generally grimoires are used in power gaining rituals from what I've researched, the title doesn't actually refer to myself but others I've introduced into some of the "esoteric" arts in my life..

Selfishness cannot attain true magic, but only makes tools of the users
I guess why I wrote this was because some people feel like there work in magic grows out of control
when in fact, harmonious magic and nature "wonders" happen due to proper timing and vibrations
rather than any ownership of power to wield over this world
real magic in my experience doesn't come from selfish grimoires but through living in the moment and finding the path to healing whatever we dwell on and forgiving ourselves/others

in essence, thats why they must overcome fear
to attain true magic, which is itself existence

and as for me looking like a wizard..
i think you're starting to catch on to where i've been and where i'm going to