i mean the hardest decision about all of this is (i may have said this above) it's not the type of shit i'd choose for myself. i'm not completely anti-drug mind you but i'm pretty cautious, and basically all that caution had to be thrown out the window as i put my son in these doctors hands.

of course they tell you about the primary drug. that shit was a doozy and i prepared myself for it as best i could but i don't think i really wa prepared for the fact he's gonna be on drugs for a while.

the steroids not just got him body hair but his voice is changing and shit. he's moody as fuck. a bunch of aggression. again remember he's seven. and as much as i can tell myself well thats a part of the effect of the drugs, another side of it is recognizing that this is shaping who he is emotionally and physically.

he;s on a shit ton of preventative anti biotics. i can't stand antibiotics. the idea of preventative anti-biotics is just dumb to my holistic perspective. but he can't get sick so they load him up for the anti-biotics of everything they can fucking think of.

and i gotta dose his ass. everyday three times a day i gotta serv him up his little drug coctails. shit be kiling me.

all of that said, he's recovering at a pace faster than the doctors epected and he's still my son, and i'm so happy to be having so many moments of joy and laugher with him right now. you don't even know.

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"I ain't no entertainer, and ain't trying to be one. I am 1 thing, a musician." � Miles

"When the music stops he falls back in the abyss."