-Two Saturdays ago I was in the area of an old friend all day for a basketball tournament. She has a son that's in high school and her husband coaches teams so I shot her a text like 3-4 days prior to and asked were they going to be there as well....she's like no but we probably can come up there and check u out. They've done this before so I'm like cool no big deal.


The morning of the tournament at like 9 she texts me that her son and husband had to go to another tournament in st. louis and she had to work half the day so she wouldn't make it. I'm like cool no big deal..

she texts me again at 1 and says she's getting off early and she's gonna come up to the gym. I'm like cool.

She gets there and i see her and she says she aint got shit to do, after this lets go eat. I'm like fuck it...it's about 4pm and it was time to go so she suggests a spot...i agree and i follow her there. Now she parked right in front of the spot and i had to park a ways away(this is useful info for later) so she got in and got a booth before i even got out my car...

We get there and sit...then order a drink and almost IMMEDIATELY she starts to pour out her heart bout her life.

Husband moved out
They been having problems..serious ones
Sons(they have 2) taking husband side
Divorce

I didn't wanna hear all this shit. I aint used to seeing her 1 on 1 anyway. Always with the husband....so I was all awkward lol.

We're done eating and i'm like cool i better jet, i got an hour and a half drive.

We get to the door and she asks where i park, i tell her waaay round the corner and down the street...she says "Oh i'll drive u to your car"..

cool.

We get to her car and before she opens the door she says "I just gotta tell you, my husband has put a gps tracker on my car and a bug inside so don't say anything crazy when u get in"

SCREEEEEEEEEECH

I got in and didn't say one word. Just looked at her and motioned with my hand bout where to go.

Got to my car and we both got out and she was like "Don't judge me please it's a long story"

ummmmmmm

*scratches her name out my phone book*

@geahuwine

lol...
but yo...
you gotta go back and get the rest of the story fam....
at least shoot her a followup text...


"Seasons may come and your luck just may run out, and all that you'll have is some memories..."

but kept bringing shit up

but i guess she wasn't bringing up how BAD it was/is.


Once she told me that shit at the car i INSTANTLY thought in my mind

"He be whooping her ass"

i'm sorry that was my first thought..

@geahuwine

Where does one go to purchase a GPS tracking device...better yet...a fuckin bug??? Is she married to James Bond???


"Seasons may come and your luck just may run out, and all that you'll have is some memories..."

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all last week I was going on and on about how I wished instead of people, the universe would throw me opportunities and you bet it fucking did.

I had two interviews but I ended up turning them down because it looks like my bosses are finally taking me seriously!! You girl's gonna be baking professionally by May and I'm so fucking amped. Plus they throwing me extra shifts until then.... yo, I can't say nothing negative or at least I gotta try cuz I'm a dark mofo.

One of my coworkers is gonna teach me guitar and I'm just floored at how lucky I am sometimes, best believe I thank the universe every day cuz it could be so much worse. I'm in the middle of writing two songs now and I feel like I can't stop.

This is gonna be my last lean week in a while but it's almost over...

And my havana twists came out cute!!!

*walks outta post like*
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"Seasons may come and your luck just may run out, and all that you'll have is some memories..."

hilarious!!

thanks


"i wanna hug all u idiotic bastards & then set you all on fire" -Bin

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DROkayplayer: Giving you good puff since May '05

It's from the second season of Broad City.

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Maintain chill at all times.

I love that all this amazing stuff is happening for you! Congrats!

I really wish I could put my training to use... #jelly

"Holier than thou never sits well with me."(c)janey

"OKP spends way too much time looking for ways to be offended." ~legsdiamond


http://twitter.com/jeleighbean

for three years now...

almost made it two summers ago but *sigh* I'm just glad to be achieving my goals...


"i wanna hug all u idiotic bastards & then set you all on fire" -Bin

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im in a storm
i have sooo much going on that i cant even prioritize
my prayers/ wants

yesterday i almost had a nervous breakdown
and called my dad

he told me that he has been praying for me
and fasting for me and my situations (yes tions)

his testimony on God's response
is simply amazing

so im going to keep moving
keep being obedient
and keep trusting God

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Daren, I'll never forget you
http://www.fayemurman.com/extras/magee/daren/

and regret not having kids :/
in my early twenties i was all about wanting kids and the whole soccer mom thing
then i got in the do me phase and stopped wanting them
but i am one of those people that go through a lot of phases in life
and i am scared that i am going to one day really want kids and not be able to have them...i'm already at the age where conception won't be easy :/
i've always been .... oh then i will just adopt which is what would likely end up happening....but i wonder if that would make me long for having birth a baby even more....

sigh. *the musings of a 38 year old with an unconventional life*

the key to happiness is not being rich;
it's doing something arduous and
creating something of value and then
being able to reflect on the fruits of your labor

n/m

the key to happiness is not being rich;
it's doing something arduous and
creating something of value and then
being able to reflect on the fruits of your labor

Spending $55 on Plan B is a lot cheaper than co-parenting for 18 years.

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The Green Mile is a movie where the magical black man wrongly dies and the white man who let it happen lives forever.

ijs

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Daren, I'll never forget you
http://www.fayemurman.com/extras/magee/daren/

now go runtelldat, ho.

fuck you.

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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

.

fuck you.

yall are saying the same thing though.

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The Green Mile is a movie where the magical black man wrongly dies and the white man who let it happen lives forever.

i decided to state the obvious after Mr T brought it up.

fuck you.

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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

sex is one thing. having a shared child is another.

now go runtelldat, ho.

trying to trap him if I were smart. LOL.

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The Green Mile is a movie where the magical black man wrongly dies and the white man who let it happen lives forever.

now go runtelldat, ho.

trust.

you moved higher up in the bracket.

my mom warned me about that a few yrs ago - to be careful if i have kids b/c the co-parent will be in my life for ever.

i'm 38 and my parents still have some connection though they haven't been in a romantic relationship in over 35 yrs. the connection is tenuous but it's there and will be there for the rest of their lives. it will outlive me if i die before them. LOL.

fuck you.

they gave everyone a free Plan B pill just in case. I had it for like months when my girl said she needed to get one but didn't have the money. I was like "you're in luck, i have one on deck." so odd trying to explain how I had Plan B's just laying around.

to get a plan B. Wish I knew back then that Planned Parenthood was giving them out like tic tacs.

I started to have dude call in a script for it so I could use my FSA.

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The Green Mile is a movie where the magical black man wrongly dies and the white man who let it happen lives forever.

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"Arm Leg Leg Arm How you doin?" (c)T510

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

now go runtelldat, ho.

when I get at my absolute wits end

thing is I don't know if I really meant it, or if I really don't want to go through getting there and the bullshit that may be involved after it


I just know I haven't spoken it in years and saying it again made me really upset.

what's even more upsetting is that the thing I don't know whether I want or not may be the very thing I need.

anger is a temporary irrational disease. nothing said in the heat of the moment is a reflection of who you are. have you ever made the right decision while angry even though it seemed so right in the moment? i know i haven't. i have always regretted it because i know it is not who i am. forgive yourself, make due apologies, and move forward and try to better. human beings are far from perfect.

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

i want nothing more than for you and your family to be happy
but as a true friend if I am not honest with you and tell you what's in my heart at that very moment I cease being ur friend... please keep in mind I never said you couldn't succeed... I know you can but I want you to be clear on your path to success and who you take on that journey with you.

i can tell you all the rainbow and unicorn phrases and paint a picture that is as beautiful as your spirit but if I am not honest with you I am failing you as friend...

I want to make sure you see the whole picture... the picture that includes the hard work and the options that don't have happy endings... that in no way shape or form means I am rooting against your happiness...

I'm here when you want to talk...

uncle ESB

I got a good life man

at the same time, I say to myself "I wish I had a job closer to home. I wish I could be home by 530/6 instead of 7/730." I'm totally okay with getting paid the same amount if I worked closer to home...if I worked in BK, even better. Force me to ride my bike more. But I do like my job and I wonder "how much more money would it take for me to WANT to stay" (not HAVE to stay). and its' like...between my two coworkers being out, being swamped with work, and other stressors, it's no less than $15K. but I'm in a union, and i know that won't fly.

then i say just say until you make xyz happen...and that means at least another year...but this shit wearing on me.

and I'm pissed at myself for falling off of a yoga because if nothing else, yoga gave me that outlet sometimes, and I haven't cried over this in months...but holding it in has just made me aggressive.

Lent is technically over tmrw...but I have a piece of birthday cake on my desk that's calling my name that I want to indulge in to feel better....and I'm like fuck it, but then I'm like...you can wait one more day.

but oh well. it's much too late to turn back now.

fuck you.

1. i told the truth about everything i felt, what i needed, and what i felt was fair
2. i told the person that i will help them in any way possible to get to a position that i feel is appropriate, and of course, fair.
3. i told them that i do not discard people, instead, i find it more productive to build together.
4. i cultivated that person't best qualities, supported them in every way i could, and wouldn't you know it, massive changes were made for the better.

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

it's not going to happen.

fuck you.

probably a diff scenario. wish you the best.

know your worth!

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

but thanks anyway.

fuck you.

;)

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

I am starting my 30 day Isagenix challenge and no junk food challenge. The only part that gets me is the 2 day fast during the weekend (only 2 weekends out the month). Will be blogging my experience daily.

I am FINALLY ready to get back into the workforce. Trying to find a job that I LIKE AND a full day daycare that won't cost an arm, leg and my whole paycheck. So, pray for me!

I gotta do my mother in law's taxes today. Usually she pays me to do them so it will be nice to get a little cash. Maybe I will do something nice for myself with the money.

"We don't make mistakes, we just have happy little accidents" - Bob Ross

"I'm wearing a MSU Tshirt because I went to MSU, you are wearing a UM Tshirt because you went to Walmart!" -unknown.

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I need to get into the habit of treating myself sometimes. My wardrobe could stand a makeover, my hair looks like pure hell and my shoe game sucks right now...where are Stacy and Clinton when you need them?

"Holier than thou never sits well with me."(c)janey

"OKP spends way too much time looking for ways to be offended." ~legsdiamond


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♥ Inescapably Me ♥

"Love is never any better than the lover" Toni Morrison (The Bluest Eye)

-he makes me smile. Even when he is trying to not hold my hand

-I am mad at myself for not going to the gym. Now that I want to go, I'm sick this week.

-things are good. I feel blessed.

Been wanting to use that all day.

#BooksTicketToHell

w o w

WPS level over 9k!

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"You probably wouldn't worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do!" - Olin Miller

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus

♥ Inescapably Me ♥

"Love is never any better than the lover" Toni Morrison (The Bluest Eye)

it's amazing how quickly i fell out of my workout and beauty routine when things got tough. my hair and skin are a mess and i'm soft in places i wasn't before.

how do parents/people whose days are full always do it?? lol. i'm a little disappointed that all it took was about 4 months of stress for me to completely fall out of habits that i've built over the last four years. such a slippery slope.

anyway, hair appointment booked, eating better and will go back to workin' out 4x/week. (BSR - let's do the 5 day challenges!). throw in some massages and i should be good.

i'm excited. really excited.

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IG: @fireysky

i posted one up in organix and i'm the only one responding, lol.

(BSR - let's do the 5 day
>challenges!). throw in some massages and i should be good.
>
>i'm excited. really excited.

now go runtelldat, ho.

shit just pops up and i can't make it or i really need my full days for the studio. i shouldn't even be on okp right now, lol.

would a small HIIT workout at home work for you?
or would little man be all in the mix?

now go runtelldat, ho.

i have to print something, then i have stupid ass meeting at 12pm and then i need to squeeze in as much studio time as possible. this is always how it ends up working out for me.

k was sick last week and refuses to take naps which makes it harder to get away. on the days he's in daycare it's the only time i have to do my studio work.

i'm trying to get in there at least 2x a week even though i know that's not much. my goal is at least 3 times a week. i've already reached my goal weight, i just want to lose an extra 5 for cushion. i also want to build more muscle.

dapitts put me on in Organix
don't count bodyweight circuits out, those are fantastic when you just can't make it to the gym for a full workout but you do have say 10-15 mins to spare. When I do those, I spend about 25 mins start to finish and I do a total of 4 circuits (1 warm-up and 3-round workout)

here for dis.

blood pumping, a little sweat poppin!

now go runtelldat, ho.

lemme head there cause i'm trying to get back in the saddle myself
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You cannot hate people for their own good.

I fell off HOARD because it seemed like no one was doing them other than like earthseed and one other okp (dapitts?)
can we alternate weeks or something, work out some sort of arrangement?

here for dis.

and i'm the only one responding.

i'm like damn, NO ONE is working out in organix!

now go runtelldat, ho.

i'm even happy to just do the posts all the time

so wait, we can't post it here anymore?

does it have to be in organix? i mean, it's fine, but i think it may have more traction in GD

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IG: @fireysky

I moved it to Organix so I wouldn't violate any rules plus give the new board a boost, at one point it was the most popular thread there.
maybe we can sneak one in as a test post?

here for dis.

but it's fell off.

now go runtelldat, ho.

http://board.okayplayer.com/okp.php?az=show_topic&forum=4&topic_id=12769161&mesg_id=12769161&page=

leggo!

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IG: @fireysky

one of the girls at work pressed up on me the other day and then lowkey clowned me for how soft i was compared to when i started working here.

after work the last thing i want to do is workout.

<--- Big Baller World Order

...we still have so much to talk about and clarify and make understood and understand and plan and readjust to but i'd be lying if i said i didn't feel like a million pound weight was lifted from off my chest. the resentfulness the loneliness the sadness the hate and confusion......i get to let it all go. first time around we kinda just jumped in without much discussion re: expectations. this time we have had (a whole lotta) time to reflect on expectations, what we need from one another and what we owe to one another as far as commitment goes and from what we've discussed so far, i trust that he gets it. hearing him out was worth it.

...i don't know how to tell my family. but i guess i should wait til we catch up more.

...i eat and drink too much junk.

www.royallegacy.org

For Real (Official Video):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBRoCPO8esE

this sounds promising and I hope it is

♥ Inescapably Me ♥

"Love is never any better than the lover" Toni Morrison (The Bluest Eye)

thank you and me too.

www.royallegacy.org

For Real (Official Video):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBRoCPO8esE

i don't offer a lot of myself to begin with but there has been a good 2 or 3 day stretch where motherfuckers are getting on my nerves. people panic and want you to panic...and i'm not going to do that. people want your time when they want your time, and i'm not going to do that. this poor lady at work....i'm going out to Bon Chon for lunch. i'm going and bringing shit back for everyone. i'm doing that at 1. i don't give a fuck what the fuck you want, i'm going at 1. i tell her yes...i'm going to get wings and 1. she gets an attitude like BUT I'M HUNGRY NOW. i'm about to take the gotdamned train for this. this is what i'm doing. you can either join in, or join out.

i give myself out at the rate i choose to give myself out. otherwise i'd feel like i was being sucked dry. i might be selfish. i like my plans. and sometimes i have no problem deviating from them. but sometimes....i'mma do me, in my own way. and there are very few people who i'll change for when i'm feeling like that. AND....the people who love me allow me to do that. its understood that i'm an isolated person, and instead of forcing their way into my cocoon...they let me work out of that. and that's the difference between those people i love and just people i enjoy.

i'm fucking stressed man. and i don't know what to do about that. i need a chick i can chill with....roll 1 up with....have sex with...spend the night...kiss on the mouth in the morning before i leave...and go on about my business. no strings. pure contentment. at this age that shit is so hard to find. there are always strings. always. always expectations, which i get....i do. but damn.

i love being the Uncle who gets WrestleMania and has his nephew down for pizza and wings. thats some cool shit i know he loves and we have a blast. my sister too. family time this weekend was great.

i also need the gym. i'm about to take this shit seriously. i'm changing my environment and hopefully can change the bad habits i've collected over the past years. focus more. eat better. exercise. read. these are things i'm looking forward to changing. and sometimes you gotta get outta your normal routine to make some changes. and i'm with it.
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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

life is good.



lolololololol


it's just too much.

you know how to reach me if you wanna know what's up. lol.

http://youtu.be/5o37GORoKUQ

#htpw

who publicly express misogynistic ideas. i'm not talking about women who don't view it as problem. i'm talking about women who acknowledge that his views as misogynistic. maybe i'm being judgmental, but i find it very sad for both parties.

or equal rights
as weird as that sounds
some women see that as "traditional"

women should be free to make their own informed choices on how they want to conduct their lives.
If a woman makes an informed choice for herself that she wants to be a homemaker, I would salute that just like I salute all working mothers. I hate how even when we are supposed to support each other, we still end up fighting each other.

here for dis.

i think there's wanting "tradional roles" aka woman cooks and cleans vs. a woman believing that's all WOMEN are suppose to do and actively encourge other women to stay in the home.

there's a difference

if a woman makes a decision FOR HERSELF
that she wants to be a housewife and that is what she wants FOR HERSELF while respecting the decisions of fellow women who makes choices FOR THEMSELVES no matter what those choices may be then I will surely respect her choice because I trust that she made that decision for herself. The way I'm reading your response is that you're addressing conditioning and that I will agree is a problem that still needs to be addressed.

here for dis.

I got into it with an old poster on these very boards about this some years ago. Feminism 100% means my right to choose whatever the fuck I want without judgement or repercussions, and that choice may well mean staying home.

Kudos to the woman who's brave enough to admit that she doesn't "want it all" and is perfectly fine being "just" a stay at home mom and running a household.

The older I get, the more I see it.

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Maintain chill at all times.

fuck you.