"A Year Later.... Remembering Nikki a.k.a 3rd i..." Mon Aug-20-07 11:19 PM by KnowOne
as we all know/remember Tichana aka "Nikki"/"3rd i" took her life this time last year on August 21st 2006. http://www.myspace.com/3rd_i
A year later... it still hurts like hell... and we all miss her. But at least she has finally found peace.
Rest in peace boo.... luv & miss ya.
Any one have any memories or words to share?
Is there any one here dealing with their own issues or problems that need someone to talk to or for advice to avoid following in Nikki's foot steps?
If anyone is considering suicide,PLEASE get help! Pick up the phone and call a friend, call a family member, call 911 or 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) or go to the website http://www.hopeline.com
Inbox ME! Or ask me for my number and I'll gladly give it to ya.
And for anyone dealing with those type feelings.... I know that every day is a struggle... but dont stop fighting!!!
One.....
_________________________________________ "Too weird to live.... too rare to die..."
72. "my sentiments exactly" In response to Reply # 2
damn. I hope she's at peace.
----------------------------- "Since it is art that translates civilization from one generation to the next, "art" is a quality-of-life need that cannot be disputed."
------------------------------ "Astroglide is like Jesus: it makes a way out of no way!" - two okps who shall remain nameless, in order to protect the innocent.
4. "i remember chatting with her" In response to Reply # 0
and her mentioning that one of her dreams was to lay down at the foot of a tree in a rain forest and just 'feel' the enormity of being there. maybe she'll make her way there in her own way.
maybetomorrow Member since Oct 20th 2004 17407 posts
Tue Aug-21-07 07:36 AM
19. "god...time flies : (" In response to Reply # 0
>A year later... it still hurts like hell... and we all miss >her. >But at least she has finally found peace. > >Rest in peace boo.... luv & miss ya.
i just sent an inbox to her myspace account a couple of weeks ago....i know noone will see it, but just seeing her smiling face made my day. my fav pic was of her and PlanetInfinite(?).
> >Any one have any memories or words to share?
I was so glad that I got the chance to finally meet her when she came to Atlanta for Angie's book signing....it was so good to see her smile and laugh in person. I have one of our last convos saved on AIM...she was talking about the guy she was dating...and she was happy. I was lamenting over my former frustrating as hell job....i remember her telling me that it's ok to step out of your comfort zone...and not to take just anything because you are looking to run from that job. I hope she sees that i got the job that i wanted.
I do remember that my heart broke and it still hurts because I was supposed to be in S. Georgia (near Brunswick) not too far from her...the week after she passed and she invited me over for dinner because i was gonna be trapped in that hotel room watching Matlock reruns. Sometimes I wonder what if i could have moved my trip up a week...because i knew my job wouldn't have cared.
maybe you will bless us with your all seeing third eye, bitch Đearthqueen
Bitch it does NOT take a village. It takes ONE person doing her job right. Đ janey
I shook my head and said "Bitch, I'm from the south! Home of twerkers! Đ Laz AKA Black Native
i actually started posting right when this was going down. it was one of the things that drew me into this forum. to see the love and support you guys were giving each other, and of course love to 3rdI, showed me that this place was alright, and full of folks i could spend/waste a lot of time with. i've been here pretty much every day since. okp and gd particular has a big heart, its hard to see sometimes with all the snark flyin' around, but the love is there.
Rest In Peace, 3rdI, you will always be missed by those that were close to you
40. "Time Passes Quickly." In response to Reply # 0
Hadn't realized a year has already passed.
She was a great friend. Always willing to listen and give advice to whatever b.s. I was going through. We worked together for over a year, made workdays actually tolerable. I can't remember a time I didn't see her smiling, even when shit wasn't going great...
One of the few women on the boards who posted in High Tech. I remember we both got PSPs around the same time and were going back and forth with Lumines scores.
45. "glad to have met her. *sigh*" In response to Reply # 0
it's bad when I visit her page because I was the first person to leave a comment after the announcement.
Had I read before I replied... *shakes head*
well, nothing I could've done at that point either.
It's just been a goal of mine this year to keep closer to those I call my friends. Someone might be smiles on the outside but you won't really know what lies beneath unless close contact is kept.
~!~
Chocolate Rain 'Flippin cars in France the other night Chocolate Rain Cleans the sewers out beneath Mumbai
48. "I've been waiting for this post. Dreading it in some ways." In response to Reply # 0
So many things remind me of Nikki. I miss our long talks about stupid shit. She made me laugh. A lot. Whenever I see some new Sci Fi show or something else equally as nerdy, and i say that with the highest endearment, I think about how Nikki would have liked that and i get sad about how we can't talk about it for hours on end. Her loss was a shock and yes, it still hurts bad. I won't forget her. And I wish her nothing but peace. I hope we get a chance to catch up on our shared nerdiness one day.
55. "Resignating light (an ode)" In response to Reply # 0
A year to date a solar eclipse trapsed darkness over my heart covering a light that strove to find shine a heart clentched between teeth of a hurting smile saddened eyes covered by hazel concealers reflecting back only as much happiness as you showed Today as I sit in my lonely room communicating again with the only few that felt her I am warmed the contacts I realize were shades to protect ME for the light was much stronger than I could have fathomed laying there.... scientists say grass needs sun to grow too so even in death, I guess she gave life The sun is shining for the first time today since I've been in Chicago and I know why
SELAH
A cyclops seer me myself and 3rd i blind leading the blind kind bleeding in rhyme I'm needing the shine
FOREVER MISSED
AND KNOWONE... stay up bro knowing that we are with you feeling it simotaneously that ugly beast of lonliness cannot consume you
LOVE
_____________________________________ WITH CUZ (STACEY) GONE, I'LL NEVER REALLY BE HERE AGAIN
I swear I'm a marry an OKP
Nakia Genevieve are my middle names... Not my attempt to morph Phenom with Novembersgift... But...
60. "she recorded a couple things for me to put to music...." In response to Reply # 0
one I've poasted before
but I've been recently listening to the other again and I really can't decide if I should do it... I think I will need to finish it but I don't think I'll poast it...
I hope she knows how much I miss her and love her and I hope she knows great peace.
and it still saddens me ~~~~ If you bury your face in your tear-stained pillow and beg God to please send you your soul mate, may you not slur your words in such a way that they sound like "cell mate." ~~~~
65. "I may not have know her" In response to Reply # 0
but i do remember when the post was made telling the tragic news.
i hope that the good memories she shared with people in this community are never forgotten.
hopefully she found peace, and it help to think that she didn;t do it outa self haterd, but of self loved she took herself away from what was hurting her and she is now smiling in peace andf happiness
ŋIf a fat guy falls in the woods and there is no one around to see it, do the trees laugh?
we spoke on the phone a few times...and i will always feel bad for the fact that I stopped taking your calls and rarely answered your IM's...it was a selfish thing for me to do...
and even though your death didnt occur until well after the fact, I always wish I had still been your friend in your time of need.
75. "I was just thinking of her not being around yesterday." In response to Reply # 0
Because she used to always be among ther first names you'd see on page 1 if you clicked "author"...which I did yesterday, which reminded me of that fact.
kill all whites today & we'll still be f'd up. we fight over BS political ideas & ethnic allegiances but scared to defend resources of our own land. the only savior is self--thegodcam
77. "I got an inbox from her August 18th 2006" In response to Reply # 0 Wed Aug-22-07 07:15 AM by ailicess
that said :
Honey, i told my husband that when we have kids ALL of them will have dreadlocks cuz i SUCK at doing hair. i'll ship u a box of some Pink Oil Moisturizer and u just hand it out to those women who's kids hair is fucked up!!!! hahhahaa
I didnīt know her but "knew of her" for years (She hit me based on a post I had made) and I thought the message was real sweet and funny. Then a couple of days later I saw a post that she had passed away. I couldnīt believe it. It was so sad, still is.
79. "RE: A Year Later.... Remembering Nikki a.k.a 3rd i..." In response to Reply # 0
I didn't know her and I think I joined up after August 06' but I feel the pain in here. My Aunt ended her life around the same time Nikki did last year. Everyday its hard she was one of those people you always thought would be there in every phase of your life and i miss her with every breath I take.
I am sorry to all of those who were touched by, knew, loved Nikki. May she rest in peace.
*I wish I could have read some of her posts, she seemed like an extremely inspirational sista*
*************************************** LURKER, but I'm gonna start posting more.
84. "i'm serious. just happened to read the blog today" In response to Reply # 83
for the first time in a long time, and i saw some comments a month or two old on her last blog entry. the profile is private and she ain't a friend, so i'm not sure its her. but i guess some people here know her. just thought i'd point it out for those that might communicate w/ her.
92. "and, she is still missed" In response to Reply # 0
it's very admirable of you to post a rather helpful site for others who maybe considering suicide or for those who know someone who has considered it more than once...
95. "i haven't forgotten her. damn i still have her number :-(" In response to Reply # 0
"oh, and uh. I was telling Detroit Defender this morning, I got come up with a WHOLE new routine for your ass. Fat Jokes won't work anymore." -Disco DJ
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