Almost done

@geahuwine

let me just gon and enjoy this little break.


life is good.

http://youtu.be/5o37GORoKUQ

#htpw

I felt like I've won the lotto.

Momma, I made it.

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blog: www.wonderfullyhorrible.blogspot.com
instagram: Fishgrease
twitter: wooly_caesar
Podcast www.soundcloud.com/circlegang

"yes, sometimes my rhymes are sexist, but you lovely bitches and hos should know i'm tryin to correct it"- hiphopopotamus

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blog: www.wonderfullyhorrible.blogspot.com
instagram: Fishgrease
twitter: wooly_caesar
Podcast www.soundcloud.com/circlegang

"yes, sometimes my rhymes are sexist, but you lovely bitches and hos should know i'm tryin to correct it"- hiphopopotamus

♥ Inescapably Me ♥

"Love is never any better than the lover" Toni Morrison (The Bluest Eye)

Looking forward to my trip to the A this weekend. Baby Shower here I come!!!! Just me, my daughter and my mom are making this trip. My hubby and his mom are staying here. I have a feeling that fireworks are going to fly. I'm just waiting for the play by play when I get back.

I'm also going to meet up with my cousins while I'm there. I'm really looking forward to this weekend.

"We don't make mistakes, we just have happy little accidents" - Bob Ross

"I'm wearing a MSU Tshirt because I went to MSU, you are wearing a UM Tshirt because you went to Walmart!" -unknown.

http://bjsquirrelchronicles.blogspot.com

every time i go to eat i think about that post
last night i pretty much ate an entire bag of kettle corn, and then i felt like i need to confess in that post, lol.

i was going to go for a run this morning, but it's currently 35 degrees and i have no warm clothes for run.

*goes back under the blankets*

...not feeling like myself lately. getting harder to fake it.

www.royallegacy.org

For Real (Official Video):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBRoCPO8esE

I have headhunters calling everyday about Jobs that are out of state. Maybe I could do an out of state contract after my son graduates in May, but not now. I can't leave like this.

Oh, and I didn't make it you the 2nd round with Good Ol' G**gle.. The hiring manager wanted someone with a little more experience. I can dig it. Plus I don't have my PMP. So I kinda knew I was on the Long List for getting cut. But I can HOPE..lol


I'm taking a PMP course online, It's pretty good too. I found it on Amazon Local for the $69.00. My man who teaches PMP said it looks good too. I've been doing PM work for years but I'm not certified. So, I plan to take the Exam end of April.

I hate Corp. America, but my telecom Engineering skills are becoming dated and I don't care to learn about any new technology. I've been in the game since 92 and I need to leave. Plus PM's can make a killing in the right sector.





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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

i've been having mild pain down there for the past few days. and i sometimes have pain during and/or after the hoochie coochie.

the gyns tell me i shouldn't worry. last checkup, my fibroids still weren't big but there was no ultrasound so i don't know for sure. there are 4 of them but even small ones can cause pain supposedly. or what if the pain is something else?

ive had two trips to the emergency room for pelvic pain...once it was a ruptured cyst and the other time there was no explanation.

so with my past being what it is and still having regular light and easy periods, its hard to pinpoint what the problem might be. i gotta find a good doctor and advocate for myself. shit sucks tho.

here for dis.

that could help
or perhaps you need to change the kind of bc

don't worry about the fibroids, as long as they don't get as bad as mine were, you're find. mind you, i hadn't gone to a gyno in 4 yrs due to no insurance.

been thinking about getting on low estro pill tho. kinda nervous to do that too. did bc help you?

im worried about this damn pain. if the fibroids are causing it, it could be getting bad. or it could be something other than fibroids like endometriosis.

esp menstrual pain
i'm on yaz and i love it
i still cramp, but not as bad as when i'm not on it, plus it clears up my skin and i don't gain weight. i also don't get periods. as far as coming off it, my face did break out but i was also able to get pregnant 6 months after stopping.
every pill work differently for everyone though. this one works well for me. i'd consider it if i were you. just talk to your gyno about your concerns.

Havent been sexually active at all so it can't be an std

But they've been itchy to the extent im taking bathroom breaks just to scratch the boys


Thank god for cortisone brah

do you work out?
because if cortisone is working
thats probably whats wrong

just go to the doctor though


lol
i cant believe i replied to this

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Daren, I'll never forget you
http://www.fayemurman.com/extras/magee/daren/

but i just looked it up on
webmd

the symptoms is that it itches
i was always told that it was a form of ringworm
and ringworms itch

that is why it spreads in young kids because they scratch at it


however you would know more
hence im not a guy
so good luck to him.

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Daren, I'll never forget you
http://www.fayemurman.com/extras/magee/daren/

it itches but its so much worse than just an itch
i cried the first time i saw it it looks that bad lol
it could be that it looked really bad bc his genitals are small and diapers kept the area moist
which only helps fungus grow
but it looked soooooo crazy lol

www.royallegacy.org

For Real (Official Video):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBRoCPO8esE

it def LOOKED 'raw'
so glad that shit is over. it took about a month to clear it up.

www.royallegacy.org

For Real (Official Video):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBRoCPO8esE

If you can't find any difference in the skin, than it sounds like sweat. Wash well, change your underwear daily, and use baby powder to absorb the moisture, and you can also use lotion.

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

Closed at the end of Nov. Just paid my second mortgage payment.

Gonna get the place painted professionally and some work done on the lights in the kitchen, but it's going slowly. I feel like I can't really furnish the place until I have all that done.

Then there's unpacking all the junk from my 1br apartment. that's coming along slowly. I still have a ton of stuff in the garage. Then I gotta think about furniture. 1br furniture looks ridiculous in a large townhome.

Most nights, I come home cook and just veg out. I gotta get used to living in different rooms of my house too. I'm on my main level way too much. I get dressed, undressed, take off my shoes all in my living room dining room. I gotta get used to having different rooms for different purposes. I still live like a bachelor in a 1br apartment.

I really need to get it in gear cause I want to start having folks over by the time the spring comes, cause I have a pretty kickass deck.

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cscpov.blogspot.com

"There's a fine line between persistence and foolishness..."
-unknown

"To Each His Reach"

when we bought our house i went apeshit and thought i could get everything done in a month, lol. i was so stupid.

it's a marathon not a sprint. take your time and do it at your leisure. and if you don't like it, change it!

good luck

we didnt have the money to hire painters to do the entire inside of the house. It needed it. So we had to do it ourselves. Killed ourselves for the next 3 months painting every weekend and whenever we had free time. After those first 3 months we didnt want to do shit afterwards and we had so much unpacking to still do. Now its just a project at a time. Lets work on this when we have time. Knocking out little shit when we get a chance. shit we have been here for a year and a half and I still have an empty formal living and dining room. I aint got no money to furnish them rooms. Might take care of living room when Uncle Sam comes through.

November 8th, 2005 The greatest night in the history of GD!

it's your house.. and like Girlchild said above, take your time
you will be in that house for a while, let it marinate

@silentintellect

you will be really happy and glad you got a house, trust me.

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

I'm definitely glad I'm an owner.
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cscpov.blogspot.com

"There's a fine line between persistence and foolishness..."
-unknown

"To Each His Reach"

take it or leave it...lol

get your furniture first or at least have an idea of what you want before you paint ESPECIALLY if you are paying to have it done professionally. reason being it is easier to match paint to your furniture than it is to match furniture to your paint. this article explains it a little better http://roomfu.com/2011/10/chicken-or-egg-which-comes-first-paint-or-furniture/

if that's tl:dr the jist is

"The reality is a little tougher to sell. Picking out paint colors before sofas, rugs, chairs, bedding, curtains–all of those textiles in a room–restricts you in many ways and could be disastrous unless you’re just going to slap a coat of Builder Beige on all of the walls. And if you do that, you’re just doing your life wrong.

If you are planning to create a more personal space, you owe it to yourself to put your paint selections on the backburner. Why? Let’s say you’re hell-bent on having charcoal gray walls and a beige sofa, with a gorgeous eggplant rug. Just as the painters finish rolling on the perfect charcoal gray on the walls, you find the sofa of your dreams, and–gulp–it’s on sale. But lo, and behold, your fabulous dream sofa only comes in charcoal gray. At that point, it’s either bye-bye sofa, or you’re paying for another paint job. Either way, you lost out on an opportunity to save some money."

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...although I still will go mostly paint first.

Reason being that I don't want to buy all the furniture and then have to move it out of the painter's way.

I know I'm not going with a builder's beige on the walls, but I do know it will be somewhere in that color palette. More of a modern neutral color.

I'm not big on having a garanimal looking ass house with 10 different colors in it. Currently I'm living with the canary yellow that previous owners had throughout the main areas.

The kitchen family room will get painted "Essential Gray" which is a warm neutral and will accentuate the white cabinets and brushed nickel chandelier/ceiling fan. the rest of the house is a toss up at the moment, but nothing too bold or too dark.

Lord, I'm rambling.
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cscpov.blogspot.com

"There's a fine line between persistence and foolishness..."
-unknown

"To Each His Reach"

i love talking about this stuff

i was in my house for three years before i chose a paint color for my bedroom. still not done decorating it...lol

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See the thing is about my place is that it has a very open concept. The main level flows down to the basement and up to the upper level.

So there really is no good place to have one color stop, and another one start. The only place for that is in the kitchen/family room which is separated off by a pair of French doors. Already picked the color for that. And the color allows for a lot of flexibility in furniture choices.

But the rest of the main level living room/dining room and halways, staircase pretty much have to be one color. And I'm more for making a place pop with art/furniture than with loud colors everywhere. Just my personal style.

Now I might go bold in the basement which is closed off, and in the bedrooms, but I don't plan to have those done this year. Just the main level and I can go to town. I know all my furniture is gonna be of the walnut/cherry brownish variety.

I got a couple of possible dining room tables picked out, and I know I'm gonna go with wood (possibly reclaimed wood) and then accent it with nice fabric chairs. Possibly with nailhead touches.

*sigh* Restoration Hardware and Pottery Barn are gonna be the death of me.
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cscpov.blogspot.com

"There's a fine line between persistence and foolishness..."
-unknown

"To Each His Reach"

and expensive taste...lol

i think i bought one lamp from restoration hardware (should've gotten two it's been long since discontinued) and a throw from pottery barn on sale with a coupon.

my mom gets on me for not investing more in my furniture but why pay more when you can get a discount or thrift? really i have mix of stuff from crate and barrel, macy's, estate sales, craigslist, overstock, ikea, target...i don't discriminate

lemme see your dining table options!

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...at the very least I have a vision.

And believe me, I won't be getting too much from RH. I'm also open to estate sales too. Lots of good stuff there that people just want to unload.

Here are some tables I'm looking at:

http://www.homedecorators.com/P/Walton-Dining-Table/00/960/

http://www.homedecorators.com/P/Maharaja-Dining-Table/00/960/

http://www.potterybarn.com/products/benchwright-dining-table/?pkey=ctables&

http://www.crateandbarrel.com/cabria-dark-extension-dining-table/f29687
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cscpov.blogspot.com

"There's a fine line between persistence and foolishness..."
-unknown

"To Each His Reach"

the 2nd one is pretty unique

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Not totally traditional, not totally modern. Transitional is the word. It'll look nice for years without looking dated.

The second one is more daring, but honestly would be out of place with damn near everything else I'm looking at to go with it (chairs, sideboard, console table) but it is very unique.
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cscpov.blogspot.com

"There's a fine line between persistence and foolishness..."
-unknown

"To Each His Reach"

or just too much other stuff to do?
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cscpov.blogspot.com

"There's a fine line between persistence and foolishness..."
-unknown

"To Each His Reach"

I was gone go at him on this week's show. I was. But someone talked me out of it.

So I'm at peace about the sitch. He said he didn't know. So I'm gone let it go.

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one half of the most dynamic tag team on the net...nappyafro's FROCAST!

http://www.frocast.com
www.nappyafro.com
store.nappyafro.com

lmao. but I guess DMX/K-Solo rules

the music snobs podcast used it, too.

and jay electronica.

I'm never using it again, I got plenty of chunes.

iono but I can tell u how it is 2 sleep with one every single night....

im gonna be a daddy... surreal...

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i will not let finite disappointment undermine infinite hope
- Cory Booker

Football is a simple game; 22 men chase a ball for 90 minutes, and at the end the Germans always win
- Gary Lineker

Congrats.

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one half of the most dynamic tag team on the net...nappyafro's FROCAST!

http://www.frocast.com
www.nappyafro.com
store.nappyafro.com

congrats!

www.royallegacy.org

For Real (Official Video):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBRoCPO8esE

IG: amadu_me

"...Whateva, man..." (c) Redman

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http://gravalicious.tumblr.com/archive

"If you're not loving someone, you're wasting your time." - Dennis Brown

things have been transpiring for some time because i haven't been clear on what i want to people for them to listen.

I realize that it is a failure of communication on my part and not stepping up to make some hard decisions. This failure of communication is a character flaw i have that im working on because i was so used to things working out eventually without my influence. I realize that im wrong and cant get away with that anymore.

Today, the changes i need to take place will be clearly laid out and put in place.

Some people are not going to like what i have to say but its not about coddling other peoples feelings no more. Its about me taking charge of my life more because its no other option.

that things are going to crap out on me. But 2014 was so shitty it can only get better right?

I just hope I have all the money I need to move!

"Holier than thou never sits well with me."(c)janey

"OKP spends way too much time looking for ways to be offended." ~legsdiamond


http://twitter.com/jeleighbean

I'm dealing with a coworker whose trying to micromanage way too much shit, won't let folks do what they know how to do, and feels like he's gotta be right all the goddamned time.

I'm *thisclose* to having a casual conversation with the CEO to express my concerns even though I know that would be a declaration of war.

I'm still weighing the costs and the benefits, and I know I can't just go at this cat guns blazing, but still. Someone's gotta step to him with some real authority to get him to chill.



my avy: Deep in your heart, you know he's right: http://coreyrichardsonneedsajob.com/
my hustle: http://SupaSoulSounds.com

*RIP: John T. "220v" Richardson, Blessing Benson, and Dilla*

i dont like xyz and i dont want you to do it with me anymore have a nice day etc

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fairweather

The first time was on some, "You my boy, so I'mma just let you know" shit. The time after that, it was a little more assertive like, "Dude, you're pushing it." And a couple of weeks ago I told him, "Man, you're losing my support here and I'm not the only one..."

He just ain't getting the message from his peers so it probably needs to come from the boss.


my avy: Deep in your heart, you know he's right: http://coreyrichardsonneedsajob.com/
my hustle: http://SupaSoulSounds.com

*RIP: John T. "220v" Richardson, Blessing Benson, and Dilla*

...but i don't really want anyone i know to know...i think my mom knows but she hasn't said anything.......it's through my church and if i had my way, THEY wouldn't know LOL...i see cats online bragging about the work we're doing and it doesn't feel genuine to me...like...we just started this thing at the end of Dec, and folks are online like "you should be out there helping the homeless, LIKE US" LOL...then to make it funnier, every other Sunday, someone in the pulpit brings up the minisrty like "we doing big things!! we helping people!", but in my head i just think "you was supposed ta BEEN helpin people...and you should be a bit more humble about alla this"

i'm fairly private, so i don't want the accolades, i just wanna help...same goes for any other volunteer work i do....i find myself loving helping people, but not loving working with people who forget you're volunteering, and don't "owe" them anything....

"yes, sometimes my rhymes are sexist, but you lovely bitches and hos should know i'm tryin to correct it"- hiphopopotamus

no class

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i will not let finite disappointment undermine infinite hope
- Cory Booker

Football is a simple game; 22 men chase a ball for 90 minutes, and at the end the Germans always win
- Gary Lineker

I think I've moved closer to the dog side in the great cat vs dog debate.

I still very much love cats and hope to own a hairless sphynx some day, but having a dog is really, really awesome.
My little guy is up for anything, which makes me up for more things.
We've already discovered two new hiking trail entrances. I can't wait for spring and summer now.

I'm actually looking forward to something.

I LOVE dogs. I want one really badly but I know I cannot be a good owner at the moment as I am too busy with work, life pursuits.

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

http://oi59.tinypic.com/b8paqd.jpg

here for dis.

Like my uncle said last night, lol, "He's a strange dog." But he's so lovable and sweet.

I've got a lot of work to do, but he's going to be fantastic by the end of this year.

Hiking with a dog sounds like the best thing ever. I'm jelly.

~Experience is the currency of the soul.

You wouldn't know he's already 6 years old if he didn't sleep so much.


>Hiking with a dog sounds like the best thing ever. I'm jelly.
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It really is. I had to wait a few years to get myself more together before having him full time.
But the wait was worth it. When you finally get your dog, it'll be amazing.

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http://twitter.com/logicalhood
http://instagram.com/hoodlogic

I kept 3 pits for a month and I learned several things that boil down to this:

Pits are adorable. But totally not the breed for me.

doing some NON-ATHLETIC shit! may need surgery. may not. i got crutches and a brace, and i was limping around like a broke dick dog. my dick works fine tho and its a lot better. still gotta meet with the doc on Fri and we'll go from there.

(this is kind of a continuation from above) i drink too much tho. working back in the city is great. i'm social. i'm active. i'm drunk a lot. got a lot of non-alcohol related activities to do, but on a random night....i'll hit up a happy hour. and i don't hit shit softly....i hit the fuck outta it. i gotta control, regulate, and act thirty four.

i have a hard time not wanting to date my friends. but i also am a friend enough where it doesn't really fuck the relationship up. i want you to be happy. i want you to be comfortable. but if you get close to me (if i allow you to get truly close to me) that speaks volumes about the kind of person you are. and why wouldn't i want to be with like someone like that?

you know what...they try and give everything a scientific disorder. sometimes....you might just be greedy and undisciplined. this:

https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/binge-eating-disorder

thats a crock of shit. look at the symptoms:

Binge Eating Disorder

Binge Eating Disorder (BED) is a type of eating disorder that is characterized by recurrent binge eating without the regular use of compensatory measures to counter the binge eating.

Symptoms

Frequent episodes of consuming very large amount of food but without behaviors to prevent weight gain, such as self-induced vomiting.

A feeling of being out of control during the binge eating episodes.

Feelings of strong shame or guilt regarding the binge eating.

Indications that the binge eating is out of control, such as eating when not hungry, eating to the point of discomfort, or eating alone because of shame about the behavior.

yo.....that's all normal, common sense. you eat a alot you're going to feel like shit. you eat as a comfort....it doesn't help. but to call it a disorder....that's just a cop out to me.
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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

♥ Inescapably Me ♥

"Love is never any better than the lover" Toni Morrison (The Bluest Eye)

Enjoy that good feeling!

movin' and shakin', but I FEEL an apprehension that used to never ever be there before.

♥ Inescapably Me ♥

"Love is never any better than the lover" Toni Morrison (The Bluest Eye)

I've been trying to get back to the confidence I had when I was younger.
But I think it's been destroyed by time.

- I hate that the Seahawks made me -care-... LOL, that was the most "Eagley" (© poetx) thing ever. goddammit.

- Reading KosherSam's news of course reminded me of the sudden death of my father, as did some recent events. some years have passed and my siblings and I got something out of a wrongful death suit. so we were all checking in to see who got what. My brother was the last to get his check, and he said something like: "I'd give it back 100x if we could have Dad back"

and then I just remembered being at home with all of them, that period after we lost our mother, and how basically our father was the central, unifying figure between us going our different ways. now he's gone, and we're split 4 different ways across the country. the only way we know what everyone's doing is through social media and the phone. and that's wack when you spend 2 decades around 'em.

especially with my recent wake-up calls. how much more time will I have around 'em, I wonder? we're going to somehow find a way to all get "home" this year. we'll visit our parents the only way we can.

- at least I've seeing some positives. hope all this work will be worth it in the end.

>- I hate that the Seahawks made me -care-

I really just got into them because of my little cousin, so I didn't expect all this.
Sherman and Lynch really pulled me in, lol.


As for everything else you wrote... *hugs*.
I know I kind of fell off the offline grid, but I'm still here, you know.

twin 4 year olds, boy/girl.

always saw myself as a father, but twins was totally unexpected.

my wife says i should be a husband first, but part of me feels like she's only saying that because my stepson is 14. she's done this before i haven't and I fucking love them man. completely unconditionally. they are awesome.

i'm honestly trying my hardest in the husband dept, but i realize i'm failing when i tell my 4 year olds "i missed you today" in front of my wife and i haven't said that to her yet. it's involuntary man. with her it feels forced, like man you know i missed you, even though we emailed back and forth all day and you called me after i left work and here we are in the kitchen talking to each other.....again.

maybe its the talking...less is more with me, but its the opposite with her.

anyway, i love those little jokers.

True story

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I randomly like to say "things are coming up milhouse!" This may be the reason I'm not married

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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

just close your eyes and let your savior be your guide.

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twitter: wooly_caesar
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i hate you
lmao

www.royallegacy.org

For Real (Official Video):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBRoCPO8esE

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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

I've made connections to THE plugs that could get me to my dreams, but they haven't found reason to invest heavily in me yet. A whole lot of "let's build and see what happens", without much follow through

that said I had a call today that Im hoping turns into something

and if not, Im still blessed but the goal is to be blessed beyond measure

My main job picked up like fuck and suddenly I've been shoved into the front line.

This is good

but before all this happened I took on a side job which is also demanding


at least I havent started to develop facial tics. Those come with extreme stess.

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