And it's not because I particularly have a hard or painful life. I don't suffer from depression or anything like that. Quite the opposite.

But mortality is starting to set in as I watch my parents and older people I love get old and pass and I have come to appreciate the fact that everyone I will ever know and love will eventually die (if I don't die first). And many will have painful, sad deaths.

Having kids have given me a joy I've never known, but freaks me out because I've come to love these little people to a point that I would be utterly destroyed if they were taking away from me. And you read the paper and see how easy it is for them to be taken away from you.

I am not sitting in a corner rocking back and forth. Again, I got a good life, I feel blessed and I am generally a happy person.

But I've reached a point where this thought is always at the back of my mind even at the happy moments (Compare that to being in my 20s and thinking I was invincible).

I don't make this post to make people who aren't thinking about this think about this. I know there are people out there (and on here) who have real problems and struggling with real issues of depression. But the truth is I ain't saying anything new here. I am just wondering if anyone else has internalized these truths in a way that has changed them the way it has changed me.

Or maybe I am hoping someone will drop a gem on me to cheer me up when I start thinking about this.

Anyway, Happy 2017 everyone!!!!

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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"