This is the current fuckery happening in my life.

(The words "ex" and "co-worker" applied loosely here bc we aren't official exes, moreso ex-"dating partners," and we're not the type of co-workers that have to see each other everyday; we're both contractors for the same company and work remotely.)

I ended it in march. It was amicable. We'd been going back and forth with some emotional drama afterwards and in the midst of it, the company I consult for hired him/his company. The emotional drama has mostly but not completely been resolved and my clients (who know we know each other) have started asking me to contact him for xyz.

So this man straight up hurt me and now I gotta deal with his ass professionally to do my damn job. I have to talk to him on the phone. I have to cc him on emails. I have to coordinate shit with him. I have to hear others talk about him and hope my face does not rearrange itself into something unprofessional. While at the same time, I've been missing him so bad and it actually feels good and right to talk to him again, especially about something we are both passionate about (health). I think it's kinda cool that we get to work together and experience each other in another way, but it is throwing me the fuck off.

Trying to stay positive about it but I can't believe this shit is happening to me!

Thanks, OKP! I needed to vent. You're always right here when I need you.