Just when things seem to be right another twist and turn comes to make a person think twice how can it be with all the love and good from me i seem to face only more misery looking for solace in the face of time hoping to turn everything back around again searching for that eternal light and question to my prayers of where i am now in god's great plan
I'm so tired of all the drama this summer has brought making me wonder more as time goes on
losing a man who i felt fufilled all my wishes and all my prayers in the end he failed too sucumbing to be a dishonest man that i thankfully never knew
he hurt me with her and made me feel small maybe even showing me that he may have never truly loved me at all
so if the man who always loved every piece of you and every piece of your soul could just get up and leave your side what's the point to trusting or to even loving again
trying to overcome and hopefully love again has made me feel a possible strength in my life's possible plan
these new obstacles i seem to face make living this life an ongoing pain
i'm looking for that loophole the hoop for which to jump for my life's puzzle to finally stop falling to the floor in small little pieces
i'm looking for my solid ground that great oak to lean on but only find soft rock and twigs and branches
6. "Follow Up." In response to Reply # 0 Wed Aug-14-02 12:25 PM
Veil a follow through Hidden once it hits the target Sly but sincere Not all love's wares are put to market In order for expectations to be met Communication remains key To come the best will, yet Just to offer a future that we both can see.
7. "something's starting" In response to Reply # 6
something's starting to happen with the bell ringing on monday something's starting to happen with my love for him always growing something's starting to happen with my life's events always changing something's starting to happen
it is the state in which all distortions become clear all threads turn to balls of yarn the place where nothing is everything a state called PERFECTIONS
perfections are the imperfect imprints on any~one the scars that make us individuals
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ breathe. smile. live. be thankful. give back.
i'd rather not let my heart survive the rest of its life with half-filled emotions.
Only as rigid as change Flexible as thought Malleable as water Which can be contained but never caught Learned and accepted The benefits we never question This pressure is internal And flows like sin's confession.
its always a new thing and u wonder "haven't i got it yet"
i mean
what is UP!
i feel u...
this was simple, serene, melancholy and pure and true to inner soul and feelin... yes...this was u. out here...and we swallowed yr emotions whole...and now i need to recycle yr cleansing...so...
*ehem*
i would like u to post this in the Cleansing Cypher.
i have a challenge for u when u post it in.
one
MUSE
... .. .
Speak and it shall manifest Breathe and it shall live Love and it shall triumph Give and it shall never be lost... ever... - MarcArthur St. Juste
"not one voice unheard" - VOICES NYC (Brooklyn, NY)
30. "RE: a new lover in my mind-"fortunate"" In response to Reply # 29
a new lover in yr mind manifest reality spoken in each line minds digest happiness imagineable in plainview my sight y'all can't resist for life opens the door for new lovers
...and Maxwell sings "fortunate..."
*wink*
one love,
MUSE
... .. .
Speak and it shall manifest Breathe and it shall live Love and it shall triumph Give and it shall never be lost... ever... - MarcArthur St. Juste
"not one voice unheard" - VOICES NYC (Brooklyn, NY)
expectations come with the full force of any wind that would blow over a thousand cities
trying to push through and realize my true potential seems the scariest of all
what if i fall trip on the way never finish my training never finish my dream
questions of my future way heavily in my mind but have the grace of god looking over watching reviewing helping urging leading me to the greatness i am capable
32. "this is what i have for you" In response to Reply # 0
within all the facets of light lies a safe haven meant to bring you eternal force and serenity and it will be forever yours just as long you acknowledge the power of nature and light within yourself you will be for~ever nurtured and protected by the facet you chose
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ breathe. smile. live. be thankful. give back.
i'd rather not let my heart survive the rest of its life with half-filled emotions.
35. "sugar memories" In response to Reply # 34 Sat Sep-14-02 04:19 PM
but the solace that is found within the air of night does not sustain its sugar-like serenity.... and its whispers of past cries and its laughters of tomorrow those honey-dew sunshine moments that encompass you ....when the presence you embody is not near
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ breathe. smile. live. be thankful. give back.
i'd rather not let my heart survive the rest of its life with half-filled emotions.
I need to touch this -- If for no other reason Than just to "FEEL" (((vibrations))) ~Thought Waves~ bouncin' in unison With emotions To "FEEL" the exchange of words Like braille
I Need -- To touch these raised & lifted sentiments Textured~artistic~poetic~energy Supported by combined & constant synergy Painted on this canvas of ideas Transferring thoughts Projecting feelings Feelings that I NEED To touch
*Touch* -- *Feel* -- *Touch*
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
What do you want I ask this man who comes back in my life
behind a shadow of writing he's able to hide
are his emotions for real or are they just pretend giving me the notion that he wants me back again
what i do is not a factor of my actions i take talking to him doesn't lead to a date
big super star fast life, fun choices telling me to come back to a safe haven where i enjoyed being
the love was unconditional but ended with a bang that bang left me torn left me out in the rain
i thought i wouldn't get over this travesty of emotions but along came this angel who showed me the light and i thank him for his love and enduring support
but on to other issues is this one of this new change i still love you he says to me, but is this his way of taking up time or trying to get to me
i react with an indifference but reverance for an old friend let's see where this leads me
intertwined poets we've been from the start our outside love has inspired this art random poetry to some, but not to all for flys on the wall with a keen sense of intuition see the beauty and true relationship which forms through our words
sit back, watch and interpret as our love, joys and frustrations as a couple are recorded
44. "definitely can relate" In response to Reply # 0
lately things just seem a little upside down
but like you said, it's all part of a larger picture...if you can stand back far enough, your view will take it all in eventually.
_____________________________ eff a war on iraq....
"Ten years from now, will we be looking back asking how the United States could have thought that an unprovoked, preventive war on Iraq could succeed when the signs of danger were so clear and ominous? How the impossibility of accomplishing the mission through air power would lead levels of American casualties not seen since the Vietnam War? How an oil shock and deficit spending for war would plunge the United States and world economies into a major recession? How an administration so focused on getting rid of Saddam failed to create a workable policy to shape a post-Saddam Iraq?" ~Karen J. Alter
"Looking at the relationship between the state of the economy and the European tradition of bringing itself out of economic hardship by civil or international war, you have to decide what is the necessary and probable outcome of this rapid and significant "sucking-up" of wealth into the hands of the few, the proud, the European elite. ...War is highly profitable and helpful to this economy in many ways, from reducing unemployment rates by getting those without jobs to the sacrificial front lines to providing business for those supplying everything from yellow ribbons to land mines to body bags." ~Larry D. Crawford
I trust that you *KNOW* to take life one day at a time I trust that you're perfecting this diary with throbbin' rhythm & poetic rhyme I trust that trials & tribulations ain't gettin' you down I trust that written words of wisdom speaks louder than ear shattering sound I trust that hues of BLUES paint masterpieces in loving prose thesis I trust I'll feel a sense of warmth from rays your thought releases
~Thank You~ -- ;^)
(((PhotoSynthesizing)))
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
And as with all things Structure adapts As easily as order defines Into what resources we tap Fear not of a future That has yet to come When you prepare for success Only success can come.
Theme Song Of The Moment: Talib Kweli - "Waiting For The DJ"
I wait for the moment When waiting for you is no longer When waiting eats my heart When I hope that our time is longer Something permanent and lasting Than money motivates moves I still hold out for better That in the end I won't lose This heart of mine No longer is mine at all I gave it so willingly to you With the hopes that we won't fall.....
59. "Let Not The Little Things..." In response to Reply # 0
Let not the little things Stress you confound you Bring you down to a place You can't see clear through Know that you are better Than that obstacle that hurdle From leaps and bounds Your pace is the rabbit, not turtle Yet you'll finish with finesse So of this, don't stress.
Theme Song Of The Moment: Talib Kweli - "Waiting For The DJ"
I'm not sure how Yet you've known the right things to say To avoid my frustration And abate the obstacles in my way I've felt encouragement When I used to have none I get lost in you And into your hopes I run.
And in the middle of everything She stops to smile Say hello, arms oustretched We talk for a awhile Still oblivious To the world around us We remain intact Just as love originally found us.
From unrest and stress We work through it Blinded by dangers We hazard the truest Route to perfection Laid down before us Caught love's infection The angels sing chorus And so we know When life wants to overrun We're still singing We shall overcome
Always a new thing Letting off steam Wondering if you'll understand As I support your dreams Yet wanting more time Simply to be with you
As if anything could mean more
Now I know what it means to remain true Even when no one is keeping score What strength I have found in you
To witness you reciprocate Help me out and support through In times when most would run Never questioned the forever to your blue Giving all I got is all I can do.
why not tell me you have trust issues like i see you do....
i'm the one who shouldn't trust with an ex girlfriend always on your line coming to her rescue, where were you tonight when i needed you to come to mine
All that I hold dear My dear is clearly in you Invaluable, about all that I find true Enlightening, your lightning strikes through In multiples, I'm culpable Of falling into your dreams in parables In stormy skies you are the silver lining Keeping my future evolving and shining.
81. "RE: always a new thing" In response to Reply # 0
>>i seem to face >only more misery > looking for solace >in the face of time >hoping to turn >everything back around again > searching for that eternal light >and question to my prayers >of where i am now >in god's great plan
loved this.. "looking for solace in the face of time hoping to turn everything back again".. nicely said..
keep writing.
peash -Stephani
Essense riterated to shiver me, Torn between oceans and pools with glass in between, I am weary and grasping your techniques, With perspired perspectives oiling the squeeks I cannot lye down in a feathered gap, and picture air-brushed nails For baby, it only sheens to follicle of every accupunctured/ angered label and suits wishes of slow-motioned pivots and bouncing curves with not a word coming from my lips but we teeter 'tween obscure bliss blessing a bruise that's braised breaking at risk......Me "PunCtuReD BLisS" copywrite @ poetry.com/ best poets of 2002
peace to peotry
BASH WIF MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
fortified with the essential vitamins and minerals
Stephani
the colors were NEVER accurate!and people dont go thru people!
Cryptic although caught elliptic Into your orbit prescripted Lovesick with soft kisses so liquid Languid dreams live this infinite Unlimited entangled in your web intimate Hinted at everything that comes within it My love, your love I'm loving it please take I'm giving it.
We rush through moments So much so soon time flies Each second reckons our love The one thing cannot divide Separate yet whole Complete now unified Clutching you tightly Eternity is our quickie justified.
You have both drive and verve Striving to work with what you have And build is the steel of your nerve From this path never stray or swerve Take this dedication And stay ahead of the curve Remember you can ace it Don't just volley their serve.
Over oceans and waves, we moved in unison Assuming seems so foolish when I thought this was the truest thing My heart could be consumed in All mistakes and imperfections Glossed over, polished and repaired Within you I found new direction Within you, no love ever compared I felt so sure we would last Through anything that's in the past Sailing this future open eyed, holding fast And trust would the wind to our heart's mast.
That virtue that waits Runs and hides like a phantom From the light the dark abates Having all the keys but can't open the gates The frustration of impatience I do relate But to wait- Isn't always the easiest choice Wondering and pacing the doubts that give voice To all the hopes that ambition has hoist Upon your shoulders the weight of wait is forced Of course- The course is apparent, steady and baring One's soul to get your bearing Just hold on tight to what you've been preparing The wait is time's way of teaching you caring.
This little world We have built our hopes in Teaches me time and again That trust is my purest friend My sweetest heart and confidant You have made me brave to say This love fills my future With the purest way.
I leaned over Closer to your neck Smelling all things sweet Intoxicating effect Swayed my thinking back to hopeful You caressed my back This feeling's so true We can never fall off track Between grooves Souls intertwined we hold Tightly as passion moves Alchemically turning all things to gold.
113. "The Geometry Of Missing You" In response to Reply # 0
So busy so entangled In every day with all that's hectic I'm reworking the angles To get us connected On the same plane Where our visions align And we can eschew tha game That skews us away from our time It's an acute pain Too far away for comfort or ease The proof has been claimed Missing you miss, will you come back please?
And dawn's break I awake and you're there Peaceful and tranquil My heart that dreams now prepares To materialize what feels like song For each new day brings a new strength Something to build on So no distance is too great a length To call this love To call this light So easy to be with you Waking up to all that's beautiful After a cool winter night.
121. "Still Luv'n the BLUES" In response to Reply # 120 Mon Jan-06-03 08:10 PM
2003 -- And the love is still flowing ~~Rowing~~ Like canoes propelled by old~fashion passion Clashing with daily trials & tribulations But together -- Feelings dip deeply in healing culminations -- Taste sweet word candy left on fluffy pillows Smokey blue whispers wafting thru weepin' willows Choking back emotion from stanza'd sentiments Entangled heartbeats -- Still warm / still tense But the BLUES are "Forever" blowing Callin' bengal tigers & snow white lions home So keep flowing waterfalls -- Cuz you will never be alone!
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
123. "RE: Still Luv'n the BLUES" In response to Reply # 122
How can that man mean so much?
I dunnno -- But I touched you -- when you touched him -- And the electric current was painfully nice! --smiles--
Keep it ^UP^
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
Are you OK? In your poems absence, of you I fantasize Words that once wrapped me tightly I now memorize You can say this could be temporary But to the contrary, I think otherwise One day we may marry Should miracles allow blind love to open her eyes.
on to new challenges you face with attitude anxious yet prepared with balances check out the future bet all odds on you add up plus options once you get going there is no stopping....
134. "flowers to bloom..." In response to Reply # 0
my hopes for you engulf my thoughts no games just waiting to see you brought to full fruition this mission will succeed in you I have faith beyond a creed this ritual of life we dance in unison at peace with each other, love's not confusing when I hold you tightly in my arms that need You ever so close, love nurtured like a seed....
136. "watching you sleep..." In response to Reply # 0
in the late hours by moonlight through windows the caress of your soft skin while you rest your head on pillows begins to enrapture me mind body and soul for I know this is the only place where I want to be where only my heart can go.
the depth of your emotion devotion and sensibility I get drunk off your tenderness enraptured by your tenacity time stands still with you heaven is this with certainty dreaming with you filling my eternity
sunshine does not compare to your radiant smiling eyes your movement more graceful than its rays traverse the skies heavenly in speech caressing like a warm summer breeze in this life with you I hope you get all that you please
that is most needed that shoulder to lean on to cry to reach out to for uplift to dream long reality is one thing perception another to love and truly love is to live and support each other
stress free - that's all I want for you because that blissful experience of knowing where everything is taken care of and faith is restored by showing nothing breaks down the strenghth of love like watching two people work together, growing....
you make my heart move quake and shake the earth beneath every touch every move every look yields no relief I want more I want you to be true truly there is no other that compares as I stare longingly into future's view...
May I? Dip the tip of my toe In your flow? "Blue" water tidbits refresh the mind So I dine on escargo Treasures from your sea of infinity Draws me to the (((aura))) of elation As you swim through waves of weekly trials But reject all tribulations My admiration for you two grows Because of dilligence & dedication The heart feels -- The soul seals -- What the mind already knows
*sigh*
(((Fascination)))
*muah*
:::Love U Guys::: ... ;^)
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
162. "Lyrics From Hey Hey Love...." In response to Reply # 0 Tue Mar-18-03 01:09 PM
hey hey love lend me an ear Let me tell you all the things That I want you to hear It's clear, that love will grow and change you Heaven claims you, you know you are my angel....
Exactly how I feel for you Remains elusive yet intrusive Exclusive though we've become It never seems enough to sum I add up the time days we spend And the time never catches up again I want more and more of it For your love, there is none above it.
this cabin fever stays when the postal service gets slower and slower waiting to hear my destiny and how my life is going to go over hopefully i will be accepted and wanted into the schools that i've applied to and put my heart and soul into
what will i do if this master plan isn't so will i sit in the corner and cry for the opportunities i'm going to miss out on
god's plan will hopefully be revealed in good time but i pray that i find out before i go crazy with time slowly, slowly passing me by
169. "RE: are u blue from detroit?" In response to Reply # 168
went to college in michigan graduated and moved back to carolina swimming in this sea of uncertainty in my quest for acceptance and the return of law school applications
170. "waiting for the mail" In response to Reply # 169
the uncertainty of a few letters telling me if i'm wanted or not me racing to the mailbox, only to be disappointed and still try to hold this hope in my heart
oh i wish everything would work out that i could piece this puzzle of life back into place let me find out my future, and get on with this life i'm living
thank your for the push and pride the love and nurture the forward thinking when I want to hide you build be up, encourage me sure now I know what it means to be more...
If any penny of hope could be answered I would want the one cent to manifest itself as love... Love in the form of a physical being..something I can feel because lately... I aint feeling you dog I'm numb to your effects...oblivious of your presence SHOW YOURSELF...fucking coward Yes COWARD...for at times you have appeard as wool... To cover the gentle gaze that I inherited As a jacket of restraint to hold me down in times of emotinal breech A quilt to muffle the sounds and surrrounds of the oncoming When it was the oncoming that pierced my hide with knives The oncoming that whispered nothings in my ear That became sugar coated with your thick dew Colored with your hue...making that ol' bullshit... New again...
I often analyze the words that were coupled with your spice Realizing they not that nice without your added touch And some phrases even with your appeal become that more... FUCK UP And for what? Have you heard how you make songs sound today? Have you listened to how scratched and shaffed you fall.. Off the lips of loved ones...speaking of "you".... "To" a loved one?....or someone that they love? Some have waited years.....decades...timeless accounts "Just" to meet.....you And you appear....and without even a warm hello you announce you can't stay?
FUCK YOU!!! Selfish can't even describe your ways Because even selfish has a line of decency Would it be so selfish ....for you.....to believe in me? Like I believed in you? Or is that task unimaginable?
How I kept my ear to the wind and listened for your footsteps Translating unabridged diaries of quotes with my decoder Wishing for the day to meet you when I got older Only to find out.....you changed the language
So how can I have answers If I don't know what questions to ask? How can I decipher what was heart and ass? When does being "in" love stop being a task?
Fuck ...this.... I hope for your sake you don't appear Cause any step near my presence is for sure a dangerous spot for you See....I still carry what I protect And what I protect is a heart And to see you near it troubles me
We will swing until nightfall...until one of us falls Knowing I can't win...knowing that no matter how many times I get a jab in No matter how many times I inflict pain equivilant to pain felt in the past Pain felt from others Pain you ignore, don't acknowledge, and never mend no matter what size the womb...I will "not" win Because love....conquers.....all
Lunchbox tha Narcoleptic Ginseng Warlock Xcaliber Divine Versatile Fathom 9 Die Hard Izno The Chrematic Ralph FLeezy DotCom Intelligence Obsidian Blue
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Lunch and Yank - Spitters Union Lunch and Chuck - Lunchbox For President Lunch and Obsidian - Vivid Strokes Of Reality Lunch and tREB - FreeLunch Lunch and Dutch - Mr.Shhhhh You Only Live Twice Lunch and Kneegrow - Know Games
Like watching the sunset and yet Knowing tomorrow may come for some Each day measured by blood, tears, and sweat, don't fret Under the sun, we become until our work seems done
It's the cycle in which we're free to see How we make our own reality and dreams that mean Something beyond being just you or me, to truly be: Knowing hope is the way to cope with the scheme of things...
moments in time intertwine like music memories rekindled by this recent conducive growth together like melodies of choosing crossing bridges into a harmony once thought elusive a rapture scored at the core by the heartbeats in unison our communion marks heated passion enlivened spirits composed between softer sheets each note symbolizing the steps we take to lasting....
Poetry to my ears -- Music to my eyes Finger paintings touch the tips of two lips Kissing words with smiles & *sighs* I realize You two are "BLUE" from separation Hearing melancholy melodies Mixxed with heartfelt fascination Love & (((Patience))) The glue that holds this thread 2~gether I watch in wonder -- As two "BLUE" doves fly above storms in inclement weather
Fly my friends! -- ~FLY~
I'm still watching U! --smiles--
(((Love & Huggs)))
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
195. "^Up^ In The Wild BLUE Yonder --" In response to Reply # 0
Where the sun shines every day! -- ;^)
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
200. "^Up^ In The Wild BLUE Yonder --" In response to Reply # 0
(((Fly)))
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
swept up in sweet currents passionate like gail force winds driving me wildly closer to your art when love holds this assurance everyday we can learn to begin anew we renew the quiet storm mostly for our hearts
208. "...when you're away" In response to Reply # 0
I watch life happen Participate without passion Go hungry Even though I have enough ration Enough reason To weather the season For times when thin gets thick I pray up above when I'm this lovesick.
214. "^Up^ On The Roof --" In response to Reply # 0
Staring @ the BLUE skies -- Rubbing sad & sleepy eyes -- Watching moths & fireflies --
(((Rise)))
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
221. "always a new thing -- a new day -- a new beginning --" In response to Reply # 0
Always & 4~Ever
~Love~
A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence -- I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥
228. "RE: travelling...." In response to Reply # 227
Travelling on travelling to this new place a few hundred miles from you
these last few weeks hopefully spent in bliss will be etched in my mind when i dream of the smell of your skin
with over a year under our belts we ponder our future together but lets ponder the present and figure out the future later
believe in that thing called destiny the thing that helps you choose your path though not chosen for you gives you the chance to do what's right
now doing right is a cause of disagreement between you and me
what's right for you? what's right for me? is helping myself fufill my dreams also having to sacrifice the "right for you"?
i need to be thinking of the "right for me" achieving achievements making goals and seeing them through getting through the books to make it for another year
goodbye to my bluetiger and the love poems you wrote to me inspiring me when i couldn't find the way helping me to look at you in a special way because of the way you've always cared for me
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