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Amai_1
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Wed Sep-06-06 05:30 PM

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"I need..."


  

          

I realized today
That I’m in need of something…

I’ve been chasing love
Affection
And passion.

Only to find lust
Lonliness
And fear.

So many times
I thought I would simply
Die.

But I never did.

I can’t remember
How many nights
I sobbed.
Asking God
To allow me to simply
Never awaken.

I can’t remember
How many times
I screamed and cried
At the pain of returning to the same juncture in my life.

I used to think it was me.
That I was somehow
Not good enough.
Eventually I realized
I was exactly how
God meant me to be.

I realized
I was not the problem
But in fact, I was the one
Attracting the wrong ones
Time and time again.

I keep searching
Hoping
Wishing
That this time
I found the one to help me see,
That without of all of that pain
I couldn’t appreciate
His soul so much.

But each and every time
It’s the same old shit
“I don’t want a girlfriend.”
“I’m not ready for a relationship.”
“This has nothing to do with you.”
“This is just bad timing.”

And on and on and on…

But this time.
Today.
Right now…

I realize that I don’t need
Love
Affection
Or passion.

I don’t need
A lover
A man
A *person*
To bring
Happiness to me.

All I need to do

Is Heal.

  

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I need... [View all] , Amai_1, Wed Sep-06-06 05:30 PM
 
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My Goodness ...
Jan 29th 2007
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I hear you
Jan 29th 2007
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RE: I hear you
Apr 05th 2007
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there ya go.
Apr 06th 2007
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Apr 12th 2007
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