okay...so um
like
yea. hey mom
yes, you're mom.
thats right, look over here.
okay...so um
like
yea. how come
we never have pizza for dinner?
how come we always have to
rely on the stupid microwave?
so like...would it absolutely KILL YOU
to cook once in awhile?
yea i know...you're tired.
how do you think i feel? i've had to um...
walk 2 miles from school. and its hot. and i'm wearing these
clothes that
dont compliment
my butt. and um everyone
stares.
yea go on, walk out of the room.
hey!
i didn't really mean that! why can't you just sit still and LISTEN?
fine. go away. i didnt need you anyway,
i'm DADDY'S little girl!
okay...so um
like. yea. hey daddy?
no, i'm over here.
yea. so um, like mom said no to pizza. can you
give me 5 bucks? no its not for makeup.
...oh god. don't give me that line.
"you are naturally pretty"
natural? whos natural these days?
its not natural to be like THIS.
with this nose.
and these ears.
and this smile.
i blame YOU, ya kno.
for this...skin.
and mom for this...butt
so about that 5 bucks...
hey! put that newspaper down. im TALKIN' HERE!
i swear, ive got the lamest parents
EVER.
um...so like dad...why are you never home?
is it cause of mom? i know shes annoyin' but
sometimes she...
she gets that way, ya kno?
i saw you nod. you're nodding! see i told ya im right.
so dad, when are you going to let me borrow the car?
i already got my permit. and
um...there's somethin
that i've gotta do.
i have to go
get rid of this butt. ya kno, everyones um, doin' it.
and um
i can't wear these pants anymore.
so like, i've got to get some new
pants. to go with the new, butt.
cause the butt is from mom.
and ya know...while i'm at it....
OKAY! so don't listen to me!
FINE! i don't have to listen to you guys either! go ahead and leave me ALONE!
i just want to be ALONE!
i cant stand either one of you. you people MAKE ME SICK.
ugh, i think i'm going to HURL...why do you have to make me eat this?
you know it's only going to add to my BUTT.
and then you guys will point out...the ZITS that i'm getting.
if you guys would LISTEN once in awhile!
you would KNOW what i do after school.
you would, like KNOW who my friends are...
that i have NO friends...that i'm starving but afraid
to eat...
that i really didnt get my permit
that all i want is for you to TEACH ME how to drive
that i need more than 5 bucks
'cause 5 bucks CANT BUY SHIT!
if you guys would like...stop
and smile
like NORMAL people.
and not be on the phone so freakin' much.
you'd like, know! you'd know all these things!
and i wouldn't um...
have to hide.
myself when you
fight.
and i wouldn't have to um...
run to the phone. or take such long showers to cry.
and why don't you come into my room
and hold me...dad? when i'm crying? you should know! i KNOW
you HEAR ME. why can't you do it
like on tv. those dads hold their
little girls.
why don't you people CARE?
am i that
hideous?
i didnt ASK to look this way.
i didnt ASK to be this dumb.
or be this deformed.
why can't you just CARE?
and smile more.
and give me hugs.
like...i give my hugs
why cant i
lay down and feel
like
i'm secure?
so um, like...i'm desperate here okay?
no...wait i didn't SAY that.
i said um, so like i want you all to know
that
from this day...on, or somethin'
i want you all to know
that i'm SICK and TIRED of being
so ANNOYED by YOU PEOPLE!
and that i want you to
stop fighting and ignoring each other
and stop being so
freakin' blind all the time.
and look around
um, and see
that i'm um...gonna run
yea, ima run one day.
and you'll see. just you wait.
then you will really pay attention.
and know
that i'm gone.







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