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delrica
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"Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"


  

          

Happy New Year!

Sorry so late! Natalie...spotlight's on you ma! Congrats!

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Cop my stuff, mayne!

My first chapbook: "This Chapbook Was Made With Pilfered Office Products" available now - $6.00

My 2nd chapbook, coming in 2007: "Orgasms and Ice Cream"

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RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!
Jan 04th 2004
1
Congrats Missy --
Jan 04th 2004
2
*sits at her computer*
Jan 04th 2004
3
congrats nat
Jan 05th 2004
14
Just for you...
Jan 04th 2004
4
RE: Just for you...
Jan 05th 2004
13
RE: Just for you...
Jan 05th 2004
16
congrats nat...
Jan 06th 2004
33
RE: Just for you...
Jan 07th 2004
37
RE: Just for you...
Jan 23rd 2004
86
RE: Just for you...
Jan 23rd 2004
91
RE: Just for you...
Jan 23rd 2004
94
thank you.
Jan 24th 2004
101
RE: Just for you...
Jan 27th 2004
111
WHO BETTER TO PASS OFF THE BATON TO...
Jan 04th 2004
5
*hugs*
Jan 05th 2004
17
      RE: *hugs*
Jan 06th 2004
29
congrats...
Jan 04th 2004
6
RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!
Jan 04th 2004
7
congrats natalie!!!!!!!
Jan 04th 2004
8
Congratz Natalie!!!!!!!!
Jan 05th 2004
9
RE: Congratz Natalie!!!!!!!!
Jan 05th 2004
18
RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!
Jan 05th 2004
10
congrats lady nm
Jan 05th 2004
11
congrats Natalie..
Jan 05th 2004
12
RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!
Jan 05th 2004
15
(or apple pie)
Jan 05th 2004
19
I Hate Apple Pie...
Jan 05th 2004
21
*chuckles*
Jan 05th 2004
22
      RE: *chuckles*
Jan 07th 2004
38
      RE: *chuckles*
Jan 07th 2004
39
      That was gross girl....
Jan 23rd 2004
87
RE: (or apple pie)
Jan 06th 2004
30
RE: (or apple pie)
Jan 22nd 2004
71
ive never made love,
Jan 27th 2004
106
      RE: ive never made love,
Jan 27th 2004
112
RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!
Jan 05th 2004
20
Jan 05th 2004
23
Jan 05th 2004
27
spaz, spaz, spaz!!!!!
Jan 23rd 2004
97
Jan 12th 2004
59
very cool
Jan 27th 2004
107
Jan 05th 2004
24
Jan 06th 2004
32
lol...
Jan 27th 2004
108
Jan 05th 2004
25
Jan 06th 2004
31
(lik sighs)
Jan 05th 2004
26
RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!
Jan 05th 2004
28
Congratulations girl!
Jan 09th 2004
54
      *hugs*
Jan 09th 2004
56
playground
Jan 06th 2004
34
RE: playground
Jan 08th 2004
49
RE: playground
Jan 12th 2004
58
RE: playground
Jan 13th 2004
60
inbox
Jan 19th 2004
68
RE: playground
Jan 22nd 2004
72
RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!
Jan 06th 2004
35
*APPLAUSE!*
Jan 07th 2004
36
guarding the acceptance of a sin
Jan 07th 2004
40
!
Jan 22nd 2004
70
RE: guarding the acceptance of a sin
Jan 22nd 2004
73
Nat??!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!
Jan 26th 2004
104
RE: guarding the acceptance of a sin
Jan 27th 2004
113
Fertile Ground
Jan 07th 2004
41
RE: Fertile Ground
Jan 22nd 2004
74
RE: Fertile Ground
Jan 23rd 2004
89
We
Jan 07th 2004
42
RE: We
Jan 22nd 2004
75
securing the peace
Jan 07th 2004
43
RE: securing the peace
Jan 22nd 2004
76
RE: securing the peace
Jan 23rd 2004
90
last goodbyes
Jan 07th 2004
44
RE: last goodbyes
Jan 22nd 2004
77
RE: last goodbyes
Jan 27th 2004
109
Expansive Velvet
Jan 07th 2004
45
RE: Expansive Velvet
Jan 22nd 2004
78
Love
Jan 07th 2004
46
RE: Love
Jan 07th 2004
47
RE: Love
Jan 08th 2004
50
mmmmm
Jan 08th 2004
48
RE: mmmmm
Jan 08th 2004
51
RE: Love
Jan 08th 2004
52
RE: Love
Jan 09th 2004
53
RE: Love
Jan 22nd 2004
79
RE: Love
Jan 23rd 2004
92
allergic reaction
Jan 09th 2004
55
RE: allergic reaction
Jan 12th 2004
57
RE: allergic reaction
Jan 13th 2004
61
RE: allergic reaction
Jan 15th 2004
64
RE: allergic reaction
Jan 22nd 2004
80
      inbox.
Jan 23rd 2004
88
frozen
Jan 14th 2004
62
i like the imagery
Jan 15th 2004
63
RE: i like the imagery
Jan 15th 2004
65
RE: frozen
Jan 16th 2004
66
RE: frozen
Jan 22nd 2004
81
damn, dec!
Jan 22nd 2004
82
RE: frozen
Jan 23rd 2004
85
RE: frozen
Jan 25th 2004
103
Hey NAT!!!
Jan 19th 2004
67
i didnt forget...
Jan 21st 2004
69
imagine me (just listen)
Jan 22nd 2004
83
RE: imagine me
Jan 23rd 2004
93
RE: imagine me
Jan 23rd 2004
98
OMG!!!!
Jan 23rd 2004
99
lol!
Jan 24th 2004
102
little...
Jan 27th 2004
105
Awwwwwww Hell No --
Jan 27th 2004
114
RE: imagine me (just listen)
Jan 27th 2004
115
:::WoW:::
Jan 27th 2004
117
y'all....
Jan 28th 2004
118
Sisters
Jan 22nd 2004
84
RE: Sisters
Jan 23rd 2004
95
yeah...
Jan 23rd 2004
96
RE: yeah...
Jan 24th 2004
100
RE: yeah...
Jan 27th 2004
110
Nat The Sun-Child
Jan 27th 2004
116
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CHECKING!
Jan 30th 2004
119
THANK YOU -- FOR SHARING --
Jan 30th 2004
120
RE: THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CHECKING!
Jan 31st 2004
121

MiracleRic
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1. "RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"
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yayyyy!!!!

u deserve it, i still want my collab tho, lol

do ya thing boo

Let me sport my Air Hyperbole 2010s in peace. (c) ansomble

Building repetoires (c) spm since 1983

  

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PhotoSynthesis
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2. "Congrats Missy --"
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I don't claim psychic abilities -- BUT I TOLD YA -- Didn't I? -- *wink*

Now work your magic -- AND (((SHINE))) majestically, Queen! -- ;^)


A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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Natalie
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3. "*sits at her computer*"
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in the paraphrased words of steve martin when accepting a people's choice award: "i can't accept this award because...i deserve soooooooo MUCH MORE." *laughs impishly*

alright, for real now. i'd like to say i'm just glad that i'm having a great time doing what i enjoy doing: getting poetic.

thanks to all those who voted, thanks to all those who read silently, thanks to all those who are part of this OKP-free fam and beyond, thanks to my "i admit it, i'm an artist" muse (i'm here), thanks to lays for listening to each piece, and thanks for letting me get this AFTER my birthday this is a great gift.

now, let me go do my thang!

peace,

natalie

ps this is really happening, right?????? lol! yeah, yeah, i know it's the 'net, but heck...i'm excited...and when i get famous....*starts crafting life in her 3rd eye*!

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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14. "congrats nat"
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u deserve it

~*~*~*~*~*~*~newolf~*~*~*~*~*~*~

the light: so, you're having a pre-pre-midlfe crisis?
wolfie: yes.
the light: well, that's wonderful!


icantspell

  

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Natalie
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4. "Just for you..."
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If ever I was asked what poetry, poets, word-smiths, and OKP means to me, this poem says it all. For those who have seen this before, please enjoy it again.

Respect,

Natalie

............................................................


"Just for you..."

Today’s the day that I looked at this world and saw something different.

The ethereal reflection made tangible
of something that I’ve been hoping to find:

Beings who spout words into images that shine,
images that weigh heavy on my mind
and like Atlas, I’m ready to bear the earth that they’re founded on
letting Psyche’s mental hands sink into rich verbal soil
and let them feed this need that

I had thought had passed me by
I had thought could not live again

as when I had first happened to stumble onto and into this world,
a world unlike any other where call and response
were the order of EACH and EVERY day.

And this day today is the wonder of them all, to have found gems
reflecting the light of mortal beings dipping into the cosmos of soul,
ready to change and shift and refract another light,
another portion of self that has Beauty for its name.

Who are you and from where do you come
To be humbly glorious in the radiance of life?

I could name you as I know you, but that is not the point –
the intention is not to mention minor localities
when it is Here that I have found you –
Here that I have known you –
Here that I have shared with you –
Here that is the axis, the centre, the beginning without end –
for journey to Here goes, and IS, everywhere –

Stopping at nothing because the journey is the destination!

And today is the day that I have picked up the thread,
guiding me on my way to a home that I have known –

Only in my mind.

And today I greet you,
for you are great.

You have inspired me to write freely,
to acknowledge a gift that has always been there,
idly waiting for it’s worth to be appreciated…
although no value could be put to it.

For what is sharing if not love?

And love cannot be quantifiably valued, and this thing you do,
this thing that you give me a chance to do, too,
this is love and this is life and this is passion to exist!

A passion to paint the existence of every moment,
in a nuance and shade more brilliant than the last,
and the courage to release the essence of your spirit,
the part that is the sensitive child fearing mocking rebuff,
sheltering in the shadow of the braver self –
that knows the right turn of phrase to dispense,
that can jest and glimmer and cavort on a dime,
at moments gentler but never really deeply internal –
until a redefining moment happens along…

Where the look in the mirror reaches deeper than the surface,
catching the light of visions hidden deep within,
silently determined to be shared,
and to be immortalized, because even this aspect
is a part of self
and I thank you for sharing it with me.

I thank you for the light that you lend to these precious days
that you give when you respond to life’s moments
with words that simply, astoundingly, fully, and starkly convey:

“Here is the plan, the foundation, the structure that I am.
Here is my life, my heart, my joy, and my pain.
I give it to you, because at some point,
You do ultimately understand.”

© Natalie (12 September 2003)

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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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13. "RE: Just for you..."
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...congratulations my friend, you deserve it...

http://www.GaryPatrickGarry.com

"I'm stalling in flight
Hovering over horizons
Waiting for night"

"My turn to speak in tongues"
--Photosynthesis

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16. "RE: Just for you..."
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much love

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exist in limbo.

"we are accidents waiting to happen" -radiohead

"Poetry is a kind of distilled insinuation. It’s a way of expanding and talking around an idea or a question. Sometimes, more actually gets said through such a technique than a full frontal assault." -Yusef Komunyakaa

"The Black Artist's role in America is to aid in the destruction of America as he knows it. His role is to report and reflect so precisely the nature of the society, and of himself in that society, that other men will be moved by the exactness of his rendering and, if they are black men, grow strong through this moving, having seen their own strength, and weakness; and if they are white men, tremble, curse, and go mad, because they will be drenched with the filth of their evil."

-Amiri Baraka, from "State/meant" in the essay, "Home"

"My love is my soul's imagination. How do I love thee?...Imagine." -Saul Williams

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myself is sculptor of
your body’s idiom:
the musician of your wrists;
the poet who is afraid
only to mistranslate
a rhythm in your hair...
-E.E. Cummings

  

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33. "congrats nat..."
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u know, that really does have a cool ring to it...(congrats nat)

ill be back to read ur works a lil later my friend...

-Otto

  

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37. "RE: Just for you..."
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Wow... i like this one alot. Very well-done.

"To be a poet is a condition, not a profession."
- Robert Frost

http://inevitabletruth.blogspot.com/
http://www.lulu.com/content/187759
http://www.hdfest.com/Barry/allreviewsbarry.html
http://wishbonec.wordpress.com/

  

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86. "RE: Just for you..."
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Nat... this got me all shook up girl. For real... glasses all wet. LOL This was awesome. It outlined how I've been feeling this week.

Beings who spout words into images that shine,
images that weigh heavy on my mind
and like Atlas, I’m ready to bear the earth that they’re founded on
letting Psyche’s mental hands sink into rich verbal soil
and let them feed this need that

I had thought had passed me by
I had thought could not live again

I thought the very core of me was dead or dying but inspiration and acceptance showed me I was not, merely resting.

A passion to paint the existence of every moment,
in a nuance and shade more brilliant than the last,
and the courage to release the essence of your spirit,
the part that is the sensitive child fearing mocking rebuff,
sheltering in the shadow of the braver self –
that knows the right turn of phrase to dispense,
that can jest and glimmer and cavort on a dime,
at moments gentler but never really deeply internal –
until a redefining moment happens along…

Where the look in the mirror reaches deeper than the surface,
catching the light of visions hidden deep within,
silently determined to be shared,
and to be immortalized


I am kind of speechless... this is the song of my soul right now. I want to see, touch, feel, hear, all that I have missed. This line especially stood out...

the part that is the sensitive child fearing mocking rebuff

I have suffered for so long as a child in a woman's body... so scared of rejection or that whatever I percieved as being so wrong with me as a child who missed my parents love and and attention would be visable to others. I am 24 years old, nat, and I still cry for the acceptance of my mom and dad. I have carried my misconceptions about myself all these years and let them affect my relationship with myself and others. I feel so free girl. I really do.


“Here is the plan, the foundation, the structure that I am.
Here is my life, my heart, my joy, and my pain.
I give it to you, because at some point,
You do ultimately understand.”

It's beautiful to look at myself and think, "I'm alright." Because others love me and now I can love myself.

This was phenomenal. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing it.






“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

"Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them."
-Charles Simic

"Unless, this
very world is a trash bin, and I am just waiting for
someone to find me so I
can be recycled." InspiredFree




Lesley

  

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Natalie
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91. "RE: Just for you..."
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imma,

i'm really glad you enjoyed this one and that it allowed you to
see things that you hadn't seen in yourself. *hugs* you are
most definitely one of the sweetest individuals i've come across
on here hey, it doesn't matter how old we get, most of still
want approval and love from our parents and will do the most
absurd things just to get it. we just need to remember to keep
being ourself and allow the rest to flow naturally. and i'm glad
you guys on here allow me to do that with m'words

peace,

natalie

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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94. "RE: Just for you..."
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there is almost no praise for this cause it is as endless as the truth it conveys and speaks volumes for who what and where we are as we are in this time and space in the lives of us humans...then there are others that still find meaning here...

ASIEM
"Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran
(Be and it is)
" A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder
checkout these sites
http://4luvofpoetry.com
www.poetology.com

"keep pennin till the earth birth's your rightful seed then nurture it wit more ink..."
ASIEM
"Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran
(Be and it is)
" A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder




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101. "thank you."
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asiem, those words mean a lot.

peace,

n.

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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111. "RE: Just for you..."
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this poem is so inspiring. It speaks to everyone on here, whether or not they hear it. Poetry is a connection that we, from so many different places, races, backgrounds, generations, and so on, can share. It brings us together and allows us to communicate on a passion that is so universal. I could go on and on about this place and what this poem reveals about it, but I better not! . Thankyou, Natalie.


___________________________
-Phyllis-


"For with much wisdom comes much sorrow;
the more knowledge, the more grief."
- Ecclesiastes 1:18



  

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5. "WHO BETTER TO PASS OFF THE BATON TO..."
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than you girl.. i'm watching.. i'm digging in for the new year.. hahahahaa.. CONGRATS!!!!

~~~~~~~~ luv R.
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psycho.
"Institutions encourage us to consider the opinions they sell as "facts" and that we "believe" rather than question the morality they pitch."
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you know you're my okp twin, right? lol! check the date

peace,

n.

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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29. "RE: *hugs*"
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Aww your my twin....
i always wanted one... hahaha... luv ya!

~~~~~~~~ luv R.
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psycho.
"Institutions encourage us to consider the opinions they sell as "facts" and that we "believe" rather than question the morality they pitch."
cities need fewer shopping malls and more skat

  

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Don't Duck

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7. "RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"
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mmmhmmm
congrats Natalie!
let me get to know u with this one

((wo))

  

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8. "congrats natalie!!!!!!!"
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:)

  

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9. "Congratz Natalie!!!!!!!!"
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very proud of ya Sis'.....you deserve it....(oh and I still owe you a collab)


Keep Flowin' Sis'.......

_________________________________________
"Too weird to live.... too rare to die..."

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18. "RE: Congratz Natalie!!!!!!!!"
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yeah *she says slowly checking you side-ways* remember it's all about them words lol! it's gonna happen when it's meant to.

peace,

n.

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10. "RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"
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*stands off backstage...proud*

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11. "congrats lady nm"
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12. "congrats Natalie.."
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It's a good year already!

"I've got hundreds just like you, and I'll have a thousand 'fore I'm through." -- Johnny Cash

  

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15. "RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"
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Congratulations. Well-deserved, especially for January!

"To be a poet is a condition, not a profession."
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19. "(or apple pie)"
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this poem is for the guys. i was reminded of an oprah episode (yeah, i saw it on Oprah and it's the TRUTH! lol!) about scents and guys preferring warm baking and earthy smells on a woman over all the flowery scents that are in the market. something filling, sensual, and satisfying about a cinnamon bun smell, or ... in this case, warm apple pie. *winks* enjoy!

...................................

"love...NICE...spice..."


love making tastes like NICE

apples warmed in buttered cinnamon spice

sweetened with coarse brown sugar

refinement is the art of getting better

still living in the rawness of emotion

a magical elixir given in a potion

of such intensity to flavour this passion

the fruit of life in one slice

i like the love making taste of NICE...spice

tips of tongues intertwined...mmm...

how the simple pleasures do remind

of the deeper ones kept in mind

and expressed in physical kind

like apples spiced and warmed

in butter coarsely brown sugared

for palettes basely refined

on the simple things sublime



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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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21. "I Hate Apple Pie..."
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...but you damn-near converted me with this one.

Lovely...

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22. "*chuckles*"
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y'know...per 'american pie' (the movie)...you don't always have to EAT them...lol! glad you enjoyed.

peace,

n.

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38. "RE: *chuckles*"
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Hmmm... let me go check my notes on this one... but I'm pretty sure that it's either illegal, immoral, or hazardous to your longfellow to try to hump hot apple pie...

"To be a poet is a condition, not a profession."
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39. "RE: *chuckles*"
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HOT vs WARM? hm? i think you're an undercover wannabe sadist, hon. the movie suggests WARM, you nut! lol! but, uh, yeah, there might be some harm done, but, uh...um...LOL! just think foreplay!

;P

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87. "That was gross girl...."
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but I like it... American Pie, indeed. LOL! You are silly. The poem was sweet though.

“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

"Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them."
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30. "RE: (or apple pie)"
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yo... awesome.. i was thinking american pie before i started reading but then it was just like wow... masterpiece!

~~~~~~~~ luv R.
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71. "RE: (or apple pie)"
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umph, that is true. green apple candles and some condoms, umph, umph, umph....oh, my bad.

i like this nat. i love apple juice too.

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106. "ive never made love,"
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but it souds like its quite tasty...thatll come in time!

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112. "RE: ive never made love,"
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yeah, me either otto.
But Natalie, you make it sound luscious!


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20. "RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"
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Congrats princess...go ahead of hurt em' like u normally do!!

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"Even when I'm bragging, I'm being sincere"-LL

Verse One:

Could you tell me who released our animal instinct?
Got the white man sittin' there tickled pink.
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23. ""
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'To be oneself, one has to be willing to surrender all outside information on and perceptions of who and what one is. Without this surrender, true-to-one-self individuality is nothing but a futile dream…a reality that never bridged the gap between things hoped for and things attained.'

Such a step I was not willing to make as I did not even know enough to understand or even realise that such an option was mine. The futility of my situation was laughable, especially in light of my willing acceptance of ignorance. After all, ignorance is bliss. And my life had been blissful, devoid of sincere insight that questioned where I was and why I developed the way I did.

One truth I’d learnt and come to accept as my own was this: Questions complicate life. To create some distinction, I should say ‘delving’ questions that seek to explain into existence the very root of the subject. Questions that require more than a simple yes, no, or even, maybe response. An unquestioned life is uncomplicated – such a life simply is. The existence begins with a birth, moves on to a life, and ends with a death that, if the person is fortunate enough, is marked by a few tears, kind words and eulogy outlining a SIMPLE life – no questions. This was my goal and I was working on the existence part called “living”, doing my best not to upset the balance of my surroundings.

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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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27. ""
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nat, i liked this alot.. as it carried out tru female wisdon and growth..
i hope u grow with the new year.. and continue to have thoughts like these, I hope you get answers for your questions, and continue to convert these situations into tru art form...
this was my fav peice of work i've seen from u..

blessings and congratulations! plus happy belated bithday
peash

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I turn my face so
your leaving does not eclipse
your kiss on back of my neck"~Ambergirl

someday I won't have to tell myself the obvious
or pretend to be oblivious
~Robynwildchild


The new me is like: A woman killed in ruffles; falling to the ground with her hair spread out; her wrist secreting ambiant neon blood
Juggling the moon and stars in palms; with the flecks in the eyes turning globes confetti like yearns of non-existant love...
Running in barefoot brooks; with the moon arching its reflection up the aching backs where he holds onto my hips and sways me
my dreams are:
Renewing again amoungst the mating mossrocks stay satiated coining a pith in a breathy palms; so so sappy drenching dreary destiny to bloody toned walls
my heart calls: callused and waving kites colors hues meshing, please feel me- I'm so-so soft- scratching like cat napes, round and female with sun-dresses blowing passion.. kiss the wind swiveling tears on cheeks, the light beams behind my curls, I pose and bleeeeeeed with pain on my sleeve...
engulf: anger,sadness, happiness changing to squared rolling wheels, penetrate the projections of emotional mattresses... I feel open.. constantly.. dream of my transparent body unzipping my skin and stepping out of me.. and I run to cotton-candy padded fields and glow with bliss, and he will wait with his arms open- like that of jesus and view me- patiently...cuz he knows I tripped on my way there and I'm all bruised... ~ me



the colors were NEVER accurate!and people dont go thru people!


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97. "spaz, spaz, spaz!!!!!"
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thank you so much ezz-steph! i'm sorry i didn't reply to this sooner. i realise my everyone stuff is getting lost on the page. this is one of my favourite pieces out of everything that i've ever written (the other 2 parts included) and i keep thinking one day i'll finish it. i started it during my senior year in college and haven't really gone anywhere with it since. one day i'll finish it.

peace and respect,

natalie.

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59. ""
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This is.....

> Such a step I was not willing to make as I did not even
>know enough to understand or even realise that such an
>option was mine. The futility of my situation was
>laughable, especially in light of my willing acceptance of
>ignorance. After all, ignorance is bliss. And my life had
>been blissful, devoid of sincere insight that questioned
>where I was and why I developed the way I did.

is soooo true......wow...you never fail to impress. Very well done Sis'.....


Keep FLowin'.......

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107. "very cool"
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Questions complicate life.

~~~~~

in many senses that is true, and in other ways, the complication is merely temporary, and the outcome is of utmost improvement of ones life...

-Otto

  

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My life had become a mirror of the can of vegetables sitting on the grocer’s shelf. No one asked what the motivation was behind the can’s being on THAT shelf in THAT grocery in THAT town. It simply was there and the shopper who picked it up wouldn’t question why it was there…the shopper, upon entering the store, merely assumes that the can is there to be purchased and then used. Only the present state and location of the can matters…and perhaps, to the cook or consumer, it’s future.

It’s funny, I suppose, my saying: “I am like the can of veggies on the grocer’s shelf.” But that is the truth of my self…of my existence. An unobtrusive being, there, not because of circumstance, but simply there because I was born. I can laugh now; at myself; at the wonder of what I am doing. Whoever thought that putting pen to paper and writing would be 'like opening an unhealed wound and letting the infected blood of misconception and lack of understanding run free to be replaced by the cleanliness of looking into and acknowledging fully what comes next based on the THERE that one has been to and lived through?' Certainly, not me.

Those are the good doctors’ words. I heard them, but…do they do me any good? I’ve no desire to dissect myself like an insect under a microscope. After all, I am alive and content to live as I am. Here because I am here, not because there is a history that, preceding the me now, requires investigation.

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32. ""
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A can of vegetables (((Packed))) with the delicious~ness of FRESH! -- ;^)


Nice mindset -- Tight thought~process! -- *Yesssssssss*


~Delmonte Goodness~

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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108. "lol..."
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My life had become a mirror of the can of vegetables sitting on the grocer’s shelf. No one asked what the motivation was behind the can’s being on THAT shelf in THAT grocery in THAT town. It simply was there and the shopper who picked it up wouldn’t question why it was there

^^^^^^silly, yes...but effective and creative...this put a smile on my grill...good analogy nat! ur a good artist of the month!

-Otto

  

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My history, like all history is past and in the past left to be undisturbed like the respected grave of the dead. The doctors think otherwise, just like archaeologists on a dig to excavate man-kind’s past so that he, WE, may understand the varying impetus’ within nature, human and otherwise, that have caused us to evolve as we have over time. Ha! What a fool I have been! To think that the dead are respected when living mortals are no more fortunate. Yes…I have looked into life and what I have found…it’s just better not to question.

Yet I made a semi-unspoken-promise to myself. I will tell my self of myself…but…the telling is not enough. Questioning is required if I am to understand what has led me to become who I think myself to be today. Where to begin? Where I feel like it. The first thought. I hate my father. Amazingly, the first therapist I saw asked if I was in love with my father and, therefore, hating him because I could not fulfill my desire because of the father-daughter tie. I laughed as I had not laughed in a while at his preposterous – at least it is for me – idea, then stood and left his office. I have the bill for the scheduled hour session that lasted no more than 5 minutes. When I received it, I decided I would not pay it. Why pay for an insult?

I don’t hate my father because I am IN love with him, but rather because (now that I’ve actually thought about it) I am out of love FOR him. The sentiment, I discovered, as I looked back on our “family” life, grew out of his present absence. Always there yet never involved. His complete lack of concern for his wife and children bothered me at an unconscious level, hence I never knew that I hated my father until I looked at myself in relation to the place I come from. Yet at that time, in that place called, Home, it did not matter…at least I never thought it did. As long as he never bothered me…rather, as long as we two kept out of each other’s space I lived happily. A life unfettered by the pain of an unconcerned parent. I suppose I hate my father because his lack of concern bred in me an unconcern for the “reality” I found myself in.

(To be continued at some point in the future.)

(Thanks for staying with us for the show! We'll be back next season!)

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

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a triptych in exitstentialism,ha...

check that out

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26. "(lik sighs)"
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.... let tha ass kissin begin. it better smell nice. and u better be thick wit it. and dont be fartin up garbage. this is ya time to shine, dont blow it.
(lik smiles)

u know i'm jus messin. proud of you, ma. do tha damn thing this month.

"There is nothing more poetic, but depressing than a male writer" -yours truly

  

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28. "RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"
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go girl!

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54. "Congratulations girl!"
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Where the hell have I been at? You are definitely deserving. You prove it again and again. I read these pieces of prose... I wish I could see things in simpler terms sis, for real. I live hard, I suppose. I liked your ideas and the words flowed "real nice." Congrats again!
Imma


“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

"Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them."
-Charles Simic

"Unless, this
very world is a trash bin, and I am just waiting for
someone to find me so I
can be recycled." InspiredFree




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imma, been wondering where you disappeared to happy new year! girl, if only life were that simple, or i was as simple as the girl in that piece...but thank you for the nod.

peace,

n.


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34. "playground"
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in the echo of the playground cries
i drop potent thoughts fully aware and
i analyse my reflection in morning puddles
too small to see me clearly
but big enough to capture me there
if only for a portion...

(a stray hair caught upon a shoulder
a cheek edging toward an eye)

and i'd like to be mystified
by the fact that
i am not beautiful...and
i am not unique
i do not sing the melody...and
i do not sing the verse
i only know the hook...and
i only know the basic chorus:
"be happy to be plain and unchanged"
but i argue, at least

i am not easily forgotten

and my skin in this frame here
it's porous and fine
and that curl in that one there
it's got the sheen of the divine
at least, that's what i like
to think and imagine
because it's only a picture part

and out the corner
of this minutiae art
i see myself
(i see them)
and the little boy...
i see his legs,
his feet
joined and primed
ready for the attack
then jump!
into the morning sea...

he concedes to himself
a major victory
-the giant unsunk
by nature's shallow depth
-the peasants splashed
and drenched by a cast sea
-the witch gazing
at her dispersed mirror

yet little thoughts
breed big deeds
and they unknowingly
are drenched
with different diffused parts of me.

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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49. "RE: playground"
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love it... found he uniqueness within the ordinary...

just what its all about.. the anomile!

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58. "RE: playground"
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I loved the first half of this piece. Got lost in the second. LOL. Nice work.


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60. "RE: playground"
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check ur inbox.

n.

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i love this piece

you are a gifted artist, truly

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72. "RE: playground"
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damn this too me back to tha simplicity of things. how i used to look at everybody when i was in elly school. i like this, nat. umph, u doin it up

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35. "RE: Jan. 2004 AOTM: Natalie!!!"
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congrats.

well deserved.

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36. "*APPLAUSE!*"
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Congratulations, Natalie! Definitely got my vote!

Happy New Year! What a way to begin, eh?

*smile*

Be blessed,

MUSE

...
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.

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Breathe and it shall live
Love and it shall triumph
Give and it shall never be
lost... ever... - MarcArthur
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HALLELU YAHWEH! AMEN

  

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40. "guarding the acceptance of a sin"
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he touched me in this space where i could taste death
as i was giving up my next to last breath
to feed this need
free from
a moment where the clarity in my vision
was lost
at the cost of coming clean with
all i had held in for so long
does a woman really have the right to be this strong:
constantly negating her existence
putting up no resistance
when called upon to be culled and less than her self
to supply a man with his fix of
self esteem
hanging on to the fragile power that
she would
sacrifice
it all
for him
give it all
for –loveof– him
time after time?

so she gave her body to another so she could find her soul
and in her heart burnt a hole
deep enough to lay to rest
all her fears that left her less…

than half a self

…but a whole one nonetheless
reconstructed from the ideas
within the fear:
she could not rise, given all she’d surmised,
from the shallow thoughts that ring true
that could save us from the stupidity we accrue
in attempts to be better…than the truth???
and she’d thought ‘one’s only misguided in one’s youth’
and given her penchant to resist
she resisted her resistance
to this love
falling into it and him and her
the comfort of discomfort
masked her fears for what is life without pain
it tests us to know if we can truly stand the rain

but

it only takes a fool wise enough to see
that loving him with half a self
was never completely loving her and him
but guarding the acceptance of a sin.

==================================

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70. "!"
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This was fantastic nat! Really. This here:

does a woman really have the right to be this strong:
constantly negating her existence
putting up no resistance
when called upon to be culled and less than her self
to supply a man with his fix of
self esteem
hanging on to the fragile power that
she would
sacrifice
it all
for him
give it all
for –loveof– him
time after time?

I had tears come to my eyes. It is true,it quite possibly is a sin to love half heartedly or with fear causing reservations. This was fabulous and touched me deeply.


“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

"Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them."
-Charles Simic

"Unless, this
very world is a trash bin, and I am just waiting for
someone to find me so I
can be recycled." InspiredFree




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73. "RE: guarding the acceptance of a sin"
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GOT DAMN

umph, love it when shortys spit truth like this. i love this, nat. a man couldnt have caught himself like this, trust that. melancholy but beautiful joint

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104. "Nat??!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!"
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Sorry I'm late...This will be a Classic Of Archived Work I'm sure..




  

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113. "RE: guarding the acceptance of a sin"
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wow

this is felt
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41. "Fertile Ground"
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this one was written after speaking with a close friend...please understand...

thanks,

n.


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In my belly, I have held seed
Your seed, planted in me
Upon fertile ground
Ready to give forth
New life
But for a moment
Cherished and secure
Loved and nourished
Held on the brink
Of new beginnings
A promise of us
To us, for us, by us
Made one unto the other
So passionately
But fleetingly
That we realised
In different moments
Too late
What we had conceived
And released
From our grasp
In fear of being hurt
And in fear of being wrong
But mostly
In an attempt to cling
To safety.
Instead of acting in truth
Instead of walking in truth
We let go
Without realising
We are still holding on
Just not to our fertile ground

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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74. "RE: Fertile Ground"
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hmmm, i likes.

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89. "RE: Fertile Ground"
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Just not to our fertile ground

This stuck in my head. Lovely work.

“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

"Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them."
-Charles Simic

"Unless, this
very world is a trash bin, and I am just waiting for
someone to find me so I
can be recycled." InspiredFree




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42. "We"
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Your legs are symphonies
Spreading at the apex
Of your thighs
Met dead centre
By the tantric melodies
Of my body’s desire.

Your heartbeat is the baseline
Where all my pleasures
Sure and manifold,
Though most untold,
Are rhythmically defined
By the length, breadth, and depth
Of my soul’s fire.

Hold me close and mould me
Like the potter and the clay
Then heat me in your kiln
Where I burn hard
Fired and formed
By this searing ecstasy
Of which I never want to be free.

Touch me, tease me, taste me, take me
As the fruit ripe plucked
Straight from the tree
So that I can feed
Whole, fully, freed
From this consuming hunger
Of which your essence satisfies me.

I am your eternal lover
Negating your mortal beginning
And erasing your dead end
For in this universal
Undefined and undecipherable complexity
We move to our souls’ harmony.

I am your heart’s song
Multiplying your joys
And dividing your sorrows
For in love’s promise
It’s complete and unbounded mystery
We attain our true destiny

We have this music we live
In the body of our soul
Unmetred and unrhymed
But still, a symphonic melody
Wrought by the fire
Fed with its flame
Living simply free
In the sweet mystery
Of our unique destiny.

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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75. "RE: We"
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GOT DAMN

umph, umph, umph

this is sexy, girl. got me ready to bend something over. u keep on.
(lik winks)

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43. "securing the peace"
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sitting on the brink
of ww iii
i wonder about man’s fidelity
to life
when it seems
he’s become all about death
saying ‘it keeps security’

and while sitting on the brink
i’m wondering what law-makers and avengers think
when they sink their teeth
into reasons to have beef…
all for the sake of peace???

still sitting on the brink
and all i can think
security through death…?
it’s such a mess…

but i suppose a world
devoid of any people
would be securing the peace.

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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76. "RE: securing the peace"
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i'm not a political person, but this right here hit me....

>>but i suppose a world
devoid of any people
would be securing the peace.<<<

i'm agreein wit that.

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90. "RE: securing the peace"
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This got me thinking about tek's piece last week about nuclear holaucost.
It's a mess, for real, we gotta get Bush out of there before it becomes a reality.


“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

"Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them."
-Charles Simic

"Unless, this
very world is a trash bin, and I am just waiting for
someone to find me so I
can be recycled." InspiredFree




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44. "last goodbyes"
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death, caught between fingers holding onto life
looking for a way out
and only finding a way in
incapable of understanding
how this situation came to be
if death dictates it’s own timetable
sets down the rules for the game
“end of life”…
but see, death forgot one minor detail:
the potency of last goodbyes.

==================================

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77. "RE: last goodbyes"
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so true

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109. "RE: last goodbyes"
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death forgot one minor detail:
the potency of last goodbyes.
~~~~~~

that was potent nat...powerful, and felt

-Otto

  

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45. "Expansive Velvet"
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This was written when I had my FIRST major crush (in college; it took me that long, go figure!). *Sigh* The experiences life tests us with, at least I got a poem out of it

...................................................

I touched a star falling from an amethyst sky preparing to draw on its velvet cloak of night
And on that tumbling star I burnt my fingers aspiring to touch what was beyond their read
Heart of amethyst drew me in as black velvet caressed my senses now careening with inflammation
The flame was stoked with passion unrestrained while yearnings for a fallen star coursed through my veins.
To touch, hold, and caress a treasure not meant for me…
This was my questing desire before I realized, too late, that even expansive velvet can suffocate.

==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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78. "RE: Expansive Velvet"
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ok, i thought this was about a dude, but u made it seem like jus a garment u couldnt get. i know it wasnt like that. son wasnt that rich and geniune to touch. i like tha imagery tho. nice, nat

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46. "Love"
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Wed Jan-07-04 03:41 PM

  

          

Some of you have asked if I perform, and I do on occasion. This piece is my favourite performance piece ('Handle With Care', though it gets a little heavy).

............................................

Looking for love in all the
wrong places/
she lays panting/
legs wide open/
inner heart thrown
far apart/
from the self that she
once knew/
as her own/
letting men push their way --
in - and - out/.../in - and - out
of her misplaced
self-esteem./

Too far gone to
understand that/
- her thing of value, - /
-her virginity, -/
was not up
for sale - /
to ANY bidder/
willing to
pay the price of false affection./

Instead / she lays/
panting/
inner self, unknown to her,/
battered and bruised/
body torn and infected/
with wet dreams
of illict non-lovers/
who have fed
gorgingly
on the essence of
her soul/
and fed into her bloodstream
the fee of
cheapening her mould --/
for their wanton pleasure./

She is bloodied - /
she is torn - /
she is scorned - /
by - her - self/
for all the wrongs she has
done/
and as yet undone/
but is ever willing to do/
for the sake of finding love
in the arms of men
who represent
insercurity’s unsafe havens/
thinking their bodies,/
- though unshared with her, - /
shields against the misfortunes
of life/
that she attracts
like moths to a flame/
and she’s
feeling the burning - /
yearning - /
straining - /
wanting of
yet unfulfilled lust/
tearing at her psyche/
clawing at her baseness/
begging/
screaming/
crying out/
- for release - /
that this fuck --- /
would, - / could, - / but can’t bring./

And in that moment/
when the little sting
of that small death/
leaves her
panting,/ gasping for breath/
settling to a small ‘o’/
she discovers/
/yet again - /
the sweat – not her own –/
clouding her vision/
the weight – not her own –/
crushing her down/
the smells – not her own –/
cramming her nose/
the juice – not her own –/
smearing her thighs/
she has not found love/
but a man’s release/
unconcerned for her
woman’s need./

She lays panting/
legs wide open/
inner heart thrown
far apart/
from the self that she
once knew
as her own/
ready to run
in the opposite direction
that conscience pricks her in/
and pride calls her to./

And in this cycle/
this bitter dance
with soul death/
she excuses/
she chooses/
she loses/
- self - /
to false hope
and twisted gains/
she remains/
too far gone
in the knowledge of/
looking for love in all the
wrong places/
as still/
she lays panting/
legs wide open/
inner heart/
thrown far apart/
from the self/
that she once knew./


........................................

For those of you who have read Sister Souljah's 'The Coldest Winter Ever', this was inspired by Winter's story. And just to clarify: this isn't about the guys it's about women/girls who don't know what it is to be truly loved by themself or anyone else and think that sex is going to get/give them love; unfortunately there are men (good ones included) who take advantage of this kind of woman/girl and that's all this is saying. No men bashing involved. And for the curious few, no, this isn't me, but it's a story most women are prey to...

Peace,

Natalie


==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

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47. "RE: Love"
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This reminds me of Jill Scott's pCe called: "THICKNESS"

(((Painfully Real)))


~Excellent Read~

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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50. "RE: Love"
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yeah, that's the same thing i got when i heard it. damn that jill! she just wants to be like me! lol! hope you've read "winter".

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48. "mmmmm"
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wonderful.. well you know... I GOT MY ISSUES.... and i must say that at least with the low self esteem that i do have that i haven't been one of those minded girls who think sex is love ... that lust is love...

me i just push that all away...

~~~~~~~~ luv R.
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51. "RE: mmmmm"
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*smiles* yup, that's what you remind us of and i'm glad for it. thanks for checking...oh, inbox.

n.

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52. "RE: Love"
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*sits in the back with a heineken*

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53. "RE: Love"
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i read this yesterdday and thought i responded ...this had so much tension and pain and reality it made me look at the part i have played in the dimension of the demented distortions we go thru when we really do not take the time to see just who we are where we are when we make feeble attempts at expressing ourselves...a brother just spoke yesterday and wisley said it is often impressing that we are doing and that causes so much of what is written here...out of touich with emotions we become potions of lost desires


ASIEM
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(Be and it is)
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79. "RE: Love"
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ouch, u made me think of what i used do to shortys. damn, ma, love it when a shorty spits tha truth, but u got me feelin bad as a man right now. guess i deserve it. glad to know u're stronger now. nice joint, nat

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92. "RE: Love"
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Fri Jan-23-04 05:00 AM

  

          

This hit close to home... rather took me back to my adolescent years:

She is bloodied - /
she is torn - /
she is scorned - /
by - her - self/
for all the wrongs she has
done/
and as yet undone/
but is ever willing to do/
for the sake of finding love
in the arms of men
who represent
insercurity’s unsafe havens/
thinking their bodies,/
- though unshared with her, - /
shields against the misfortunes
of life/
that she attracts
like moths to a flame/

I was something else... looking for validation in the wrong ways with the wrong people. I cosign, made me think of Jill Scott's "The Thickness" as well. I wish I could spare even one young girl from this. Brilliant as always sis.


“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

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55. "allergic reaction"
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he isn’t the one
that I used to think he was.

the one I spent
so many distant years giving my love.
never knowing
if he even felt the same,
i was trusting God
that this loving wasn’t some game,
to see if I would
stay faithful and singly true,
to promises made
in the flush of youth’s hue.
because, tell me,
who’s resolution is less fickle
than youths swayed
like sun blasted dripping icicles?
and like them
given to melting desire
for something deeper –
something touched by the fire,
scorched by passion,
and separated from mind sense,
given to feeling
for something far more intense,
given to listening,
for but not to the truth of the sixth;
and it is here
i find myself staring at the twist…
for time passes
and people often change,
that time was
but is now less real,
and changes and growth
lessen their current appeal.
so past facts remain facts
and no one is to blame
when this understanding
provides no decrease or relief from the pain –
of loving too much
someone so far out of reach,
that at the next hello
the truth isn’t even bittersweet…
just terribly bland,
leaving heart warmed words to cool at the side
because the matured palate
has no wish for past and present to collide,
making the delicate pick
of mental gardens supplements
to cause the worst:
an allergic reaction to memory’s ingredients…
and this i savour
in my current awakening:
pasts let go
provide their own strengthening
and the one I spent
so many distant years giving my love…

he isn’t the one
that I used to think he was.

==================================

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57. "RE: allergic reaction"
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wow....heartfelt piece.....nice....

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61. "RE: allergic reaction"
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I guess over time you can develop an adverse reaction in relationships -- when the pollen of love becomes an irritant! -- *crooked smile*


What can I say? -- I Likes -- ;^\


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64. "RE: allergic reaction"
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thanks always trying something new

n.

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80. "RE: allergic reaction"
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awwww

damn, u killin me, nat

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88. "inbox."
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Fri Jan-23-04 04:48 AM

  

          

.....thanks, dec.

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62. "frozen"
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i wrapped my heart
around your brain

thinking it would relieve the pressure

that it's beat would lead your pulse

to calmly follow...

but it seems the meter changed
and what i didn't register
was, that rising tempest
would settle into numbing pain

and, my love,

it just wasn't strong enough

it could not see you through the storm

it could not ease you

and like a ship at sea
bulwark buffeted and tossed about
mast seized and cracked...

my heart flutters, bleeds and breaks
...ripped apart, in two

.one half me -- one half you.

and winter settles darkly
throughout this watery plain

and we, we do not swim or sink

we remain opposed
frozen in space
destined to go no further.

and it would be better,
if we could part,
go in opposite directions
and start amoebically anew --

yet here we are - stuck -
-two halves of one whole;
-two opposing beats stopped.
given only time to ponder:

how do i unwrap my heart
and you ease your fears
before this coldness goes deeper?
-closing over thoughts
-closing over emotions
where nothing can warm us

or do we settle,
as we now are,
and opposed lovers remain...

=====================

a silent whisper travels over seas
and calls: 'there is no logic

in love there are only hearts
where one heart and one brain
do not equal the same
as two hearts joined as one...'

==================================

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"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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63. "i like the imagery"
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the concept of a winter setting in and the ice gradually freezing between two people was very interesting.....


"and like a ship at sea
bulwark buffeted and tossed about
mast seized and cracked..."

interesting words and ideas in that one there......all in all a real nice vivid read....full emotionally...

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65. "RE: i like the imagery"
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thank you jay.

peace,

n.

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"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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66. "RE: frozen"
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Wow, Nat. This made me both seasick and heartsick to read. The imagery is amazing. It's killer when you want to so badly to be there for someone else, fix something for someone else and they don't want it. So fine. I hate being powerless situations that I think would be so much better if I could control them. (Okay, so maybe I'm a bit of a control freak and maybe that was bit cocky.) Chalk it up to my severe Mother/Nurturer Miss Fix-It Complex. Somehow I think you know what I mean though. This made me think of a song by Tony Rich called "Silly Man". Best line: "take my hands, and place 'em over round your ears. Take my heart and hook it up to your veins." That seems like the same thing that you're saying in this. Like, "I'd block out all the bad stuff and bleed for you and use MY cardio to pump the life force through YOUR veins for you if you'd just let me." If I hadn't already typed a dissertation in response, I'd say that you left me speechless. )

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81. "RE: frozen"
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got damn, nat, u are truly wonderful, talented and experienced. this is one of tha best real love poems i've seen in a minute. and this one was perfect wit tha comparison of cold. better than tha other one, ma. damn, this is hot, nat. keep on keepin on, sexy

i like this too...

>>a silent whisper travels over seas
and calls: 'there is no logic

in love there are only hearts
where one heart and one brain
do not equal the same
as two hearts joined as one...'<<<

so true, so true



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82. "damn, dec!"
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you truly are amazing! you said you'd be by and YOU'VE BEEN BY! sampled each drop and responded, that is kinda special...*gets all misty eyed* i'm glad you've enjoyed them and expressed what each made you feel, but on that love one don't feel so bad, although, I think that one gets to everyone the same...it was never my intent (more of a writing assignment i gave myself to get away from the standard nat love poem), but it speaks nonetheless.

again, dec, and everyone who's lurking and dropping, thanks.

natalie

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85. "RE: frozen"
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or do we settle,
as we now are,
and opposed lovers remain...



That is a question I've confronted before off and on for 10 years with the same man. Wow. This put things so matter of fact but beautifully. It's tough to deep down love someone but not know how or if things can be changed. I really liked this.


“I have had to experience so much stupidity, so many vices, so much error, so much nausea, disillusionment and sorrow, just in order to become a child again and begin anew. But it was right that it should be so: my eyes and heart acclaim it. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again. I had to become a fool again in order to find Atman in myself. I had to sin in order to live again. Whither will my path yet lead me? This path is stupid, it goes in spirals, perhaps in circles, but whichever way it goes, I follow it.” Siddhartha- Herman Hesse

"Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them."
-Charles Simic

"Unless, this
very world is a trash bin, and I am just waiting for
someone to find me so I
can be recycled." InspiredFree




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103. "RE: frozen"
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and like a ship at sea
bulwark buffeted and tossed about
mast seized and cracked...

my heart flutters, bleeds and breaks
...ripped apart, in two

.one half me -- one half you.

ALWAYS quality reading nat... your a poets best expression

~~~~~~~~ luv R.
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67. "Hey NAT!!!"
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lol. Sorry, I ain't been around the boards lately, I almost completely forgot to check this. Anyways, even if shit doesn't calm down in my life and miss out on this thread, I'm checkin you on the archives

Much love, you layin it down.

peace,
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69. "i didnt forget..."
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just give me one more day...

thanks nat!

-Otto

  

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83. "imagine me (just listen)"
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Fri Jan-23-04 05:35 AM by KnowOne

  

          

http://www.amalgamatedpixels.com/downloads/imagine_me_2.mp3

some of you might remember reading this one...oh, and turn up the wave volume in your volume settings and headphones might be good to use.

enjoy,

n.

============================================================

imagine me
draped across a bed
casually
lying in my nakedness
simply
that ever shuttered form
still in it’s undress.

trace me
every line of every curve
telling you a tale
from my eyebrow
to my breast
chest rising and falling
a breath away from fantasy

imagine me

casually

saying little about this
casual intimacy
taken no further
than looking
at what the eyes see
and what a body will confess.

trace at ease
and in your pleasure
the scars
that add to
not mar
my history
each one telling
a story
of who i am
and where i’ve been
it would be a sin
to only see the fantasy
as you mentally

drape me

casually
in new positions
to fuel your need
of something
not necessarily
seen or found in me

postured serene
checking you
undressing you
through slatted blinds
of eyes
suggesting
voyeurism of your thoughts
that have you caught
between admiring
and desiring
something similar to
and different from
what you may have
thought you had

intimately

because it escaped you
if looking on me
made you recall it all
from the side-lined collection
of your thoughts
and passing reflections.

now keenly tracing me
the one you see
draped casually

breast rising and falling
subtly
on relaxed breath

waiting

for that moment
when YOU will see ME
more than casually
as i really am
when you then
cease imagining me
and reach for me mentally
for the first time.


==================================

"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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93. "RE: imagine me"
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UMPH

girl, u can read me a bedtime story anytime.

wow, this was nice. i like tha calmness but confidence of ya voice as it wit thru. no disturbence or shakiness or breakin stride of ya voice. it was clear tha whole way. made me think of a Outkast album. the lightning in tha back was good, even tho i dont like tha same sound effects draggin thru tha whole thing, i made amends on this one. loved it. niceness, mami. cant wait til u drop more.

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98. "RE: imagine me"
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thanks...have another version, but that will wait for another day this might just go missed 'cause it's nested in here

peace,

n.

==================================

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99. "OMG!!!!"
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Whew......did someone turn up the heat....*fans self* its getting hot in here.... LOL. First of all I love your voice! (smooth & sexy. Very nice.) I'm really feelin' the piece also. And your delivery was on point. Calm, confident & seductive. And I like that rolling thunder sound in the background. Gives it a nice quiet storm type feeling. I truely hope this is not the last audio we hear from you. And I honestly think this should get a post of its own on the board. Cuz it might get slept on in here. And this needs to be heard!

Keep Flowin' Sis'.....
*I gotta go take a cold shower* LOL!

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102. "lol!"
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thanks, know i appreciate the words and to know that you're feeling it (and the change). i had fun making it. yeah, i thought about making it its own post, but i've got aotm so i'll wait until the month is out to repost.

peace,

n.

==================================

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105. "little..."
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Li-tt-le...

the way u say that word is...

sexy!

i really like this, i like the texture of sounds in the background...

-Otto

  

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114. "Awwwwwww Hell No --"
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Tue Jan-27-04 03:33 PM

          

I ain't checked back in here innna hottt minute -- But you mean 2 tell me that you've hidden an (((AUDIO))) in here since -- JANUARY 22ND??? -- (And it's the 27th now!!!)

Girlfriend!!!

I can't HEAR this right now -- But when I get home I'mmma kick yo buttt for not posting this on the OUTSIDE of this thread!!! -- *grrrrrrr*

Just cuz you're the "Artist Of the Month" don't mean EVERYTHING has to be contained within this "AOTM" thread -- (Although it ain't but 4 more days left til' FEBRUARY -- *shrugggs*) -- But several of the previous AOTM's posted "both" inside & outside their threads so -- (((Whatever))) -- I guess it's no use crying ova spilled milk now, huh? -- *smirk*

Aaaiight I'm maddd -- But I'll get over it -- *chuckles*

I shoulda just checked back sooner, thas' all! -- *My Bad*


I'll be back later 4 a listen -- *smiles*

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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115. "RE: imagine me (just listen)"
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That is beautiful! Your voice is complementing, and I liked the feeling of the pulse in the background.


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-Phyllis-


"For with much wisdom comes much sorrow;
the more knowledge, the more grief."
- Ecclesiastes 1:18



  

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PhotoSynthesis
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117. ":::WoW:::"
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I have a LOT to say about this flow -- But Imma wait until you post it on the board --(((BY ITSELF))) -- *smiles*

I will say that you have a beautiful voice -- I thought I detected a slight ENGLISH/BRITISH accent -- But I could be imagining things -- *smiles* -- (That may just be your ~Proper~ or ~Reading~ voice) -- As opposed to yo "slanging" & "hanging" out with ya homegirls" voice --

(((Awesome Flow~Stream)))

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/2/photosynthesis_music.htm

  

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Natalie
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118. "y'all...."
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otto's got me blushing, soulchild heard my favourite part (the pulse), and photo's got me kicking dirt! aw, shucks! it'll be heard in time...and thanks for peeping it.

peace,

n.

ps yeah, the brits got me...less so now, but they got me.

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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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Natalie
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84. "Sisters"
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This is one of the first poems I ever wrote with a purpose (not just 'cause a random thought came to me, or an emotion inspired me to write and I had no other way to express it, I felt I had to say something about those of us who are to wanting to forget where we are from especially if those we left behind are less fortunate than us); and it's the first piece I shared with others.

Thanks for stopping by.

Peace and respect,

Natalie

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If you have come here with unconstructive thoughts to think and an unopened mind to use,
I urge you - be gone.
Here you are not needed.
Here you are not wanted…for would you understand?

A thousand times infinity squared my sisters have cried begging you to hear their voice –
And you have not heard and have chosen time over time not to hear
Those calls that come to you across waves of sound carried on artificial breeze.
And you have not seen and have chosen time over time not to see
Those symbols wrought by a solitary visionary’s magic bringing you glimpses of the truth.

Brothers of the shade, you too have turned your back and walked the other way,
Unconcerned for your mother’s sister’s daughter’s need…
And you sisters of the shade, you too have turned your back and walked away guarding your wombs –
The wombs that would give birth to their plea and wail the sister cry to the world.

But I am one not to tell you what you have and have not done when I have no need to judge us.
Enough of THAT we already do the smaller we grow on the horizon,
And become one with that harsh landscape of unseen unconcern.

Last night Abantu whispered furtively in my ear to come – come out of fragrant dreams and help.
As a mosquito buzzing in the night breeze the incessant insistent cry was shoved away only to be recalled,
In pre-dawn light glancing on a pillow drenched with sorrow’s tears tied to the memory of a plea:
“Keep your promise to remember us before you ever return.
And keep your promise to return to us before you ever remember to forget.”

NOTE: Abantu = the feminisation of the Bantu word 'bantu' meaning 'people' and ABANTU also means 'the people'

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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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ASIEM
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95. "RE: Sisters"
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while i was reading this i found the meaning to convey a greater part of what was felt as i wrote "blonde" and in this i find so much depth of appreciation for those left behind veils even if those veils are at times masks that cover the pain of being unnoticed,or victimized and left alone...

ASIEM
"Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran
(Be and it is)
" A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder
checkout these sites
http://4luvofpoetry.com
www.poetology.com

"keep pennin till the earth birth's your rightful seed then nurture it wit more ink..."
ASIEM
"Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran
(Be and it is)
" A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder




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clarion
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96. "yeah..."
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im reading this all thru my lunch..u r a gifted writer..keep up the good work ma!

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Natalie
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100. "RE: yeah..."
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Sat Jan-24-04 05:30 AM

  

          

i'm glad i could be part of your lunch fare thank you for your words.

peace,

n.


ps you have my 100th post exciting!

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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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Otto
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110. "RE: yeah..."
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cosign man///
...really gifted...lyrically too, wonderful voice!
-Otto

  

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Chaste_Souls
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Tue Jan-27-04 06:15 PM

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116. "Nat The Sun-Child"
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Tue Jan-27-04 06:17 PM

  

          

So many writers have written poetry,
So many times I've read the work's of many,
Now there is one difference in your dedication,

You glow through words and the Sun is my witness...
Cause the light beams where you stand...
We read your energy and appreciate the heat.


Bless

  

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Natalie
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119. "THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CHECKING!"
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This isn't a poem,
or anything quite like that,
I just had to say ciao,

before the month ends,
and the mods put this on lock.
I've had a good time,

being the a o t m,
a great Oh-Four start,
and perhaps a sign,

of the great events to come,
Nat time has begun.
Thanks to one and all.

MALAKH, inbox hit
to say "congrats, you do that"
got me glad after...

DELRICA posted
giving me creation space
to do Nat-narrate

but PHOTO called it
with lots to say for days and…
days then Red left; YES! (winks at’cha)

…just not before BLAK
the dancing man calmly said
“Girl, you gon’ rip this!”

Me saying ‘word?’ but
MIRACLERIC paging me –
boy’s collab crazy!

Then baton’s got passed
sis to sis, and just like that
ROBYN, busy shaking that… *winks*

PRODIGIOUSPOET
stop’d to say quiet congrats
and I tip’d my hat

checked WILDOUT’s shout out
(that kid just keeps me amazed –
took off, left for days).

*Smile* at the LADEE
most DEF felt her enthusedness
spark light in the joint

and KNOWONE tap’d me
every so often to show
love and ‘preciate.

But craze unfazed heed
MINDFUL’s calm congrats to me
keep it straight direct

as BISHOP concurred
proclaiming the year is good
left me wondering…

‘Can I get that slick?’
GSQUARED’s words ‘u deserve it’
let me sit back, chill…

Reiterate them
in WOLFIE’S typed words; think some…
they’re building me up

CHAOTIC comics
imagining apple pie…
injured longfellows…

Got me laughing hard!
But I get some perspective
as MOREHOUSE spreads love.

Then DEEPTHOUGHT gives me
licence to full throttle rock!
So, I change up style,

but not before this,
a DECSTAR admonition
‘Stink not!’ (Like I would!)

(But I did wonder then…
Stop!) EZZ-STEPH finds a new fave
in the drops of prose;

yea, I, too, like those.
Now I see INSPIREDFREE
cheering ‘you go girl!’

and OTTO like Dec
kept his promise to return –
mental walk with me.

Saluted by PREZ
back from a short hiatus…
(Damn! I’m doing this!

A O T M’ed out!)
But, nah, MUSE applauds and, yes,
blesses more po’m thoughts.

SOBER overwhelmed,
drops inbox wishes instead,
so, me happier

than even the start,
I parlay with the GDCHIL
open, sharing Free.

ASIEM, I say,
Bless your heart and tenderness,
joy is this sharing.

IMAGINATION
for whom I, unconsciously,
often seem to write,

thank you for kindness
makes me want to share some
so, I say ‘JAYARE!’

I’m your top most fan!
You checked out ‘Frozen’ the first
then MAHOGANY

also came to see.
A triple surprise post treat!
‘Cause TOOTHPICK came, too.

CLARION read long
all through lunch and enjoyed it.
(Give me humble pie!)

CHASTE_SOULS belated
realised it was getting late
but with poet style

blessed the entire thread.
Seconds to close SOULCHILD came
and blessed and blessed and…

Gratefulness is all
even to all the LURKERS
and that’s about it.

So, as said before:
Thank you all for making this
a month to recall!

Peace and Respect,

Natalie

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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

  

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PhotoSynthesis
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120. "THANK YOU -- FOR SHARING --"
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*Much Appreciated* -- ;^)

Luckily -- Your words will be showcased in a crystal container in the ARCHIVE files -- So we can go back and forth -- Checkin' em' out periodically -- with mouths agape -- in Awe! -- *smiles*

You made the beginning of the year a delightful time for all of us to peep your (((Shine))) -- Thanks again for the January *S P A R K L E* -- ;^)



A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/2/photosynthesis_music.htm

  

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121. "RE: THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CHECKING!"
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*tips fatigue hat*

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