hard as well.

I'm still 100% completely confident in what this band will be able to do.




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but damn if i'm having to eat those words today.

shit hurts. but c'est la vie.

now go runtelldat, ho.

I hung with my ex a little bit today and felt that satisfaction one gets after
closing the back cover of a hefty, hardcover epic that was a tedious but interesting read.

Man I'm so glad I got out of that relationship. I basically skipped to my car whistling a tune, lol.

for my cousin's grad at Tulane. i drove a rental (with my family) from houston to nola, 10 east. the drive reminded me of taking 5 from SF>LA.

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Kawhi Leonard
Marshall Faulk
Tony Gwynn (RIP)

#Aztec4Life

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Sometimes you have to look reality in the face and say 'No!'
-Ben (Reaper)

If you need any help, don't. Hesitate to ask.

A girl started liking me and made a transformation like I've never
seen lol. She went from homely hair pulled back tomboy look,
to when the time I came through to pick up some art days later, hair
down curls popping looking good as hell I had no idea lmao.
The difference was drastic, no makeup either lol.

My project is out and I couldn't be happier. Touring this weekend.

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