My father is only with my mother
because his life was ugly
and she had the support system of her family
to meet his needs

so i was forced into it
I mean, into the projects-as a networking event
So- I would deal with
broke cats
and I would be replaced with rich girls (that my mother knew)
how you like that?

Had no idea, cuz I was forced-
pushed into the poor life
But it was in my heart
to find a guy
based on love- not money
I never been superficial
more like deep and emotional

So i ran away from home
to find the love that I longed
for
and in return I end up hurt
always
needs not met always
kept it going- for my kids
been a single parent since 17
shelters n shit-stumbling
always left in the end
to pick of the peices
But i carried on
for the love of my child (now children)

only for them to be taken
cuz people wouldn't leave me alone
cuz they wanted me to be with them
so they could have someone sent in

I am not a dating network
more like staged to look I deserve it
but the truth is -it's a business transaction
but who cares right? I'm just one person...

and I'm supposed to feel bad when
I don't have shit
and I'm hurting
Probably worse than you
oh and my father's my step dad
doesn't that say something to u
I ran away from home cuz of all the abuse
only to be replaced
but yes, I am able to maintain
because I've had some temporary breaks
they use materials to compensate
but that's not enough anymore
why you tryin' to just "keep me goin"
stagin' me and tryin to paint me golden
and my emotions
can't take being hurt over and over again
and manipulated
& blocked from any chance I get
to get away from this

push, shove, push, shove coooast

you have it better than me
guarateed

my life is an obstacle course
and I'm quaranteened









shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


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