Believe nothing, it's all chance. There is nothing consistent or constant So why even bother try to explain things, using KMT knowledge, Masonic knowledge, 5%, Islamic, Christian... Just prepare for the worst. You will get sick. You will be heart broken. Someone will try to stop you from doing what you want to do. Things aren't going to go right at least once.
Now that you know that most folks go through the worst case scenario, run your life accordingly.