Running with no destination in sight
Is the result of continously trying to control the fight
I'm not a glutton for power
Just a heart-on-the-sleeve-wearing type of fellow
I desire love and to be loved endlessly
But for some reason life doesn't have that plan for me
Have you ever had a time where your heart has skipped a beat
Not the usual lub-dub pattern, but one that begins to bleed
It used to beat to the step of her heavenly sight
But now shes gone, and thus the beginning of the flight
Of my feelings which are crashing.
She chose to go, for reasons rather confusing
I hear the words used to explain, but still don't know why she's using
A time alone from me
To feel more grown
What happened to growing together
To experience things side by side, a bond never severed
To strengthen the love, down to our very essence
To sit in life's school and understand its lessons
Holding hands, with interlocking fingers
Used to be the signal that nothing in the world could linger
Above our reach
We could encounter anything that came our way
But now on my own I have nothing to say
I stay silent
Not because I choose to, but because my thoughts have been exhausted
Exhausting my soul is causing it to be lost, its
Hard to feel anymore
My other half has walked out the door
And left me with a whole in my chest
As long as she's happy, then it's for the best
But as it happens...I die slowly
My personality begins fading and I go unknowing
What the future holds
If its meant to be it will happen, people always say
But me not knowing why she wants independence today
Scares me for tomorrow.
So now I go to sleep, trying to remove every thought I retain
I hope to never awake, so pain I will never again feel
And I pray that if I wake, all of this wont be real.