Lol. So I'm extremely sensitive. I don't like to be treated like I'm not important, or like I'm too important. I don't like the focus to be on me but I don't like to be ignored. I need reassurance and validation so I give those things to others expecting that since I do so I will get it back in return. I believed life wasn't about what u can take from others, but what you can give and I thought life was fair enough to reciprocate that. I thought relationships weren't about money, but love. I thought things were supposed to make sense as you go through them but realize nothing makes sense. You have to be selfish, you have to not hold people to the words they say. You have to say fuck it to other people's feelings but somehow be nice. I don't have to listen just because someone is talking and sometimes it's best to omit information or lie to get what you need. Having too much of a conscious leaves you jaded and depressed. Life isn't fair and you shouldn't expect it to be or try to be fair to everyone.
And somehow, find a way to not feel bad about it.
Yeah, the happiest I've been is when I allow myself to be depressed. ♥♥Church Diva♥♥