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i will speak on love...
~the offering
i do not believe in god, but for you, i give my soul to any offering your protection, i will offer my lungs, and my loins, to solidify the hue of your eyes in the movement of time, for generations, not born yet, need guidance just as i,
i will not eat ignorance, for such fruit, is the fruit of folly, queen, in arms, i will roam beneath the soil and collect oak roots so that i may plant you a garden worthy of your strength, forgive me for sounding so arrogant, i am a man you see, and thus i am guilty of insensitivity, take my heart, as the softest part of my being and wash my hands for they have been darkned with blood, i live in night, eyes shut, wide open, mouth, screaming, violently fearing, hold me in my release, and help me be free of this! madness which tears at my spine! riveting, like pine, i tremble, as trees that lay dead on the surface of the earth, rustling, ever so softly, like broken breath, i would destroy them all, to keep you safe,
i want to tell you that i am still alive, somewhere in my beaten body, i feel traces of electric currents surging through still functional nerves, i want to reach out and touch you with my arms, i want to feel the sensation of your hair covering my back as i, fetus of the forgotten, find fire in the liar that i have become to be honest with you and lay by your back, in love with you,
so much too long to understand the consequence of my childhood, i abused myself, my mind, and grew wicked foliage in the furthest reaches of the sun, where even ultraviolet rays do not seem to fuel my cold, i accept cancer as the poison to my rage, a fair trade, considering the root of my being has been cut,
hold me, and remember....
when you in my arms held first, the loving man, i was, free of sin, worry, or death, i have spent days in hell and i have loved the devil, but, no longer, heaven, where you always remain, whence i slowly make my way, is far away, but hope is possible with a single thought, i can smell the surface dew, the basement, is no longer suited for my shaken heart,
i need you, i need your love.
--- the pursuit of fame and fortune leads to shame and misfortune -tao
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