*for knowing when to say "i am wrong," and past would have been lovers if i would have just... given them time.*

because he wanted me to write a poem for him

i never gave "us" a chance.
i knew the future wouldn't
involve you, and i did
not want to do anything
rash. what would
have been the
sense of holding your
hand and dragging you along
for a ride made of
bumps and potholes?
i had so much
baggage, and at times, it
is still hard for me to unpack, but
you wanted me to try,
and try, i could not.
i still had HIM on my mind,
and love, and life, and wanting
to change for someone other than
myself; loving you
was not in the plans.

but like the aries in me,
you were determined. headstrong,
you stood close to your beliefs that
we could work and distance would
be a simple obstacle for each of
us to get through. and i
imagined nites with you
sitting up writing poems that
had my name in them, but
no major details were given.
you should have listened
to me sooner. wasted
time that could have been bottled
in a mason jar and placed on ur night-stand
for safekeeping. it's too late
now; we are friends with
a past that never had a beginning.
we are old lovers
who never fucked. we are
lost souls yearning for
love from individuals who
look like "us."

i still search
for the "hey tre" in their
voices, praying that one day,
he'll sound the same. and maybe,
just maybe, i'll give him
the chance i did not give
you. i wrote this poem
on this day, at this
time, cuz you asked me to.
my gift to you for being
loyal, believing we
could have been what
we were not.
i apologize.

©Tremaine L. Loadholt


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the last two parts best, they seemed to be more literary than simply personal.

You know sometimes things happen as they are supposed to happen and sometimes things happen because we don't quiet our fears and see the possibilities. Very poignant piece and dare I venture to say, perhaps painful to write. This right here though:

you should have listened
to me sooner. wasted
time that could have been bottled
in a mason jar and placed on ur night-stand
for safekeeping. it's too late
now; we are friends with
a past that never had a beginning.
we are old lovers
who never fucked. we are
lost souls yearning for
love from individuals who
look like "us."

i still search
for the "hey tre" in their
voices, praying that one day,
he'll sound the same. and maybe,
just maybe, i'll give him
the chance i did not give
you. i wrote this poem
on this day, at this
time, cuz you asked me to.
my gift to you for being
loyal, believing we
could have been what
we were not.
i apologize.

I think to a certain point, we've all felt like this or been in this situation or know someone who has. For me, I extinguish the possibilities if they don't fit into what I want at the time, which could possibly be a huge mistake, but it's in the past that I don't dwell on too much. Decisions get made, people get hurt, and then we're filled with regret. But, the apology is sincere if it comes from a loving place.

~*~
Beauty is in my ear
I sketch beautiful
rhythms with a pen
canvassing
my thoughts
artfully articulated
into harmonies of
words
~*~ KSB ~*~

"My feelings or emotions or anything at all will reverberate throughout the halls of a poem."
~KSB~

we are friends with
a past that never had a beginning.
we are old lovers
who never fucked. we are
lost souls yearning for
love from individuals who
look like "us."

u know who i wldve written this for.

i just want chu to know
how i feel
how i feel

thanks you guys for the honest opinions... we love those.. *nods*

it wasn't painful at all to write Intrepid, just something I kinda owed someone. an apology, a poem, an in depth look into why we couldn't be what he wanted (and deep down, what I wanted too, but.. couldn't handle)... *nods*


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Glad that it wasn't painful.
~*~
Beauty is in my ear
I sketch beautiful
rhythms with a pen
canvassing
my thoughts
artfully articulated
into harmonies of
words
~*~ KSB ~*~

"My feelings or emotions or anything at all will reverberate throughout the halls of a poem."
~KSB~

it's too late
now; we are friends with
a past that never had a beginning...

poetry chicks...i tell'ya.

good stuff,cause it hurt,ha
blk

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once i figure out how to keep a sig and not have all chopped up whenever i respond to a post.

>it's too late
>now; we are friends with
>a past that never had a beginning...

these lines got to me...

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required to remove breath from my lungs

never gave "us" a chance.
i knew the future wouldn't
involve you, and i did
not want to do anything
rash. what would
have been the
sense of holding your
hand and dragging you along
for a ride made of
bumps and potholes?
i had so much
baggage, and at times, it
is still hard for me to unpack, but
you wanted me to try,
and try, i could not.
i still had HIM on my mind,
and love, and life, and wanting
to change for someone other than
myself; loving you
was not in the plans.

but like the aries in me,
you were determined. headstrong,
you stood close to your beliefs that
we could work and distance would
be a simple obstacle for each of
us to get through. and i
imagined nites with you
sitting up writing poems that
had my name in them, but
no major details were given.
you should have listened
to me sooner.

*********

Not everything is as difficult as you want to make it.

I have changed my AIM if you want to say Hi click on my orange man

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the wisdom that comes from lookin at something from afar.

yr second stanza..primarily the middle to the end of it...was the powerhouse to me. the beginning and end seemed like mere bookends. but then again, maybe thats fitting....

*******************
a woman like me
needs to own her own galleries
write her own anthologies
needs blueberry bagels for breakfast
coconut rice for lunch
pork chops & glasses of wine for dinner
nothing but a string of pearls
and some moisturizer
to bed

>i never gave "us" a chance.
>i knew the future wouldn't
>involve you, and i did
>not want to do anything
>rash. what would
>have been the
>sense of holding your
>hand and dragging you along
>for a ride made of
>bumps and potholes?
>i had so much
>baggage, and at times, it
>is still hard for me to unpack, but
>you wanted me to try,
>and try, i could not.

&

>you should have listened
>to me sooner. wasted
>time that could have been bottled
>in a mason jar and placed on ur night-stand
>for safekeeping. it's too late
>now; we are friends with
>a past that never had a beginning.
>we are old lovers
>who never fucked. we are
>lost souls yearning for
>love from individuals who
>look like "us."

this was such a mature & honest pieces. i wonder if you viewed the "relationship" like that at the time or was this hindsight?

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real & honest---- this far exceeded any expectations...
you know i love the start of the 2nd stanza.... you pay close
attention to detail(s).

your writing/words are never a disappointment:)




peace.
~~~~~~~~~

my hard head makes me learn shit the hard way - t.i.

thump a nigga on his knuckles make him say ouch - lil fate

i fantasize about fucking women that i don't like and cumming
real fast and on their favorite blouse and putting on

If this flow were a fruit -- It would be a "pink grapefruit" -- Tart & bittersweet -- Burning the throat as it goes down -- with acidity & vitamin C --

It's refreshing -- But it burns a lil -- stings a lil' -- (especially if you get it in your eye) --

Some of this flow squirted in my eye -- -- I think I'm gonna cry! -- *sniff*


But forreal tho -- Your flows are always sincere and honestly heartfelt -- Particularly those close to "YOUR" heart! -- *sad smiles*

You make "us" feel your heartbeats -- And the synchronization is rhythmic~ly nice! -- *No Doubt*

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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what
we were not.

//

what
we are not??

i just want chu to know
how i feel
how i feel

and this was on target:

loving you
was not in the plans.

...i aint been around for a minute, but im glad this is the first thing i read.

-Otto

I just had grapefruit, toast and chi tea for breakfast!


(((Thought Of You))) --



^UP^

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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I'm glad you did! --


^UpPeRz^

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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....because she could not say "i apologize"

this shit was nice, i felt it all the way thru every line,
great piece.

-peace



....and so it goes, im at it again. Fix ur fucking face, Im in the building!

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"I had to get off the boat, so I can walk on water". - Jay-Z

other times, if i'm not too sure i'm wrong, if i'm steadfast in my opinion, i will not apologize... i don't care who it is and how important he or she is to me... that, i gotta work on. thanks, i'm glad someone could relate again

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you're the ying to my yang, tre.
your words do ballet.

to own up to their faults and say "they're sorry."

I applaud the courage that oozed out from this piece.

"Do to others what you would others have done unto you." - The Lord Jesus Christ

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say this has got to be the quintessential dear hakim letter...and it has to be one of the harshest realities when lived long enough most of us will encounter...Fantasia sang Truth Is after something like this but i must highlight these lines

"now; we are friends with
a past that never had a beginning."

"we are old lovers
who never fucked. "

some lines should stand alone these are two of them...i mean i jumped uotta my seat when i read the last one especially very power writing here sis...bump that after reading this if i were him i would ask for a sympathy fuck at least lmao just on gp of makin abomb ass piece of writing this could go platinum can't a brother get some "just cause" lol


ASIEM
"Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran
(Be and it is)
" A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder
checkout these sites
http://4luvofpoetry.com
www.poetology.com

Like Soulbrotha said, it takes a mature person to see a situation for what it really is, and apologize for their actions. I like this alot. Integrity on your part. Thumbs North. ~one~

"I'm scientific, but my reflex gangsta"- Black Thought

Hi Tre! Love ya lots

i love you too.

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you've been resurrected, tre.

I've been there too

____________________________________


no regrets
life is hectic

2nd request --

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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