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Funny thing for me..
In sports, I actually had a moment in 8th grade where I realized that I was 6'1, 200 lbs (most guys in my grade were 80-100 lbs less than that, on average) and I was still outrunning cats in the 40 and popping 6 minute miles- which was in the top 3 every time we ran it. Unfortunately, bad circumstances ended my sporting career early..
But for art.. I've always felt.. odd. Like around the people I know in real life, there's only a few REALLY talented people.. So when I show a friend something, they generally act pretty impressed. But iv'e always chalked it up to they being my friend.. they can be harsh, but would they bash on something they knew I'd poured my soul into?
Actually, why I write here.. is in part for validation. Like, I have two different sets of pieces for the most part.. the shit I write in my notebook, and the shit I write for OKP. My drops on OKP are generally originally crafted in this little white box I'm writing in right now. I still pour myself into them, but I make myself express what I feel, and then leave it. Come back a while later and check on it.. but I'm guilty of hoping to get a large response every time I hit "post". S'why I have so much love for this place.. the first time I ever picked up a pen and a pad and tried to write hip hop.. All I got was love.
C Lo (known here as Newsic NoyC, aka Carlo) had a big part in that, always giving me encouragement and shit, but again- he knew me. I've always figured that people on OKP would give it to me straight.. Either telling me a verse was stupid or just not responding.
So, I guess even though it wasn't the point of the post- and I apologize, ChaoticThing - I never had that moment.. I have a miniature version every time somebody tells me my spots are hot. "What is done in love always takes place beyond good and evil." -- Nietzsche
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