first thing that came to mind when I read the updateedit: this really fucked me up, reading this news manI was hoping it wasn't what it turned out to be. since what little I knew of dude didn't seem to suggest anything else but a freak occurrencethis was one of the few dudes who truly "got it", and I guess that's part of being a native for love for home.we didn't always agree, but based on that common bond I always felt obligated to show him respect.goddamn man.depression is a motherfucker.