>>
>>don't feel like you gotta be superman. regardless of faith,
>>you are filled with emotions that will need release. don't
>>fight that part. use that energy instead on comforting your
>>dad, and your family, and taking care of yourself.
>
>I had a talk with my wife about this very thing today. Man you
>were all in our Kool-Aid. I have been doing this very thing
>and she called me out on it and I knew she was 100% right.
>
>I told her that I'm waiting on the dam of emotions to break
>because I don't feel the pain yet. I'm due for an emotional
>release. Plus, I've been ministering to my Sister who was
>just burned over 36% of her body, her husband who's moms is
>terminally ill and whose sister was just in a horrible
>motorcycle accident. Not to mention that they are having
>serious marital issues because of his recent infidelity. Plus
>my neighbor has Brest Cancer, and we have been helping her get
>trough this period. Plus, Injured my leg playing flag
>football, my wife was in a car accident and is recovering well
>now, but still, it's been stressful. Plus the pains of being
>newlyweds.LOL Not to mention Work (which is cool) I'm a PM, so
>stress is par for the course. And then there is Life and my
>Son who is in College, dealing with family, plus the issues
>that my friends want me to give counsel on.... Soooooo. Yeah!
>I' NEED SOME DANG SELF-CARE!
>
>Thank you so much for praying for me man. I need it.

yeah, you got a lot going on. i'm sure your mentors in ministry have told you about this, also, but even from a secular perspective it's easy to get to a place where your empathy, care and support for others can blind you to the need of same for yourself.

sometimes it's just a blindspot, and other times it's pride (ie, the disciples' initial reluctance to let Jesus wash their feet).

when i was really going through it 3 yrs ago, ppl from on here (thanks again, alla y'all) as well as my wife and kids were telling me similar stuff. it helps at least to know that the dam is gonna break at some point. i don't know that it lessens the pain, but at least i kind of understood what was going on.

i will most definitely keep you and yours lifted up (as well as continuing to pray for your dad's peace and comfort).




peace & blessings,

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focus on working hard you end up making someone else rich and
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