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sumtimes...
sumtimes...
a feeling of despair envelopes me...wraps me from head to toe in a familiar smelling shawl and ever so slowly...warms my skin, while @ the same time chilling all that lies subterranic, buried within...my perseverance and courage -- qualities so admired in the unbreakable spirit that is me -- wear thin...my face grows long, drawn and the halloween mask i put on 2 cover it's nearly as gaunt...happiness is a swallow -- flitting around me and often, coming within inches of my outstretched hand...i wallow...in complete and utter despair, hoping for this little bird to alight on a shoulder @ least...for but a fleeting moment, bless my turbulent waters with pCe -- if i was muslim, perhaps i'd look 2 the east...scared 2 reach out 2 christ for fear of rejection...rebuked for failure and a fractured past i now walk a fractured path, my soul fractured into halves...the contrast...is stark like night and day...flee from me, oh merciless phccing despair...is my torment not enough? have you not flogged my optimism 2 death and called every last one of his bluffs? do you not feel? care? consider? love? yes love...love i said...but on contemplation, might i presume to say that jealous mistress...deceiver of nations; the most cunning of all lucifer's minions...the tormenter who promises warmth and happiness...truth, sanctuary -- convinces you to put a guard or 2 down, no longer be wary...agony is born out of naivete.
they say suffering breeds character....
if so, i should have enough to share w/ a nation or 2...and still have leftovers to go around...
--silence--
the wind is talking.
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"cuz this is no sell out it’s a cell in which I dwell but it’s not my personal hell cuz it’s minimum security and I can come and go as I please and I please my paper with ballpointed indentations as I unleash my frustrations and think—when did hip hop become a nation?" -- RatPackSlim
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"Pimping ain't art...but grabbing guns is?!" (c) Menphyel
"I've come to realise that I never loved Hip-Hop as a whole, just a particular era that happened at the same time as I was actively checking actively for new music."
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