after listening to "clarity" by john mayer, this is what popped up in my head...

little gurls don't do this/that

little gurls love their daddies,
they don't want anything more
than a forehead kiss @ nite
and a big daddy hug...squeezed
just right.
little gurls don't inch into
grown folks' buisness, with
"mama you said this, remember?"
because mama don't play that
shit.

I've watched little gurl
stay stuck in her shell,
scared of leaving, and I've
blown the dust from between
my fingers; digging in dirt
trying to retrieve my roots; little
gurls don't hate their mothers...
They prance around with her
heels on, getting first
dibs on vanity.
They smack their lips, suck their
teeth, and remain little gurls,
even in the cloudiest of
environments.

I've tugged onto little gurl,
afraid to let her go,
because grown women don't
need direction.
Grown women can't fall
into their fathers' laps and
dream about days before
divorces and second wives.
And I find myself wanting
to be a little gurl again,
sucking in the airyness that was
my life. Blending in
with the shadiest of crowds...
Pulling my past back
into me...
I am not a little gurl anymore


or am I?

©Tremaine L. Loadholt





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damn, i really like this, ma. u took tha concept to anotha level. beautiful. i like how u relate how grown women cant be like little girls, but in a way, she's still in u. very lovely

"There is nothing more poetic, but depressing than a male writer" -yours truly

I've tugged onto little gurl,
afraid to let her go,
because grown women don't
need direction.

Grown women can't fall
into their fathers' laps and
dream about days before
divorces and second wives.

>>really felt this line.

And I find myself wanting
to be a little gurl again,
sucking in the airyness that was
my life. Blending in
with the shadiest of crowds...
Pulling my past back
into me...
I am not a little gurl anymore

excellent.

the is

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There's a lil' girl in me who'll be in my heart til' I'm 90 yrs. old! -- *smiles*

Yes -- I have the heart of a child -- But the mind of an adult -- Yet quite often it's the other way around! -- *LoL*


I feel ya Ms. Mindful -- I FEEL YA! -- *wink*


(((Sweet Lil' pCe of Gummy Bear Nice~Ness))) -- Laced with the reality & responsibility of growing up!


Ohhhh to be a child again! -- *sigh* -- Or as THEY say -- Ohhh to be a child again -- (BUT KNOW WHAT I KNOW NOW) -- *Yuuup*

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I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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hot damn.

diggin thru dirt, eh?

good stuff.
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make my skip.

the okayquote corner:

niggas can't fight the inclination to be typical. © aeon

don't suck his dick no more either © mash_comp

yay bitch © ronni

: : : : : : : : : : : :
c if i give a fck if u like me | u know i don't

ahh ive been feeling that way lately. sometimes i just want someone to come take care of me...

youre always on point in your poems. i love reading them. you take care, okay?


peace
ladee

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one of the few poets i respect and can get with, this was nice Mind, it seems as tho at time we do head back or live in the moment of what was, is, should be, still is, i guess it never really leaves unless ya grew up too fast, youth inside can drive a heart, this was peace.

fuck a sig!!!


why MiracleRic thinks me and him clic aight, here's the reason, u real with yours, i am once i bring my guard down, we both stupid as hell, we both got our talents, want a lot of the same things, like a lot of the same things, we both

And I find myself wanting
to be a little gurl again,
sucking in the airyness that was
my life.

Niceness in this flow. Gettin grown seems to bring weight with it and it gets harder and harder to shake.
When we learn how to let some of the burdens go we become more like the little girls still in us.
My babygirl brings it out of me - this poem did too.

Peace to you

_____________________________

divided
you wanna walk ahead of me
and the fact that you can't
is a thorn
now ain't it? ~Nathaniel


So it is better to speak/
remembering/we were never
meant to survive
Audre Lorde


Don't believe me/Keep

hey mind. why don't you keep going down this path? but, yo...you gonna explode tho....you gotta hate it...just go a lil deeper...show us that paaaaaaaiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnn. show us taht world that you don't want anyone to see....come on!!!!!!

this piece was felt.....ha...if i could recall those sentiments a lil less......nt the lil girl part..lol...come on mind...RAAAAGGGGEEEEEE!

peace

let's play ping pong ■

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if you ain't try. i ain't tell.

haha

peace.

let's play ping pong ■

that's what i'm left with. nice drop and maybe it's because "little gurls don't do this/that" that this piece has me wondering what other thoughts were going through your head that didn't make it down onto paper...y'know, the grown-up thoughts, which did peek through at certain places, but got squashed down by the little girl uncertainties and insecurities. nice piece...now i'm itchin' to see the converse. flip it nice 'n easy like.

peace,

n.

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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

is about a woman speaking on how.. little gurls aren't supposed to do this or that, but in actuality, some do it anyway... the poem goes thru stages.. first stanza.. is of daddy's little gurl. second stanza is of the somewhat rebelious adolcescent searching for her past... last stanza.. is of the woman reminiscing on how her past was, and perhaps.. maybe.. maybe.. she needs it more than she knows... maybe her past will help her into her future.. which is why.. "I am not a little gurl anymore...... or am i?

is the way it is... I hope this helps Natalie.



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"I'm a curbside prophet with my hand in my pocket and I'm waiting for my rocket to come." - Jason Mraz

"Conformity is the refuge of a stagnant mind."

lil girls don't speak vulagarilites
or talk back to thier parents
or get introuble with the boys and come home bruised
nor do they get kicked out of school
lil girls don't take the car out for a spin at 14
then leave it in a ditch for daddy to get out
lil girls don't lie to thier moms about where they've been
they don't hide away in silent hatred
in the company of misunderstanding

lil girls like these grow up
because they never wanted what childhood had to offer
only to regress in the thought that big girls don't act like lil girls wishing only to be 2 again...

~~~~~~~~ luv R.
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psycho.
"Institutions encourage us to consider the opinions they sell as "facts" and that we "believe" rather than question the morality they pitch."
cities need fewer shopping malls and more skat

i wanna be a little girl again. this made me think most definitely about innocence lost. solid piece.

Robyn... thanks for the added flavor. you always flip aspects of someone's work and make them it your own.


"Live out of your imagination, not your history."
-Stephen Covey

Lesley

>lil girls don't lie to thier moms about where they've been
>they don't hide away in silent hatred
>in the company of misunderstanding
>
>lil girls like these grow up
>because they never wanted what childhood had to offer
>only to regress in the thought that big girls don't act like
>lil girls wishing only to be 2 again...

yea, i could definitely relate to this...


when i was a little girl, all i wanted to be was a grown up...
and now that i'm growing up, i still wish i was young because i didn't have to deal w/the uglies the way i do now.

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'it's like i'm
fightin for freedom, writin for freedom...' -Common

'God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.'

James 4:6

honestly when u started out, I wasn't sure where u going with it..but when it hit the second stanza..it just illumited excellence. My fav parts:

and I've
>blown the dust from between
>my fingers; digging in dirt
>trying to retrieve my roots;

>I've tugged onto little gurl,
>afraid to let her go,
>because grown women don't
>need direction.

The final line in the poem, makes it complete..in an incompletly/unsure kinda way :S..u knowhatimsayingtho..right

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"..if One Man's amazin..pray tell, where does that leave You??"-D/russ

It is funny because John Mayer is one of the artists i wrote, i see the connection and i apprreciate it, this will last for ever and should incase it does not at least you have the memories... Very nice drop

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Yeah this is nice...and i feel your sentiments how good it would feel to be a little girl again...man i think about that all the time. Nice drop!

Know Thyself and surroundings to better understand things non-existing and existing, unseen and the seen in order to be able to deal Equality(Equally with all things in life)...Be True to U!

RIGHTEOUS SOULS
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...stuck with me the most.

perhaps "am I" instead of "or am I"? More concentrated introspection? just me.

Excellent transition, very natural.

Plus I got niggas in DC
That'll hit you for 3G's and a box of Yum's carry out!
Little Brother


Protest!
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thanks tho... *smiles*



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I weigh
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oh the ending was so key and so sad... it makes me not want to keep growing up...

~*~*~*~*~*~*~newolf~*~*~*~*~*~*~

the light: so, you're having a pre-pre-midlfe crisis?
wolfie: yes.
the light: well, that's wonderful!


icantspell

you always come with the raw eloquence.

this is a beautiful piece...it hit me in a very deep place because of where i'm at right now

the return to innocence would be lovely

and your heart painted on the page moves me like mozart.

thank you,
rs

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I've watched little gurl
stay stuck in her shell,
scared of leaving, and I've
blown the dust from between
my fingers; digging in dirt
trying to retrieve my roots; little
gurls don't hate their mothers...
They prance around with her
heels on, getting first
dibs on vanity.
They smack their lips, suck their
teeth, and remain little gurls,
even in the cloudiest of
environments.

I've tugged onto little gurl,
afraid to let her go,
because grown women don't
need direction.

~~~~~~

mindful, this is what poetry should feel like....

-Otto

I've watched little gurl
stay stuck in her shell,
scared of leaving, and I've
blown the dust from between
my fingers; digging in dirt
trying to retrieve my roots


.......u know these lines mean more to me right now than ever.....thank u for helping me recover myself from falling....love...k

if you didn't define yourself for yourself you'd be crunched into other peoples fantasies of you an eaten alive.

audre lorde

for reading... and pulling something you feel is useful to you from it.. that makes me feel as if I've achieved something by penning something.



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I was never because I
never myself how to swim
in holy water. ©Aeon

I weigh
my body. ©John Mayer

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http://www.lulu.com/content/7598631
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looking back
looking at
looking in
looking out
looking around
looking down

all in search of....

i don't know. it's a thought-provoking piece. i need to dig up the song that inspired it.

---i'm here---

"...do what scares you..." -- l. varela

this is so dope...it's still sinking in...being that we were all once little girls...or are we still??? yeah, lady, your piece was tight!

Peace,
M



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As today I know I'm living but tomorrow
Could make me the past but that I musn't fear
For I'll know deep in my mind
The love of me I've left behind
Cause I'll be loving you always."
-Stevie Wonder


"We are not separate from Spirit, we are in it"
--Plotinus--

"Cherish your vision; Cherish your ideals; Cherish the music that stirs in your heart, the beauty that forms in your mind, the loveliness that drapes your purest thoughts, if you remain true to them, your world will at last be built."
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>after listening to "clarity" by john mayer, this is what
>popped up in my head...

i downloaded that song to be able to reflect upon your train of thought, and that song was lovely! and then i dled many more of his songs, and im loving it all! so thanks for puttin me on some needed good ish!

>I've watched little gurl
>stay stuck in her shell,
>scared of leaving,

mos def. that fear is familiar to all.

and I've
>blown the dust from between
>my fingers; digging in dirt
>trying to retrieve my roots;

i love those two lines. i can relate to being in that circumstance, and i love how you chose to word it.

>I've tugged onto little gurl,
>afraid to let her go,
>because grown women don't
>need direction.
>Grown women can't fall
>into their fathers' laps and
>dream about days before
>divorces and second wives.
>And I find myself wanting
>to be a little gurl again,
>sucking in the airyness that was
>my life. Blending in
>with the shadiest of crowds...
>Pulling my past back
>into me...
>I am not a little gurl anymore
>
>
>or am I?
>
>©Tremaine L. Loadholt

reading that last part, i could sense my angst thats related to the fear i mentioned earlier. lol. and thats what its all about. being touched, and hopefully moved.
i felt the last line left me a little unsure, unfortunately. i didnt know where to go from there.
however, i enjoyed reading this piece, and thank you for the movement.

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"Life is 10 percent condition and 90 percent response -- that's something my father used to say -- it's not the situation, it's how you respond to it." - Mos Def

so i'll forgive the unfortunate fact that it was inspired by john mayer

theres a lot of notsosubtle nastiness going on here..im always partial to that...good work.

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that's cool tho.. and thanks for your words.. um, I didn't intend on some "nastiness" being in the piece, but if you felt as tho that is the case, then... cool for you Unc~ Peace.



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never myself how to swim
in holy water. ©Aeon

I weigh
my body. ©John Mayer

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http://www.lulu.com/content/7598631
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>that's cool tho.. and thanks for your words.. um, I didn't
>intend on some "nastiness" being in the piece, but if you
>felt as tho that is the case, then... cool for you Unc~
>Peace.

to be honest, i never really listened to an album of john mayers or anything, but i just remember having bad first impressions of him...he just seems to exude gayness, not sure where i get that. anyway...

so...when i said nastiness i meant..hmmm..like..sexual connotations and undercurrents..none of that was intended? i mean..theres a lot of sexual imagery, freudians would have fielddays with this...am i going fishing an empty pond here? id be interested in hearing what u think.

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i'd have to agree with this, the freudian field-day comment that is, the piece as a whole felt very incomplete to me, it seemed to be missing something, i like john mayer personally, and this reminded more of the song '83 (rather then clarity), where he kinda holds onto childhood memories, but i liked this piece but i just felt like it was missing something...nice drop, peace

Let me sport my Air Hyperbole 2010s in peace. (c) ansomble

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Afeni Shakur on personal courage, XXL October 2003.

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ha..aren't we all individuals still holding onto our childhood selves..oh this was beautiful..

..

"Awe, to be a child again."
That was one of thing I got from this, well just the idea of how some people wish they could turn back time.

When you're little, you want to fast fwd.
Years and years go by, and you wish you could rewind.
Then there are times when you just want to pause and marvel
at life.

Tre, this was dope, better term: soul embracing. I felt your words, and I have to say I'm loving this piece.
Haaa so much I want to say about this one lol..half of it takes up the entire page, then the other half I'm still trying to put in words.

Peace Tre~

-What In Bennie Hannah's Fourtune Cookies Are You Talking About?!

in 2 mins u had me wishing i had a daddy/ remembering the heals & the smell of avon lipstick/ wishing i didnt have to get a job & that i could stop fighting with the person im supposed to be loving/ what can i say/ i love the poetry that reflects & u done set a mirror on a page/ tremaine, u always give me something to hold onto/ something i can remember seven mins after the poem/ shalom

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+

I
wrap
myself
around a
celestial
tree

and from there

I can see

Patterns
of
eternity
that stick with me and
make impact, so that
the struggle

has meaning

-gsquared


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n/m

Let me sport my Air Hyperbole 2010s in peace. (c) ansomble

Building repetoires (c) spm since 1983

jus a suggestion becuz it is beautiful and truthful

"There is nothing more poetic, but depressing than a male writer" -yours truly

Dec, I think we better INBOX Know or Del, nahmean?

A guitar string vibrating, a measure of my soul, a breech in the silence --
I've always felt like words come through me & I write them down... they have no master --- gsquared ♥

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uppin til she gets her spot

"There is nothing more poetic, but depressing than a male writer" -yours truly

lil gurls/lil bois...shit you make all adults wish for childhood again, thanks


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