34. "I know the lines are tapped" In response to In response to 0
but I'ma say this anyway.
I'm always going to love her but...
I don't feel she supports me like I need, I mean I've been in long relationships(granted none this long) and when it's right, I'm active and creative and more the me I know I am. I haven't written anything but a few 16's in years, no stories, no poetry. I give so much of myself that I have nothing left for me...
and I don't know how much longer I can do this. I am not the person I thought I would be or want to be with her and being the man of the house isn't enough to push this feeling off, I've tried.
I never got that feeling with her and still don't. I thought in the beginning that it was just that I was caught up working to build this life for us and I slow down from time to time. But the women in my life have always been my muses and even when I'm busy as shit, they've inspired me.
Fuck, I gotta go take a walk, this is why I don't mess with these posts cause once I start, I might not stop and the last thing I want to do is hurt her but she's gonna be.
I'm from the city of sun and seas, wind breeze, money make love turn to enemy, highest crime rate in the vicinity