Nada..

@geahuwine

just for a little while
not sure where or when
it's not a panicky feeling
it's more an 'if i get away i can be still and sort some things out' feeling

looking at a weekend in september
just need a place

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Either I will be headed to the next level or I'll be out on the street looking for my next job.

More than anything I will know what type of career and positions I can possibly have (i.e., have I reached my ceiling yet?)


At any rate I should probably cut my time on OKP considerably.


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Movies I need y'all bastids to see so we can discuss:

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Appropriate Behavior - http://goo.gl/isCzTM
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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

No one has ever asked me what this website is on my second screen.

The outdated format actually is good because it doesn't necessarily look like I am goofing off.

It's just that I could be spending my time doing other stuff.


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Movies I need y'all bastids to see so we can discuss:

Five Star - https://goo.gl/jBHbVv
Appropriate Behavior - http://goo.gl/isCzTM
Ma

it was good but also heavy as shit.

she just looked different....i could feel a difference and shes about to start chemo and about to be without hair for a bit.


ugh. fuck this shit.

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Be there for her if you can...

Somebody's lying...

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I'd save SO much money and well as probably get ladies more often

R.I.P. Loud But Wrong Guy
Dec 29th 2009 - Dec 17th 2017

..at a certain point you give up hinting and blatantly requesting peoples time if you can't bring yourself to call me and if I only hear from you after I initiate contact then you just don't care that much and its on me to move forward. Reason and a season.I've already mourned the shift in our relationship. I just need to be more guarded which isn't my nature by I'm working on it.
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"Is we still talking or nah" is a text I'm debating sending for the jokes of it..the outcome I don't care about but the phrasing cracks me up
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I think I'm going to start checking for dudes 8 years older than me and return to my old man loving roots (although 8 years isn't that much but anything older than my youngest older brother technically is alot)
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At certain points speaking to him feels like speaking to myself but in a good way as in we see things similarly even if our executions are different it's nice.

He told me he thinks he's catching feelings-I have no idea how to take this. He also asked for my support with this. I have no idea what that looks like. I asked him-he said he would let me know.
I told him I like our "anti-dating" I may be slow to catch on but geez dating has turned into a game of who can appear to care the least and therefore have "the power" waiting to answer the phone, return calls, acting "not bothered" to make plans to see each other etc. It's really nice to not have to be like that. He calls to say he felt some kinda way about us not speaking that day..he calls to say "hi" cause he wanted to hear my voice he calls to say that he just enjoys our conversations. He told me he doesn't have time to pretend to not care cause..what's the point?
I told him a while back I was working on being demanding..he said "I can support you with this" I laughed cause ..who says that? On the weekend I called him and said "so..do you think we could err maybe see each other today?" And he asked me "is that you asking or demanding?" I said "umm I dunno demanding?" And he said "you sure about that?" To which I replied "I would like 1 see you today." And he laughed and said "that's better! Of course" I'm in real big trouble ..someone please call 911 LOL

...i've eaten more mcdonald's in this one summer than i have in the last 5 years combined. and i'm going again today to try the buttermilk chicken sandwich.

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LOL

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it's right up the road from my job. I know i shouldnt but once a week... I get it in.

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$2.50 for a small fry and a double cheeseburger or snack wrap
i get two and be straight for $5
can't beat it
a few other times i got the chicken & ranch wrap
gonna go on a mcdonald's fast after today though i've been ridiculous with it lol

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i'm gonna try it after my bday

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gnap.

from their other 'premium' chicken sandwich IMO.
the bread is really good though. they should use that bread for all of their burgers and chicken sandwiches lol

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You take the blue pill, the story ends. You wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

i call it my theme song

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Don't blame you. That's some good ish!

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Wrote an open letter to Anna Duggar yesterday. I truly think that sex addiction gets a bad wrap. Its an addiction just like gambling or alcoholism. Its sad because of the stigma, most people don't seek the help they truly need.

I tell my daughter that she needs to be a good girl, not a bad girl. This is my 3 year old's response: "Mommy, I wanna be Batman"

SMH. She is her father's daughter.

I'm writing daily and I love it. Not just for my blog, but short stories and novels also. I think I will self-publish. I hate to have someone critique my work before I finish, so I will finish first. Is that normal? I guess some writers do it as they go along. I just don't want anyone to discourage my creativity because I do have a tendency to get discouraged.

My hubby is in Baton Rouge, and I wish I was there with him. I've never been there.

I need a real vacation. A do nothing vacation. A sit on my ass with a drink in my hand vacation. I just need to finish my book first.

"We don't make mistakes, we just have happy little accidents" - Bob Ross

"I'm wearing a MSU Tshirt because I went to MSU, you are wearing a UM Tshirt because you went to Walmart!" -unknown.

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"Where was the peace when we were getting shot? Where's the peace when we were getting laid out?
Where is the peace when we are in the back of ambulances? Where is the peace then?
They don't want to call for peace then.

You just might.

"We don't make mistakes, we just have happy little accidents" - Bob Ross

"I'm wearing a MSU Tshirt because I went to MSU, you are wearing a UM Tshirt because you went to Walmart!" -unknown.

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We do love Batman in our home.

"We don't make mistakes, we just have happy little accidents" - Bob Ross

"I'm wearing a MSU Tshirt because I went to MSU, you are wearing a UM Tshirt because you went to Walmart!" -unknown.

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and trying to figure out how I can get some chocolate without walking to far in these heels.

One of those days ...

♥ Inescapably Me ♥

"Love is never any better than the lover" Toni Morrison (The Bluest Eye)

we're in a good place mostly and Im busting my ass to keep it that way

I cant wait to be financially stable though

I've had some major crises of faith over the past year, but I think I've worked past it

my job irks me at times, but I dont complain about my bills being paid

so much more I want to do, learn, accomplish, and achieve with so little time

it's wild when people are gushing over your work and talking like you are the shit. They made a brotha feel Goooood. They called me yesterday for a second interview and told me to park in the space that has my name on it.

whuuuut.


I went to see Straight Outta Compton. Man, that shit was amazing. I know people on here don't like NWA but that shit is no different than a film director making a horror movie or a comedian telling nasty jokes. The movie theatre had 6 reclining seats in each row, local beer on tap and tickets were $6.

It's been an awesome week so far, only problem is this magenta print head is fucking up at work. That's an easy $60 I can't collect on for 2 posters until we get it fixed. boss may have to pay up cause it may not be something I can fix.

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I met a family the husband of which had this energy that I was drawn to-I enjoyed his stance on community, family etc. His wife was warm and friendly (she was wife #2)

I thought about what it would be like to join this family, raise the children..what our home would be like...and debated if I could rock with that

Until I saw a glimpse into their financials.


I decided Nope not today


Was an interesting 5mins of thought though

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Im not sure if that is a sin...but im sure its wrong.
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There are so many moving parts in my life right now
I just need one aspect to sit the fuck down
So I can control it
Cause I'm not controlling any of this right now

Time has helped me greatly

the one who I wasn't ever into, but she was great on paper and all else.

Kinda sucks how it ended though, it was on some Ty Dolla "Paranoid" shit.

I gradually stopped talking to her as much, and for three weeks, we only texted...no phone calls, I didn't try to see her at all. I had a huge BBQ at my house, and I didn't really want her there, but I know she'd find out anyway, and I'd be an asshole to not invite her...so I told her that her and her sister could come. Well, she came solo...her sis came and left, and she still stayed.

And by 12:30, basically everyone was gone.......except her......and this other chick I dated heavy in 2012, but ended up fucking and reconnecting with about a month ago. And my best friend, who basically entertained the one I was trying to end it with.

And by 2:30....she was still there!! I was in the back with the other girl, who finally asked "who is she?" and we halfway argued for a hour about it all, because she didn't know why I would invite her if I wasn't dating her anymore.

Next day, me and the girl who I was done with texted, and she said "so after yesterday, I think it's safe to say that we should just remain friends." I agreed, and apologized for letting it end the way it did.

BUT...after a few of the usual "it's over but I guess we're cool" texts...she starts talking about other guys, either on some hurt shit, or just showing she's desperate. She basically said "I'm not mad, but I wish I knew, because I turned down so many guys for you." and she mentions a guy she met at a party that I brought her to, who was all in her face. Then, she asked me about two guys who were at my BBQ, on some "so since we're cool, what's up with Elden and James? Elden was soooo sexy, I just wanted to....oh nevermind!"

Not sure what her deal was, but she just reeks of being desperate and NEEDING someone, in my eyes. And maybe I sensed that early on, and that's why I was never into her?

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Honestly if she was that upset about it she probably wouldn't be talking to u at all. She probably just went to see what was up since you couldn't just come out and say it...

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I was barely talking to her there...when I did, it was alllll casual and friendly. But I'm coo if she got her some new hoes there

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If a hetero dude is hosting a party generally the last chick there is the one he's dating
Hence why both the girl you reconnected with and her, the chick you were seeing hung around

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to have her there.

UGH.

Only worse way you could have handled that is by texting her its over

Congrats you have basically guaranteed you will be fucked over real bad by somebody in the future

So much worse has happened, and I coulda been so much worse.

I never sold her a dream. Never ever had and with her, although she was trying to make that happen within a week of knowing her and two days of hanging out. I never even said we were exclusively dating. I know I was wrong for not ending it sooner, but it gradually faded to the point that I honestly figured she was on the same page about it...hell, she had stopped asking me to hang out and stopped calling me as well, so she surely knew. Just that at the BBQ, she was hoping to still make something happen.

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its so easy to type it out, & its hella flippant how you been talking abt the shit to US...yet it took months and you STILL never told her? she told you? accept you did some corny shit & you were wrong. flat out. im not your homie so i dont need to kiss your ass or massage your feelings. if a broad did it to you like that youd be salty and rightfully so. do better.

desperate, but doesn't mean she deserved for it to end the way it did, which is why I said "it sucks how it ended" vs anything else. I even note that I apologized to her for how I went about it...so of course that means I was wrong.

Not sure if you saw the original post, but for one, it wasn't "Months to tell her" at all...after maybe six weeks, I just realized it wasn't gonna grow, and that's when I made that post, which was maybe a month ago.

In that post, I basically say it...it's way harder to tell her than it usually is, because I know she was into me, and she didn't do anything wrong for me to end it. Yet, I made sure to never lead her on or take it to another level. The fact that I didn't have sex with her is MAJOR...so many dudes would do that, knowing her intentions and how much she's into them, and I never let it get close. My main problem was NOT ending it...but as said, no dreams were sold, and I always kept boundaries throughout.

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A text as soon as he knew would have been preferable I'm sure.

Like I said in his earlier post, I'm sure she has other guys interested so he should have stopped acting like this would destroy her.

It's not that serious.

We got his take on it, and I'm violating by even replying here so I'll just say this and skate

If it wasn't that deep...would she have stayed there all gatdamn night?

She liked him a lot. A lot. It is that deep.

Would you have done what she did if it wasn't deep? No, you'd have done either:

A) this clown got another woman here? I'm out.

Or:

B) well, lemme holla at this other dude here then.

And 75% of people, male or female would do A.

She stayed because she liked him. And that's OK. He didn't feel the same. That's OK. But he knew that months ago. He wasn't debating if or waffling he's been like I'm not feeling her.

Instead of saying that and being clear he just kinda....faded

Shes like wtf

That's not cool. It makes people cynical. It happens to everyone and its done by everyone, incl me and its corny.



does it really matter?

wonder what bin's doing?
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Who flaked on me this weekend before. He was supposed to text me about coming over early in the day Sunday week bfr last but didn't so I texted him around 2 and he was like oh I'm feeling kinda sick. We could do today but I'd rather do another day, then he asked me out for Saturday night the following Wednesday. Texted me the night before so pick you up at 7 then flaked. Now I knew he was a flake. But I liked him so I agreed to risk it.

I figured I could find another date in 30 minutes on tinder when I got home from lunch with friends. Got home and found a new date for that night in like an hour (a bit longer than I would have liked) who was better (good looking, 6'7, North African engineer). So it's really whatever. Y'all don't have to be afraid to break things off even if we like you. The thing we're maddest about often IS all the guys we re missing out on and wasted time.

Oh and we don't know how much she liked him. Sometimes ppl just competitive and it's more about winning ppl over than anything. The bachelor is a perfect example of this. All these guys are perfectly capable of finding someone in their town, put them in a room with 30 other guys and they go all out in ways they never would back home. Shows over they usually dump her / 75% of the time.

That's no issue.

My thing with her, she mentioned missing an option from a party I brought her to, and then asked about two guys at a party I threw...which to me is different from random Tinder options.

And once again, I didn't wanna go too far in detail about it, but early on, she always shows signs of moving too fast and feeling as if she needed someone...and that wasn't related to her other options. Just a week into it all, she told me she had told her dad about me. That already had me like....iite.

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interested in anyway, like you did with your house party?

her at all...that's one of the main reasons y'all are seeing it the way you do.

Basically...I was interested in her, a good month, meaning...yeah, I'm gonna take her out, hang out with her, talk to her, get to know her. Now, after 4-6 weeks, I realized that my feelings hadn't at all grown for her, and that I didn't feel like she was someone I wanted to be with...and that's when I made the first post. Basically realizing that the attraction hadn't grown at all.

And I'm realizing how many details I left out, the more that I think about it. She was basically claiming me a month in, when I was still interested but not anywhere near wanting to be official...that is part of what I feel made her "desperate"

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is because you told everyone but her a few months ago it was over.

I still don't see much difference in those parties. you were interested in one, but you weren't exclusive or official in either case so she could have been mingling.

and you're not interested in her, then you should just give her the deets

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He ain't required to do shit, but at least the night wasn't a complete waste.

I get it but you can't look at her sideways when you were too scared to break shit off.

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lots of dudes 30+ doing this bulllshit

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Even my boy was giving her the deal, and she wasn't necessarily mad.

But as far as me calling her out for how she responded about it....I stand by it, because I just feel she always had a desperate vibe to her, and that it's being proven.

Think about what I mentioned....she basically said "I wish I knew you didn't wanna be with me, because a guy at a party that I only went to because you were DJing appeared to be interested in me, and I shit him down." Not only was this early on when I was still hoping we would work...but it's a party. And a party that EYE brought her to. Meaning, if she hadn't been dating me, she wouldn't have met dude in the first place.

It doesn't bother me that she's looking for love, just as many folks are. But she just moves way too fast, and it threw me out of my comfort zone.

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Communicating that and your regret do not acting on those options ?

Seems more desperate to invest time on someone you're not into.

but come on...you're dating someone, they take you somewhere you wouldn't be at if you weren't with them, you meet someone there and turn them down...yet you bring that up twice after you stop dating them. That's not directly desperate, it's just silly to me.

>Communicating that and your regret do not acting on those
>options ?
>
>Seems more desperate to invest time on someone you're not
>into.

My time "invested" was basically being open and giving it a chance, and when I realized that there was no chance for it to grow, I was done. I feel like in most cases, I'm into the girl a whole lot early, or too early, and it tends to not work out...in this case, I was open to seeing what would grow from it. After a good month and some, I enjoyed hanging around her, but saw that it wasn't gonna happen.

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she gave a fuck about your feelings and is pointing out the irony. who knows. maybe she wanted to give you some perspective that it wasn't that serious, you could have cut her loose and she would have just got with someone else.

all she was trying to do was transfer that energy back onto you by talking about other dudes.

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We sadges mane. The neediness is hella unattractive.

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he didnt lead her on (if Im not mistaken I dont think they got super physical), she was just more invested and he didnt end it soon enough

but there wasnt any love shit, she was trying to get there and he kept her at bay to prevent it

me? I've low-key been an asshole (and still beat) in the past so a girl would get the message

honestly if we havent spoken in 3 weeks and we're both single, you should assume your freedom whether that means Im busy, preoccupied or uninterested

she isnt heartbroken, just a little let down because on paper they made sense together. the chemistry wasnt there and couldnt be forced though

She was just always too far ahead of me. A month in, after hanging 1-2 times a week, she for real wanted me to meet her parents. I was still hoping to connect with her emotionally and romantically, but I felt like nah, no way I should meet them when I'm not sure of our future.

I surely admit that I shoulda ended it earlier, but I stopped doing everything that's considered "leading someone on" almost overnight after I "re-connected" with the throwback girl and realized how much different it all felt from her. I wouldn't even flirt through texts or anything...we talked extremely platonically for those three weeks. The last time we did go out, her vibe was off and she threw shots about me not trying to see her enough.

She's surely not mad or hateful against me at allllll, and if anything, she just sees it like "you need to learn how to deal with women better" vs thinking I'm malicious about it.

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you see that as 'desperate' somehow tho. not sure why lol
either way all that shit childish
hopefully not something you make a habit of.

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instead he figured she'd "get the hint" by cutting off communications
wtf

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Her solely trying to have other options isn't desperate...that in combination with how she acted early on is.

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waste time or play hard to get.

I know that's a turn off but maybe you shouldn't be so likable.

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>waste time or play hard to get.


pretty much
and it's very hurtful when the other person does/continues to do so

just experienced something like this recently and i broke it off
i know folks have feelings to protect but if i'm out here not playing games you could let your guard down enough to see where this can go
and if not, then i'm not the one you can/want to do it with.

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